Chapter 111

Emma's POV 

At that point, it felt like I was the universe's favorite plaything. 

While I was talking to Lily in the car, I had a weird feeling. That feeling that comes when you just know something is about to happen. 

I shrugged it off. Maybe it was the prospect of being in Berlin, in the next twenty four hours. 

We entered and got shopping, like we were supposed to. 

I left my phone in the glove box, mainly cause I didn't want any distractions. 

Little did I know that my biggest distraction was yet ahead. 

I said his name out loud, even though I didn't want to. 

Lily and I tried to hide behind some clothes, not only was Ur too late, because he had seen us. He was also headed in our direction. 

 "Seems to me like this is the part where I leave you." Lily whispered through her teeth as she forced a smile. 

 "Fuck you." I cursed Lily as I straightened up my gown. 

 "He looks like he's about to do that." She joked, and buried herself in being animatedly in love with some scarves we already passed by. 

 "Hello." Kevin's voice was deeper, and he smiled more readily from how I remembered him. 

 "I don't have to answer that." I replied. I told myself the same thing, yet, there I was, transfixed to that spot, talking to him. 

 "No you don't." He acknowledged, looking at his feet. 

I followed his eyes and he had some really expensive fit on. 

I began to feel cheap next to him, but I soon shook the feeling off. 

I was with Chase's black card, and that screamed luxury in loud volumes. 

 "I'd really love it if you do though." He took a step closer, and it felt somewhat uncomfortable. My heart was beating fast. I didn't like the top little distance. 

I wished he stayed on his side of the mall. 

 "I don't care what you love, and what you don't." I snapped. I wanted to be mad, angry, yell at him, but I didn't have it in me to. In reality, I was still recovering, and standing so long was already making me weak in the knees(or was it Kevin?). 

 "Emma, I only got to know about it a few days when I got to town." He said. "I know no amount of apology can fix you, but I really still want you to know me better." He said. 

I cursed myself and Chase for not having a ring on my hand. It'd have been so great to flash the rock in his face, have him know that I mattered to those who matter. 

But no part of me bore the evidence of someone, only my vajayjay. 

 "I don't think there's more to know." I shut him down. "Last I heard, you were doing drugs." I added. 

 "Well, you aren't so current." He smiled. Kevin's facial bones were more defined, jutted more, made him look harder, and definitely hotter. 

All the while he talked, I watched his Adam's apple bubble up and down. It felt like it was gonna pierce his throat. 

 ""I've cut them off, got a job in a tech company, a hybrid role." I was glad that he was getting his life together, but a complement is the last thing he'd hear from me. 

 "I'm here shopping with my girl." I said, trying to break off the conversation. 

Kevin probably sensed that I wasn't so serious about running away from him, so he took out his card, rewrote his number with a pen, and handed it over to me. 

He seized the opportunity to feel my skin. I smiled nervously as he did that, but he soon took his hand away, and I held his card in my other hand. 

For decency sake, I could not hold his contact card and Chase's debit card in one hand

Chase hated him like a plague, and I should too. But there I was, rekindling dead feelings, cause I was angry. 

 "I'm gonna keep my phone by my side all day." He said, "And I'm gonna be expecting your call." 

I looked away, cause it felt like my brain had stopped working, just looking at him. 

 "Don't count on it." I said, and turned immediately, before my curiosity and Revenge got the better if him 

Lily cleared her throat really noisily when we reconnected. 

 "How's it going?" I asked, playing it light. 

 "Don't fucking kid me now, bitch." She laughed, and looked around checking if he was still near, "You've gotta tell me what that was about." Lily was nosy as hell, and that was how I liked her. 

 "A date." I replied curtly, trying to make sense of all my emotions. 

 "Such a crying shame that you can't go." She said, with the corners of her mouth pulling in a mock pity face. 

 "Who says?" I asked. She looked at me for a long time. 

I was beginning to think rationally, but I fought it. 

I needed to show Chase that I wasn't convenient. 

 "Are you gonna go?" Lily gasped. 

 "That's actually for Chase to decide."I said, naughtily. 

 "I don't think you want to tell him about this." Lily suggested. 

 "Let's see how it goes then." I replied to her, smiling mischievously. 

 "Emma, I don't want you doing anything funny." She looked at me seriously. 

 "That's not for you to decide, baby girl." I replied. 

 "I know you're hurt and angry at Chase, you probably wanna kill him, slit his throat, but Emma, he's still your baby." She teased me, punching my belly. 

 "That hurt." I winced. 

 "Sorry." She apologized. 

 "We're here to have fun, and shop. And I've got the card for it." I boasted, flashing Chase's black card. 

 "Yeah, bitch!" Lily screamed and went off in a direction I followed. 

As I wandered through aisles, taking all the fancy stuff in, my mind wandered too, but elsewhere. 

The heart was really treacherous. 

What a time it was to see Kevin. After all that happened. And my mind was still really attracted to him. It's the only reason I gave him an audience in the first case.