BlackGuyInnaBowtie

Just more old journal entries of mine, but this time things are a bit more...weighty? Complicated? 
These journals were written 12 years after those of Volume 1! 
Let us cringe a little more.
Maybe a little less?
Looking back now, I wasn't that naive...was I?

*Names will be omitted and replaced with "XXXXX" in order to keep some semblance of privacy.*

Old Journals of a Millennial. Volume 2.

I just hope that it is at least an interesting case.

I hope that you all have been well, as well.

Sorry for not getting to that part immediately lol.

These old journals of mine have been kicking me right in the heart, you know?

Looking back and seeing how...smitten I was with this woman.

How captivated and madly and maddingly in love I was with her even before we had gotten anywhere close to being together.

I will save the introspection for AFTER the time traveling lol

-UPDATE! I have to go tomorrow! LBVS 3/5/25 and I don't want to lol.-

She seems to just have it all known so well.

I can't say that one didn't hurt...

So I did what I always do, what I do best: write.

The poem said it all and XXXXX knew what I meant by it.

XXXXX wasn't wrong in saying anything she said, but the truth hurts nonetheless.

How deeply I wish I could believe that.

But I know that a huge part of me knows differently.

I know I shouldn't (or should I?) but for us, I hold no high hopes...

Sadly the higher you are, the more it hurts once you fall.

So what more pain than this have I to fear?

Her rejection would not be the death of me.

Just a critical wound I'd have no choice but to bear.

This head of mine is far too soft for my own good.

But in the end, if we are just friends, then what will be, will be...

I'm not 26 yet and she isn't 29...

Well...I can't recall what that young lady said that got to me so much lol, but apparently, It was effective enough to inspire a poem lbvs.

I'll have to look through all of my older stuff and hunt down that specific one!

That -to me- is just life and a key part of it at that.

Love comes in many shades and forms and lessons.

-I lied. I had such high hopes for us back then. So high in fact, that had it all fallen apart, I may have just died.

-A part of me wonders what my life would be like at this time had we never become a thing, had we simply never gotten past the friend zone.

I wonder, and those musings drive me just a little mad at times, you know?

Spoilers are a thing that no one enjoys.

Just keep reading and it'll all lead you to where I am now, sitting here writing and posting these old journals of mine.

-This head of mine is still soft lol. Go read some of my poetry lbvs.

I hope that you all recall that this is a true story lol.

See you all back here soon enough, yeah?

Thank you for 31.88K English Views!

And and additional 18.73K in Spanish!

I love you all, and I look forward to exploring the rest of these old pages with you all.

Till next time folks, and as always, safe travels.

Chapter 61. "Once you fall."