Chapter 01 Fajar Nugroho

Before I tell you about my fondest memories with a woman. When I was living in Yogyakarta. Even though I know the state of my heart is very fragile, it can't go back to the beginning again. Even though from the bottom of my heart I really sincerely love her but, the woman who has been there is no news at all.

Making me even more convinced is that people like them actually, have their own purpose. I don't know what the purpose is.

Unfortunately, it wasn't long before I got some bad news. She even told her girlfriends to split up to find out her whereabouts. In order to cooperate with each other. But I had a doubt who knows who called earlier turned out to be a good person?

Surely, they want to tell us, they just don't dare to talk directly to us.

In the end, I couldn't bear the pain. Especially after seeing my lover's movements were so suspicious! But I tried to think positively. I asked him repeatedly, and he always had a reason to make me believe. Even every time I visit Yogyakarta.

Memories with him are still felt even though, in my heart I really want to forget all the memories with him.

Without any exceptions this feeling has faded! Then, choose to find a new atmosphere. So that I can face all of this that has been kept inside me. There is no guarantee that every couple will have happiness, it will definitely get quite heavy problems.

Oh, I almost forgot to introduce my name Fajar Nugroho. I was born in Bandung in 1999. Actually, I've been living in Yogyakarta for a long time. From elementary school until now even. When I hear the typical Bandung language, I immediately go to her and get acquainted.

After knowing him for a while, I asked him to find a place where I could contemplate. If my life was not comfortable here, I would have returned to Bandung. It's just that I still have some needs here.

I don't know why I feel so comfortable here. Even when I want to go back to Bandung, it feels hard to take a step.

The comfort that had been in Yogya, slowly began to wear off, and made me anxious to return to Yogyakarta. One thing you need to know about the woman who has been no news at all except, my beloved friend now she is studying in Malang.

“Dawn, how is your lover doing, right?

“As usual, we often fight, unfortunately he decided not to talk nicely.”

“But, is Fajar still strong enough to deal with his behavior like that?”

“Still strong!”

“Okay, if you want to vent, you can.” said the woman over the phone.

“Alright, my best friend is the best!”

After the conversation ended with her, there was a voice that sounded a lot like my girlfriend. But which direction did that voice come from? Is he really still in a relationship with his ex? Even though I already told him. Heh... even give an absurd reason. But his expression was like he was really nervous afraid of being caught by me.

I need to think positively when I'm not with my boyfriend. The contents of my message have not been read at all, is he busy today? Does he still have unfinished work? Even though I miss him. I miss talking about positive things with him.

What I like most about him is that he likes to give me advice.

“Jar, let's talk about positive things sometime? It's fun if you're willing, even if you're not busy. The most comfortable place while drinking Cappuccino coffee is great, Jar.”

“Yes, it's better than staying at home.”

“Well, when can you stay? As long as you don't disturb your work.” said a woman while giving me a smile.

“Hamm .... how about, Sunday night?”

“It's okay, it's okay, it's okay but you'll have to explain it to our parents.”

“Ready, that's my business! You don't have to think about it. As long as you don't find out that we're dating.” I said, holding her hand tightly.

“Ready, baby!” she said with a happy expression.

It's tiring when she has PMS. Her true behavior is still hidden inside her. But there is always a refusal to tell me the truth. As a result, I had to find out what caused it.

Heh.... in the end, I already thought badly of her. Even though my boyfriend tried hard to follow his request, even though it was uncomfortable I felt relieved to still be with me. But, I even got information that, he lied to me again. So, the information I had gotten turned out to be a hoax. Then, why did he have to do that to me?

If for example, he wants to break up with me. Yes, go ahead! As long as you give a reasonable reason. Why do you feel bored with this relationship? Or because of what? Just watch out if the conversation so far turns out, not according to reality.

I'm like this because I love you. Our relationship should continue until marriage! That's been my dream all along.

Too bad my opinion doesn't match my boyfriend's thinking. So, we are trying to find a way to have one goal. I can only hope that he still loves me. It's useless, dating for 3 years with him. The affection in me is already attached. Meanwhile, his affection has faded.

Choosing to end our relationship! I can't forget the moments with him.

However, after I thought about it without my boyfriend knowing. I realized that his attitude had changed, not like before. I don't mean to find out about his changes but, from the bottom of my heart, I still love him. It's just a bad feeling! But, take it easy our friends don't know about this.

Although feeling nervous, and confused about explaining this matter. At least, in the future, hopefully there will be honesty from him. Don't let us have negative thoughts!

Especially about his most beautiful ex. I often see her alone with a man. Even though the man is her ex or just a friend? Moreover, the place is in the palace, Yogyakarta. Even though I promised to accompany her on a walk together, why should it be with her ex?

So, when do you go out with your boyfriend or girlfriend around the city of Yogyakarta? Please.... don't be selfish! I need you now. As if I've forgotten her. Then she went back to her happiest ex to reminisce about the past. Though it has passed let it pass! Then all this time I thought there was a point.

Although there are some opinions told me, “Jar, is it true that your relationship is not good anymore?” unfortunately I can't answer questions from him, regarding my problems with my girlfriend.

I was afraid they wouldn't be able to keep my secret. What's more, in a situation like this, my boyfriend must be thinking strangely, and I as his girlfriend am confused too. Please.... for now, no need to ask about my boyfriend. Anything that's been together for a while, will return to the stranger we were when we first met. We just need advice from the people closest to us!