Memories Of The Past

Oh Mike, can you believe it, we going to become parents, Maria smiles at me

Her smile could light up my day, I never seen someone so beautiful as her, since the day I met her in High School, I know we were meant to be together forever, and I couldn't even imagine that how we were supposed to end. We plan it all together, our lives, our dreams, since we where teenagers, so when she told me she was pregnant, I couldn't being more happier, everything is falling into place, but Samantha that witch couldn't help but destroy everything we built, and now all I have is her memories, and it pains me greatly.

I try to move on, I do but Evelyn, can never be my Maria.

  I care for her greatly but not in the way that a husband should, my heart never beats the way it used too.

And I hate myself for it, I told myself I should give her a chance, but how can I when my heart only beat for her.

If only our son knows the way that I cared and love his mother, he wouldn't hate me the way he does, Maria is a stubborn person, and that my only problem with her, she so naive and easy to manipulate.

Her death hit me like a brick, when I was told, even though I was married, I still have hope for us, call me a cheater, but I don't care, Evelyn knows that.

Still now I never understand the reason she stay by my side,

maybe it loneliness, or money, but to be honest I never really cared, she gives me two daughters, and am forever thankful.

But that was all, I can even count on my hands, how many times we slept together, because most of the time I have to force myself into it, and I hate it.

I know what you thinking, why not divorce, I do want to, I even suggested when I catch her sleeping with one of her friends.

But she finds a way to turn around and put the blame on me, I mean I couldn't blame her, she's lonely.

But now that I have the chance to fix my situation with my son,

I know it time for me to come clean about my own emotions, I don't mind sharing the kids custody, and watching my son played with them, the other day, make my heart happy,

who cares all I have are my children's, it makes me more happy then stay in a loveless marriage.

I miss her so much, I hate myself for not fighting for her more, and what hurt the most not being able to be at her funeral, I drink myself to sleep every day and night, ever since her passing, sometimes I even thought of killing myself, but when I thought about my kids, I don't want them to blame themselves over my own actions.

Oh my poor Mary, why did I go to that woman house, even though I know the type of snake she is, why did I go there.

I never regret killing her the way I did.

No one mess with my family and thinking of getting away with it.

When you rich, you can get away with anything.

So call me evil, but she was asking for it, I have a detective looking more into Mary death,

because I feel like there more to it than I know, I need to stay closer to the truth.

And when to truth unfold Samantha better be ready to pay for her crimes, because the same way I ended her little minions, she gets double the pay.

Mike where are you going, Evelyn ask me,

I turn around and look at her, truly look at her, I never see her like that before but now that I look closely,

She resembles so much like Samantha, ok maybe my fuck up mind is playing tricks on me,

no way that sweet woman can be related to her.

Am going to go see Aiden, he got unto in accident, so am going to check up on him.

Why? His an adult, let him deal with his own problems.

Last time I checked that my son, and if you have a problem, like I said again and again we could just walk away from this excuse of a marriage.

I mean you been sleeping with Edmund for a long time, don't you think he deserves a good relationship.

She look like she about to cry, but to be honest am tired of it all.

Why so you could be happy with your dead wife,

the bitch left you, yet you still stuck with her, she screams at me, Fuck you Mike, next time I hope you fucking die.

Repeat what you just said, I walk up to her, I dare her calling my Mary a bitch, I dare that useless bitch disrespect her like that.

First of all, don't you ever on your life disrespect her like that, and second of all, I will never die, after all, I have a will to live, and guess what,

YOU ARE NOT IN IT.

So Evelyn, am done, we getting a divorce, and if I was you, I do it as quickly as possible,

because am not playing no more of your pity party.

You save me, only for you to keep on trolling me for it, am great-full for it but my time is limited and am very much done with you

So while am out, go fuck your friend like you always do, and tell him you a free woman

because when I come back, we will get that divorce, I walk away from her.

When I was about to walk out,

Something flipped over my head, and I feel like my head is spinning,

so you think, after all that hard work you going to leave me, Sammy was right, you are addicted to that bitch.

Am glad we kill her, such a shame you be next.

Man, I needed to find a way to get rid of her,

my head is killing me, but I need to stay strong enough to make a good run,

While Evelyn, is walking around wapping about what God knows, I find a way to unlock the door and make a run,

I run as long as I can feel myself holding up,

I didn't even bother to look behind I climbed up inside my car and speed up.

But one thing I learned is that the devil really have two faces,

and now I need to get myself together and ready to face my reality.