A Phone Call

After walking out my father house his last word give me a chill, you think you know everything Aiden, keep digging and one day you might end up digging your own grave, the mother you know is not the one I know, maybe dig upon herself instead of my. 

 What the hell does he mean, all my life I know nothing about my mother yes, but she suffer a lot, she always talk down upon my father but never once allow me to talk let alone call him, whenever he approaches us, she always push him away that why we suffer so much.

 I hate him based on her words but me and him never have a relationship nor a conversation, so right now I feel like am torturing myself with so much emotion and anger, what the hell do he know about her, what secret my mother burry herself with. The only way I can get a closure is to talk with that man, and get his side of this fucking story.

 Yes son, my father answer, when I finally allow myself to dial him, what is it son, why do you never fought to win me as your son, why you never fight to see me, why always walk away, why you allow me to suffer my entire existence, why, I scream at my father on the other line.

 My father take a deep breath and said it because your mother didn't allow me to, what you mean, after I get caught with my affairs, she walk away, and when we got divorced she walk with half of everything I have, I didn't fight it because I know I deserve it.

 I try to explain to her it was only one day, I even bring evidence to show her I was drugged, it was a mistake but yet she never let go.

 I give her everything only to have you as part of my life but she didn't want me anywhere near you , she was a woman so she was favor, and I lost, I beg her and I want to her house to see you for your birthday but she call the cop and filled out paperwork to keep me away from you.

 Yes I make a mistake but your mother anger lead us into this situation, and I don't understand why she own everything I have but yet allow herself to suffer that way, and no Jasmine my wife is not my mistress, she was a nice lady that I met when I try to commit suicide, when your mother put me behind bar. 

 Did I hurt your mother yes, did I deserve all those pain and suffering yes, but that does not mean I was sitting here allow the woman that I love and my son to suffer, you could ask your mother lawyer about everything and see if I am lying, your mother is the only person I ever love the way I do but she was to easy to manipulate.

 She let her horrible friends ruin us the way we did, she lost everything, the house, the money, you got the worst part of it all, if she did let me in I would have pick her up and fix it all, and what worst, the person that drug me was the same person that ruin her, jealousy was your mother ruin.

 I told her the bitch was not her friend but she trust her more than me and cause us those painful memories. 

 If you hate me, that ok but my daughters and my wife ain't got nothing to do with that, I pay for my crime am I not allowed to move on, if that all, I would like to go my father whisper, and close the phone.

 I sit down with my hand trembling the phone fall out my hand, tears fall down my eyes, my throat tightening, it getting hard to breathe, why mom, why.

 I don't know for how long I sit down crying, but I decided to look upon what my father just tell me, because if it true what I my supposed to do, am not blaming my mother at all, because if I was on her shoes I might have done worst but what about my father , me, isn't selfish what she have done. 

 If it all true, how am I going to look at my dad family, what if he did get rape, and he get humiliated instead of help, please let it not be true because I don't know how will be able to face my mother grave ward.

 why would she lie to me all my life, I believe her so much, my heart is breaking, everyone around me hurt me so much, yet they never get to understand the consequences of their own actions.

 Am so hurt, am looking into my mother and father divorce, hoping to get both of their lawyers and have a words with both because if it true, how come my mother lost all of that money and didn't save none for me.

 Because right here on the internet it say Billionaire Damian has lost half of his money to his wife after his affairs, his lawyer is fighting for the father to get his right to his son life and education, but only the judge will decide.

 I scroll down and read what my father said: am ok with loosing everything I just want to have the permission to have legal rights towards my son, even though I bring all documents to show that I didn't sleep with someone behind my wife I was drugged but yet no one want to believe me, but am ok with it, I just hope I do get the right to see my son. 

 I close my phone and let my head lean against the door of my office, what the hell am I going to do now, everything I know was a lie and the more I dig the more I hurt my own heart, why mom why, I got to talk with everyone involved in my parents divorce and get in explaining to my mother disaster.