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Dear Sun

As I was running to you, I saw you spreading your arms becoming so desperate to hold me, to capture me so close. I ran and ran seeing you eagerly waiting for me to crash into you. As I ran I felt my whole world collapsing into a mundane rim of scenes showcasing how we once fell in love. How everything once collapsed, how every corner of solace was burnt, how the battles turned into ashes-filled land, how every other I love you cut through our skin and it bled. How much desperation, how much impatience, how much madness there was, how many tears we shed, how much we had to lose. Then again when I came back to reality and saw how your eyes curved downwards in eagerness to know what I was thinking, I ran as fast as I could, you kept standing there with glistened eyes, which showed so much sincerity, so much determination and so much elation. My arms felt numb but I had to reach you, to let you protect me from all the evilness happening around us, I wanted to be wanted, I wanted to be your only want. I was waiting for this moment for so long, I loved you with all of me and now it was time to show. I ran and ran and saw you getting closer to me. That meant I almost reached you…your eyes wailed up and I couldn't help but run faster. We wouldn't get this opportunity again, to be with each other. My tears started staining my vision but I kept running until I stopped, until I felt a strong veined pair of arms wrapped around me and carrying me, making me close my eyes with all my might. I felt at home, I felt you. You pulled me so much closer every second as if there was even a space left between us. We were glued like a single person. You kissed my hair with much need as if you let loose your grip, I would disappear. I wouldn't. I kept saying…I am going nowhere, I am going nowhere, I am going nowhere…you still kept embracing me in the air as if you were breathing me, not what the air was providing. You have come back from the Military. I burst into tears saying, I am going nowhere, I am going nowhere, I am going nowhere. You buried your face on my neck and snuggled as much as you could. I felt I just returned home, not you…you had short hair, and still looked the most beautiful man of mine. I kept holding you despite our surroundings looking at us. People were saying we just met after two years only. Only we knew how we felt in these two years, two years, every day, every hour, every minute, and every minute felt like decades. If it sounded like a movie, then it is..our movie where two imperfect people are in love and showcasing love with madness and with weirdness. You said, "I came," I nodded as if believing you with all I had was the only way to stop myself from grieving. I couldn't comprehend if my missing effect was still on or not. Because the emptiness was still there inside me, but your hold, your whispers, your unrevealing sobs were making me believe you were there to fill it now, you were there to arrange my broken pieces which missed you. My whole self was shattered when I held you after 2 years in solace, in finding a home, I became homeless when you left...I kept saying, I missed you, I missed you and I missed you. You replied, I love you, I love you, I love you so much….never knew writing would be this peaceful even if it was about shattering souls or arranging them again…

Yours Sunflower