January 1, 2019
Dear Diary,
It's a new year, but I don't feel any different. The weight of everything that happened last year still presses down on me. I've been trying to move forward, to live a normal life, but it's hard. The System is still with me, a constant reminder of the chaos I've endured.
Today, I decided to take a walk through the town, to clear my head. The streets were quiet, and for a moment, I felt a sense of peace. But then, everything changed.
January 2, 2019
I found Axel's body. He was lying in an alley, lifeless and cold. There were no signs of a struggle, no indication of what had happened. Just… Axel, gone.
I called the police, and they took him away. They said it looked like natural causes, but I know better. The timeline, the battles, the stress—it must have been too much for him. I tried to save him, but in the end, I couldn't.
Standing there, staring at his body, I felt an emptiness I hadn't felt before. Without Axel, without the conflict, what is my purpose? The System has gone silent, offering no new quests, no guidance. It feels like everything has come to a halt.
January 5, 2019
I've been thinking a lot about what to do next. With Axel gone, there's no immediate threat, no pressing need to fight. But the world still feels off, like there's something I'm missing.
I decided to visit Mom and Zara. They've been through so much, and I've been so wrapped up in my own battles that I've neglected them. Maybe it's time to focus on healing, on rebuilding the relationships I've strained.
January 10, 2019
Seeing Mom was harder than I expected. She's still grieving for Dad, and I can see the pain in her eyes every time she looks at me. She knows I've been involved in something dangerous, but she doesn't know the details. I'm not sure she ever will.
We talked for hours, about Dad, about the past, about the future. She wants me to move on, to find happiness. I told her I'd try, but it feels like an impossible task right now.
January 15, 2019
I met Zara at our old hangout spot. It was strange, being there without Axel. We talked about him, about the good times we had before everything went wrong. She's angry, confused, and I can't blame her. I wish I could explain everything, but I don't want to drag her into this mess any further.
She told me she's planning to leave town, to start fresh somewhere new. I understand her need to escape, to find a place where she isn't haunted by memories of Axel. I promised to stay in touch, to visit when I can.
January 20, 2019
I've decided to take a break, a long one. The System is still there, a dormant presence, but I need to step away from it all. I need to find myself again, to figure out who I am without the constant pressure of saving the timeline.
I'm going to travel, to see the world and experience life without the burden of the past hanging over me. Maybe, in time, I'll find a new purpose, a new direction. For now, I just need to breathe, to live.
January 25, 2019
As I pack my bags, I can't help but feel a mix of sadness and hope. This town holds so many memories, both good and bad. Leaving it behind feels like closing a chapter of my life.
I don't know what the future holds, but I'm ready to face it. For the first time in a long while, I feel a glimmer of excitement, of possibility. Maybe this is the start of something new, something better.
To Dad, to Axel, to everyone who has been part of this journey—thank you. I'll carry your memories with me, always.
"One door closes another door opens"
~Kyle De Junior