I was quite angsty back then huh?
lol.
Reading all of these old journals of mine has been so weird for me.
Cathartic even, I continue to say.
These old words hold so much power, so much effect, so much sway.
It's wild how palpable the visions that come are...
How deeply profound the emotions are that reignite as my heart and mind are catapulted back in time with each turn of the page.
You all are so lucky to be only the reader lol.
The spectator.
I appreciate that you linger here amongst these memories with me.
That these words resonate with you for whatever reason.
Thank you kindly for your invested time and energy.
I will leave you to what you came for lol.
Enjoy.
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March 18th, 2013.
Journal #054.
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My mind is slowly clearing up.
I'm flawed.
But I accept that because I am human.
There is little that I can do but work hard and keep my faith in my god.
Save save save.
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-I can't recall what was clouding my mind so much back then, but I probably wouldn't be far off in guessing that It had something to do with a young lady lol.
If I recall, I was still dating...well, no names lol
I was dating someone that I now see was definitely a rebound, and that sucks lbvs. I know that we all have been there, but it still sucks to look back and realize that a couple of our exes were just that.
-I say that I am human...but listen lol
Hear me out!
Nah, I'll stop before my FBI Agent starts looking a little closer at my Ancestry.com lmaoooo.
Humanity is...strange. Weird. Soooooo many other descriptive words.
Especially us Americans lol.
I just live here lol on this weird, wet, wonderous rock called "Earth"
Whatever the hell that word means lol
-I am quite Spiritual, but I am not really one for organized religion.
I don't and will never judge anyone else's beliefs, just as long as they aren't hurting anyone.
Who am I to judge?
Shit, who are YOU to judge?
If you've been reading my works for this long, you probably know by now that I was raised Pentecostal for the better part of my youth before my parents shifted us to Baptist.
I took what I could and would from those two sects, and I believe what I will.
As should all of you.
I will see you all back here for the next one.
I am sure that it'll be much longer lol.
Stay safe out there folks, the world is a strange place.
Keep your wits and heads about you.
Till next time:
Stay safe.
Stay healthy.
Stay vigilant.
-Redd.