Cookies

~Kasha

Blank. My mind was absolutely blank. I got a text from Blake earlier this morning. He had approached Tessa to deliver a letter to her from Jax only to discover his mate. It was Meira.

Of course it was. The universe just hates me enough to get my only friend mated to someone who doesn't like. What happens out friendship now? If Meira tells Blake she doesn't like me, he might stop hanging out with me. After she is his mate and I'm just a friend he barely knows.

Even if he does hang out with me, Meira might not like it. I don't want to come in between the both of them. I know personally how bad it is to come between two mates. I sighed again for like the 100th time.

I decided to take a stroll to lake at the clearing in the Green Forest. I usually came here to search for clues on the monster but over time I began to like the place. It was quiet, secluded and in the middle of nowhere.

Blake texted me a while ago saying he couldn't meet me for lunch as he and Jax were introducing their mates to the rest of their friends and invited me to join them but I declined.

One thing I hated more than people was even more people. There was also the fact that they were having their little group lunch date at MY favourite tree. You know what. It's fine. The tree doesn't even belong to me any way. It's not like I own the tree. Anyone can use it.

"Kasha!" I spun around when I heard my name only to see Tessa approaching me with Meira and Racquelia in tow. "Hi."

"Hello."

"I've been looking for you all morning. Where have you been?" She asked.

Avoiding you and the rest of the supernatural populace.

"You know just here and there. How did you find me?" I asked.

"I was having lunch with the my mate, Jax and Tessa's mate, Blake, and Blake told us that you guys are actually good friends. He said you liked to stay in the Green Forest and that we'd find you here, so we came here and I tracked you the rest of the way with your scent. I was so shocked when Blake you guys were friends. I didn't know you had friends." Tessa prattled on.

"Yeah. We're not that close." I said and Meira scoffed. Dumb Blake telling everyone my location.

"Well, um, I got some cookies to share with my friends but we ate most of them at lunch but I saved you one." She said stretching out a cookie to me.

I didn't want to collect it. I wasn't going to eat it anyway. I couldn't. But if I declined the cookie I'd give her another reason to hate me.

"Thanks." I said accepting it.

"I made it myself. Taste it and tell me what you think."

"You know what. I think I'll save it for later." I lied.

"Bet she's just gonna chuck it the moment we leave."

"Stop it, Meira."

I don't know whether it was my conscience or my anger but I brought out the cookie and ate it in two bites.

"It tastes great, Tessa." I lied again. I couldn't taste anything.

"Oh, thanks. See, I told you she was going to eat it." Tessa said facing Meira. "We have to get back now but have fun. Bye."

The moment they were out of sight I bolted till I reached the clearing before falling to my knees and puking my guts out. I retched and retched till there was nothing in stomach and even then I continued heaving. I didn't have much in my stomach in the first place.

The revolting sensation of food passing through my throat, even the mere thought of consuming sustenance sickened me to my stomach. I couldn't stand it. When I was done, I felt weak. Spots danced in my vision as everything blurred. This always happened. I would be forced to eat by people, unable to stomach the food I would puke and the stress from eating and puking would leave me weak and most of the time I would pass out.

But if I didn't eat then people would misunderstand me, if I told them what was wrong with the they would mock me. That was exactly why I couldn't stand them.

The lake. I thought. If I could just reach the lake, I could use the water to wash my face and I would feel better. With that thought in mind, I stumbled to my feet and slowly made my easy to the edge of the lake.

When I reached the edge, I knelt down and slowly stretching out my left hand to scoop some water when I suddenly lost all strength in my right arm and fell into the lake. As I sank slowly I thought. I'm tired. I'm so tired of everything and everyone. Maybe this is just a long dream. If I can just close my eyes, I'll wake up and this will all be over.

I woke up with a start on my bed gasping for air. What was that? What is all dream? But it felt so real.

"Took you long enough. I thought you were gonna transform into Sleeping Beauty." Lila said, sarcastically.

"Lila?"

"Yes, Princess."

"W-What am I doing here? How did I get back her?"

"Some dude brought you back."

"A guy? Was it Blake?"

"Nope. He was a fairy. Flew in through the balcony using wind magic. You were also soaking wet so he dried you off, also with his wind magic. Then, he put you on the bed like you were some kind of world-class treasure and left through the balcony again."

"Did you see what he looked like?"

"Nope. He had a mask over his face."

It was my mate. He saved me from drowning in the lake. If he brought me here then he who I was. Why did he leave? Did he not? Ugggh. Thoughts like these are exactly why I don't like mates. He has me doubting myself when I don't even know who he is.

It's a good thing he left.

"What happened to you any way?" Lila asked.

"It's a long story." I groaned as my head began throbbing. I began to debate whether or not I should go to class the next day. Class attendance wasn't compulsory at Wilde. The teachers didn't care whether students came to class or not. If there were students, they would teach and if there weren't then they wouldn't.

The dormitories weren't compulsory either. They were just there as an option. It wasn't considered weird to have a suitemate who didn't return to the room for a month. It was compulsory to resume to the school during the first week of the school year to register for the courses we had that year but that was it.

The only other thing compulsory were the exams. The school was very strict about the exams. Everyone had to take them and you could be expelled for being absent from the exam without a good reason. The only reason I attended classes was because I liked to. I didn't really need to. I was confident I'd pass without attending them.

With that thought, I drifted off to sleep and when I woke up the next morning, I still didn't feel like attending any class so I didn't. Instead I spent the day in my room relaxing in my room and reading romance novels. Occasionally, I would think about my mate and wonder if someone saw him leaving the girl's dormitory area.

There was this rule where guys couldn't enter the girls dormitory but girl's could enter the boy's dormitory. If he was caught he would be in big trouble.

Knock. Knock. I groaned internally. I didn't really want to answer the door. It was probably one of my suitemates and I wasn't ready for another conversation with me pretending to comfortable and them pretending to like me.

Also after the cookie fiasco yesterday, in which I almost drowned to death I might add, I'd say we all deserved a break from each other. The knocks continued for a bit before finally stopping. Just like that I spent the rest of the day in my room.