Chapter 114 Love or Habit: A Second Chance

Chapter 114 Love or Habit: A Second Chance

Li Xin glared at Yan Ruozhe. How could Yan Ruozhe be in her house? This heartless woman, she thought. Yan Ruozhe had said they weren't suitable. Li Xin had been working so hard to forget her, so why was she here again? Saying they weren't suitable? Li Xin had tried so hard to make it work, tried so hard to stop loving her. What more could Yan Ruozhe possibly want? Li Xin demanded angrily.

"I take back everything I said before, and I apologize for those words." Yan Ruozhe felt she still needed to apologize for the hurtful things she had said. Admitting her mistakes was one of Yan Ruozhe's strengths.

"Yan Ruozhe, do you really think an apology is enough? Besides, we're over. What difference does it make if you apologize or not?" Li Xin asked coldly. She didn't understand why Yan Ruozhe had shown up. If it was just to apologize, she didn't need it.

"Li Xin, I think I like you. Honestly, I'm not good at dealing with emotions, so I don't really know what I should do now to make you happy." Yan Ruozhe looked at Li Xin, who seemed so defensive, and said very sincerely and earnestly.

Li Xin stared at Yan Ruozhe in disbelief. Yan Ruozhe said she liked her? How could she? Wasn't she the one who had been so eager to cut all ties?

"What did you say?" Li Xin asked again, uncertain if she had heard correctly.

"I like you." Seeing a slight softening in Li Xin's expression, Yan Ruozhe knew this was what Li Xin wanted to hear.

"How could you possibly like me?" Li Xin didn't believe it. Five years hadn't made her like her. And now, suddenly, Yan Ruozhe was in her house saying she liked her? It didn't feel real at all.

"I miss you so much. On the days you're not here, I close my eyes and think of you. I think about the possibility of never seeing you again, and my heart aches. I think this is probably love, so I want to bring you back into my life." Yan Ruozhe confessed her true feelings.

"Maybe you're just used to having someone love you, and suddenly not having that makes you uncomfortable." Although Li Xin said this, her heart couldn't help but flutter with joy. She had been so determined to forget this woman, but Yan Ruozhe's words had instantly shattered her resolve.

Yan Ruozhe was taken aback. She realized she couldn't argue with Li Xin's words. As an orphan, she was indeed very afraid of being alone and desperately wanted someone to love her. Was Li Xin's love for her just a habit? Yan Ruozhe wasn't sure anymore.

Li Xin's fleeting good mood vanished the moment she saw Yan Ruozhe's silent, thoughtful expression. She became furious. This hateful woman! She really was just used to Li Xin loving her, just enjoying her love, and didn't truly like her in return.

"Yan Ruozhe, get out! I don't want to see you again. I hate you!" Li Xin yelled, pushing Yan Ruozhe forcefully out the door. She hated Yan Ruozhe with all her might. If she didn't love her, why come here and mess with her resolve? She would definitely be able to forget Yan Ruozhe. She didn't want Yan Ruozhe to be with her out of habit. Even if it was just habit and not love, Yan Ruozhe could at least have tried to pretend. Li Xin would have willingly let herself be fooled, but Yan Ruozhe wasn't even willing to put in that effort. In short, this woman, Yan Ruozhe, made her absolutely livid.

Yan Ruozhe stumbled as Li Xin shoved her out. She genuinely couldn't tell the difference between love and habit. She wasn't sure what to do.

After Yan Ruozhe was pushed out, Li Xin's mood didn't improve; it got worse. She turned her anger on everything in the room, smashing things to pieces. "Yan Ruozhe, you bastard! You selfish ghost!"

Hearing the loud crashes from inside, Yan Ruozhe felt a pang of worry for Li Xin. Fortunately, Li Yao's spare key was still in the door.

Yan Ruozhe opened the door and went back inside, just barely dodging a photo album Li Xin threw. Yan Ruozhe frowned slightly at the mess. Throwing things around was not a good habit. She would have to get Li Xin to stop in the future.

"Why haven't you left?" Li Xin roared at Yan Ruozhe. She had wanted to hurl the thick book in her hand at Yan Ruozhe, but it was a hard object, and she was afraid of hurting her, so she held back. Not being able to throw it only made Li Xin angrier.

Li Xin was a very emotional woman. Yan Ruozhe was actually afraid of Li Xin throwing things at her, so she quickly moved towards her and hugged her tightly. Li Xin tried to break free, but Yan Ruozhe held her even tighter.

"Stop it," Yan Ruozhe said, her tone somewhat stern, authoritative without being angry, which surprisingly made Li Xin quiet and compliant.

"What's the difference between love and habit? I can't tell. But does it really matter? Even if it's just a habit, can't we just make it a lifelong habit?" Yan Ruozhe asked. Why did it have to be about love? They weren't young anymore, not little girls. Wasn't mutual support and a harmonious life the most important thing?

Li Xin thought about it and realized it made some sense. Yan Ruozhe was notoriously slow when it came to emotions. Asking her for love was probably like talking to a brick wall. Even if Yan Ruozhe only saw it as a habit, making it a lifelong habit seemed like a decent option. As long as she couldn't live without her for the rest of her life.

But Li Xin didn't want to give in so easily. It would make her seem too eager and easily persuaded. So, she kept a straight face and remained silent.

Yan Ruozhe saw that although Li Xin's expression was still stern, her body had relaxed in her arms. She wasn't stupid; she knew Li Xin probably wanted her to coax her. But coaxing women was not Yan Ruozhe's strong suit. She noticed that Li Xin had lost a lot of weight while she was holding her.

"You seem to have lost a lot of weight," Yan Ruozhe said with a hint of heartache. She still preferred the previous Li Xin, whose stunning figure was almost too much to handle.

"Ah!" Li Xin screamed, suddenly remembering her current disheveled state. She knew she must look a mess, her complexion terrible. How could she let Ruozhe see her like this? This was a major embarrassment. She absolutely couldn't let herself be seen so ugly by her lover.

"What's wrong?" Yan Ruozhe was startled by Li Xin's scream.

"Hurry up and get out! I'm too ugly right now. I don't want to live anymore..." Li Xin wailed, feeling so miserable she wanted to cry. She tried her best to break free from Yan Ruozhe and push her out of the room again, not wanting Yan Ruozhe to see her current appearance for even a moment longer.

Yan Ruozhe held Li Xin tightly, not letting her escape. Looking at the familiar Li Xin, she felt an unexpected warmth inside. This was the Li Xin she knew, a woman who cared deeply about her appearance.

"You're not ugly. I've never thought you were as beautiful as you are right now," Yan Ruozhe said seriously, looking at Li Xin.

"Yan Ruozhe, I didn't know you could also lie through your teeth," Li Xin said in surprise. She knew her current appearance wasn't much better than a ghost. Wait, was Yan Ruozhe saying sweet things? Yan Ruozhe could actually say sweet things! Even though they were obviously not entirely true, Li Xin still enjoyed them very much. At least it showed Yan Ruozhe was willing to make an effort. In fact, she didn't realize that Yan Ruozhe genuinely felt that way.

"Yan Ruozhe, why are you holding me so tightly?" Although Li Xin's tone was somewhat complaining, her heart was full of joy, and even her question sounded a little flirtatious.

Whether it was her imagination or not, Yan Ruozhe felt that as soon as Li Xin's eyes softened, her charm radiated out. This woman's allure was truly natural. Thinking about Li Xin's ability to attract attention like this, Yan Ruozhe still felt a little jealous.

"You're not allowed to kiss anyone else in the future, no matter who it is. And you're not allowed to be too intimate with anyone else," Yan Ruozhe ordered unconsciously. She never wanted to see that scene again. She couldn't change the past, but she would never allow similar incidents to happen again.

"Didn't you say I couldn't satisfy you? Of course, I have to be restless!" A woman who doesn't bring up old grievances isn't a woman. Li Xin was still very angry when she thought about what Yan Ruozhe had said to her before.

"Then in the future, I'll be responsible for satisfying you," Yan Ruozhe said quite seriously. Hmm, once she's satisfied, she won't look for others.

"Can you handle that?" Li Xin asked provocatively.

"We always have to try," Yan Ruozhe said, narrowing her eyes slightly. She was determined to win this woman over. If you don't show your strength, people will underestimate you. Yan Ruozhe always believed that nothing was impossible if you worked hard enough. Her hand crept onto Li Xin's chest, which had shrunk a little but was still full and firm, and gently kneaded it. She had to believe in her determination and ability to take action.

Li Xin slapped Yan Ruozhe's hand away. She didn't want to sleep with Yan Ruozhe right now. She needed to make herself presentable first. Li Xin pushed Yan Ruozhe out of her room again and rushed into the bathroom. When she saw her reflection in the mirror, she screamed again.

Li Yao heard her sister's energetic scream and smiled with relief. It was good that her sister had her spark back. Her sister was truly someone who lived for love. Every time she was heartbroken, she would torture herself to the brink of despair. This time had been particularly bad and long-lasting, but once she turned a corner, she bounced back to life immediately.

"Would you like to stay for dinner tonight? Dad and Mom miss you very much!" Although Li Yao didn't know exactly what had happened between her sister and Yan Ruozhe, she was happy that they loved each other and that things seemed to have been resolved. Li Yao's resentment towards Yan Ruozhe had also faded.

"Then I'll gladly accept," Yan Ruozhe replied. Actually, Li Yao is much more reliable than Li Xin, she thought to herself. The thought of meeting Li Xin's parents tonight still made Yan Ruozhe a little nervous. Although she had met Li Yuandong in the hospital, she still felt a bit awkward about her current situation.

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