In Beldover, there was both for Ursula and for Gudrun an interval. It
seemed to Ursula as if Birkin had gone out of her for the time, he had
lost his significance, he scarcely mattered in her world. She had her own
friends, her own activities, her own life. She turned back to the old ways
with zest, away from him.
And Gudrun, after feeling every moment in all her veins conscious of
Gerald Crich, connected even physically with him, was now almost
indifferent to the thought of him. She was nursing new schemes for
going away and trying a new form of life. All the time, there was
something in her urging her to avoid the final establishing of a
relationship with Gerald. She felt it would be wiser and better to have no
more than a casual acquaintance with him.
She had a scheme for going to St Petersburg, where she had a friend who
was a sculptor like herself, and who lived with a wealthy Russian whose
hobby was jewel-making. The emotional, rather rootless life of the
Russians appealed to her. She did not want to go to Paris. Paris was dry,
and essentially boring. She would like to go to Rome, Munich, Vienna, or
to St Petersburg or Moscow. She had a friend in St Petersburg and a
friend in Munich. To each of these she wrote, asking about rooms.
She had a certain amount of money. She had come home partly to save,
and now she had sold several pieces of work, she had been praised in
various shows. She knew she could become quite the 'go' if she went to
London. But she knew London, she wanted something else. She had
seventy pounds, of which nobody knew anything. She would move soon,
as soon as she heard from her friends. Her nature, in spite of her
apparent placidity and calm, was profoundly restless.
The sisters happened to call in a cottage in Willey Green to buy honey.
Mrs Kirk, a stout, pale, sharp-nosed woman, sly, honied, with something
shrewish and cat-like beneath, asked the girls into her toocosy, too tidy
kitchen. There was a cat-like comfort and cleanliness everywhere.'Yes, Miss Brangwen,' she said, in her slightly whining, insinuating voice,
'and how do you like being back in the old place, then?'
Gudrun, whom she addressed, hated her at once.
'I don't care for it,' she replied abruptly.
'You don't? Ay, well, I suppose you found a difference from London. You
like life, and big, grand places. Some of us has to be content with Willey
Green and Beldover. And what do you think of our Grammar School, as
there's so much talk about?'
'What do I think of it?' Gudrun looked round at her slowly. 'Do you
mean, do I think it's a good school?'
'Yes. What is your opinion of it?'
'I DO think it's a good school.'
Gudrun was very cold and repelling. She knew the common people hated
the school.
'Ay, you do, then! I've heard so much, one way and the other. It's nice to
know what those that's in it feel. But opinions vary, don't they? Mr Crich
up at Highclose is all for it. Ay, poor man, I'm afraid he's not long for this
world. He's very poorly.'
'Is he worse?' asked Ursula.
'Eh, yes—since they lost Miss Diana. He's gone off to a shadow. Poor
man, he's had a world of trouble.'
'Has he?' asked Gudrun, faintly ironic.
'He has, a world of trouble. And as nice and kind a gentleman as ever you
could wish to meet. His children don't take after him.'
'I suppose they take after their mother?' said Ursula.
'In many ways.' Mrs Krik lowered her voice a little. 'She was a proud
haughty lady when she came into these parts—my word, she was that!
She mustn't be looked at, and it was worth your life to speak to her.' The
woman made a dry, sly face.
'Did you know her when she was first married?''Yes, I knew her. I nursed three of her children. And proper little terrors
they were, little fiends—that Gerald was a demon if ever there was one, a
proper demon, ay, at six months old.' A curious malicious, sly tone came
into the woman's voice.
'Really,' said Gudrun.
'That wilful, masterful—he'd mastered one nurse at six months. Kick,
and scream, and struggle like a demon. Many's the time I've pinched his
little bottom for him, when he was a child in arms. Ay, and he'd have
been better if he'd had it pinched oftener. But she wouldn't have them
corrected—no-o, wouldn't hear of it. I can remember the rows she had
with Mr Crich, my word. When he'd got worked up, properly worked up
till he could stand no more, he'd lock the study door and whip them. But
she paced up and down all the while like a tiger outside, like a tiger, with
very murder in her face. She had a face that could LOOK death. And
when the door was opened, she'd go in with her hands lifted—"What
have you been doing to MY children, you coward." She was like one out
of her mind. I believe he was frightened of her; he had to be driven mad
before he'd lift a finger. Didn't the servants have a life of it! And didn't we
used to be thankful when one of them caught it. They were the torment
of your life.'
'Really!' said Gudrun.
'In every possible way. If you wouldn't let them smash their pots on the
table, if you wouldn't let them drag the kitten about with a string round
its neck, if you wouldn't give them whatever they asked for, every mortal
thing—then there was a shine on, and their mother coming in asking—
"What's the matter with him? What have you done to him? What is it,
Darling?" And then she'd turn on you as if she'd trample you under her
feet. But she didn't trample on me. I was the only one that could do
anything with her demons—for she wasn't going to be bothered with
them herself. No, SHE took no trouble for them. But they must just have
their way, they mustn't be spoken to. And Master Gerald was the beauty.
I left when he was a year and a half, I could stand no more. But I pinched
his little bottom for him when he was in arms, I did, when there was no
holding him, and I'm not sorry I did—'Gudrun went away in fury and loathing. The phrase, 'I pinched his little
bottom for him,' sent her into a white, stony fury. She could not bear it,
she wanted to have the woman taken out at once and strangled. And yet
there the phrase was lodged in her mind for ever, beyond escape. She
felt, one day, she would HAVE to tell him, to see how he took it. And she
loathed herself for the thought.
But at Shortlands the life-long struggle was coming to a close. The father
was ill and was going to die. He had bad internal pains, which took away
all his attentive life, and left him with only a vestige of his consciousness.
More and more a silence came over him, he was less and less acutely
aware of his surroundings. The pain seemed to absorb his activity. He
knew it was there, he knew it would come again. It was like something
lurking in the darkness within him. And he had not the power, or the
will, to seek it out and to know it. There it remained in the darkness, the
great pain, tearing him at times, and then being silent. And when it tore
him he crouched in silent subjection under it, and when it left him alone
again, he refused to know of it. It was within the darkness, let it remain
unknown. So he never admitted it, except in a secret corner of himself,
where all his never-revealed fears and secrets were accumulated. For the
rest, he had a pain, it went away, it made no difference. It even
stimulated him, excited him.
But it gradually absorbed his life. Gradually it drew away all his
potentiality, it bled him into the dark, it weaned him of life and drew him
away into the darkness. And in this twilight of his life little remained
visible to him. The business, his work, that was gone entirely. His public
interests had disappeared as if they had never been. Even his family had
become extraneous to him, he could only remember, in some slight non-
essential part of himself, that such and such were his children. But it was
historical fact, not vital to him. He had to make an effort to know their
relation to him. Even his wife barely existed. She indeed was like the
darkness, like the pain within him. By some strange association, the
darkness that contained the pain and the darkness that contained his
wife were identical. All his thoughts and understandings became blurred
and fused, and now his wife and the consuming pain were the same dark
secret power against him, that he never faced. He never drove the dread
out of its lair within him. He only knew that there was a dark place, and
something inhabiting this darkness which issued from time to time andrent him. But he dared not penetrate and drive the beast into the open.
He had rather ignore its existence. Only, in his vague way, the dread was
his wife, the destroyer, and it was the pain, the destruction, a darkness
which was one and both.
He very rarely saw his wife. She kept her room. Only occasionally she
came forth, with her head stretched forward, and in her low, possessed
voice, she asked him how he was. And he answered her, in the habit of
more than thirty years: 'Well, I don't think I'm any the worse, dear.' But
he was frightened of her, underneath this safeguard of habit, frightened
almost to the verge of death.
But all his life, he had been so constant to his lights, he had never broken
down. He would die even now without breaking down, without knowing
what his feelings were, towards her. All his life, he had said: 'Poor
Christiana, she has such a strong temper.' With unbroken will, he had
stood by this position with regard to her, he had substituted pity for all
his hostility, pity had been his shield and his safeguard, and his infallible
weapon. And still, in his consciousness, he was sorry for her, her nature
was so violent and so impatient.
But now his pity, with his life, was wearing thin, and the dread almost
amounting to horror, was rising into being. But before the armour of his
pity really broke, he would die, as an insect when its shell is cracked. This
was his final resource. Others would live on, and know the living death,
the ensuing process of hopeless chaos. He would not. He denied death its
victory.
He had been so constant to his lights, so constant to charity, and to his
love for his neighbour. Perhaps he had loved his neighbour even better
than himself—which is going one further than the commandment.
Always, this flame had burned in his heart, sustaining him through
everything, the welfare of the people. He was a large employer of labour,
he was a great mine-owner. And he had never lost this from his heart,
that in Christ he was one with his workmen. Nay, he had felt inferior to
them, as if they through poverty and labour were nearer to God than he.
He had always the unacknowledged belief, that it was his workmen, the
miners, who held in their hands the means of salvation. To move nearer
to God, he must move towards his miners, his life must gravitate towards
theirs. They were, unconsciously, his idol, his God made manifest. Inthem he worshipped the highest, the great, sympathetic, mindless
Godhead of humanity.
And all the while, his wife had opposed him like one of the great demons
of hell. Strange, like a bird of prey, with the fascinating beauty and
abstraction of a hawk, she had beat against the bars of his philanthropy,
and like a hawk in a cage, she had sunk into silence. By force of
circumstance, because all the world combined to make the cage
unbreakable, he had been too strong for her, he had kept her prisoner.
And because she was his prisoner, his passion for her had always
remained keen as death. He had always loved her, loved her with
intensity. Within the cage, she was denied nothing, she was given all
licence.
But she had gone almost mad. Of wild and overweening temper, she
could not bear the humiliation of her husband's soft, half-appealing
kindness to everybody. He was not deceived by the poor. He knew they
came and sponged on him, and whined to him, the worse sort; the
majority, luckily for him, were much too proud to ask for anything, much
too independent to come knocking at his door. But in Beldover, as
everywhere else, there were the whining, parasitic, foul human beings
who come crawling after charity, and feeding on the living body of the
public like lice. A kind of fire would go over Christiana Crich's brain, as
she saw two more pale-faced, creeping women in objectionable black
clothes, cringing lugubriously up the drive to the door. She wanted to set
the dogs on them, 'Hi Rip! Hi Ring! Ranger! At 'em boys, set 'em off.' But
Crowther, the butler, with all the rest of the servants, was Mr Crich's
man. Nevertheless, when her husband was away, she would come down
like a wolf on the crawling supplicants:
'What do you people want? There is nothing for you here. You have no
business on the drive at all. Simpson, drive them away and let no more of
them through the gate.'
The servants had to obey her. And she would stand watching with an eye
like the eagle's, whilst the groom in clumsy confusion drove the
lugubrious persons down the drive, as if they were rusty fowls, scuttling
before him.But they learned to know, from the lodge-keeper, when Mrs Crich was
away, and they timed their visits. How many times, in the first years,
would Crowther knock softly at the door: 'Person to see you, sir.'
'What name?'
'Grocock, sir.'
'What do they want?' The question was half impatient, half gratified. He
liked hearing appeals to his charity.
'About a child, sir.'
'Show them into the library, and tell them they shouldn't come after
eleven o'clock in the morning.'
'Why do you get up from dinner?—send them off,' his wife would say
abruptly.
'Oh, I can't do that. It's no trouble just to hear what they have to say.'
'How many more have been here today? Why don't you establish open
house for them? They would soon oust me and the children.'
'You know dear, it doesn't hurt me to hear what they have to say. And if
they really are in trouble—well, it is my duty to help them out of it.'
'It's your duty to invite all the rats in the world to gnaw at your bones.'
'Come, Christiana, it isn't like that. Don't be uncharitable.'
But she suddenly swept out of the room, and out to the study. There sat
the meagre charity-seekers, looking as if they were at the doctor's.
'Mr Crich can't see you. He can't see you at this hour. Do you think he is
your property, that you can come whenever you like? You must go away,
there is nothing for you here.'
The poor people rose in confusion. But Mr Crich, pale and black-bearded
and deprecating, came behind her, saying:
'Yes, I don't like you coming as late as this. I'll hear any of you in the
morning part of the day, but I can't really do with you after. What's amiss
then, Gittens. How is your Missis?''Why, she's sunk very low, Mester Crich, she's a'most gone, she is—'
Sometimes, it seemed to Mrs Crich as if her husband were some subtle
funeral bird, feeding on the miseries of the people. It seemed to her he
was never satisfied unless there was some sordid tale being poured out to
him, which he drank in with a sort of mournful, sympathetic satisfaction.
He would have no RAISON D'ETRE if there were no lugubrious miseries
in the world, as an undertaker would have no meaning if there were no
funerals.
Mrs Crich recoiled back upon herself, she recoiled away from this world
of creeping democracy. A band of tight, baleful exclusion fastened round
her heart, her isolation was fierce and hard, her antagonism was passive
but terribly pure, like that of a hawk in a cage. As the years went on, she
lost more and more count of the world, she seemed rapt in some
glittering abstraction, almost purely unconscious. She would wander
about the house and about the surrounding country, staring keenly and
seeing nothing. She rarely spoke, she had no connection with the world.
And she did not even think. She was consumed in a fierce tension of
opposition, like the negative pole of a magnet.
And she bore many children. For, as time went on, she never opposed
her husband in word or deed. She took no notice of him, externally. She
submitted to him, let him take what he wanted and do as he wanted with
her. She was like a hawk that sullenly submits to everything. The relation
between her and her husband was wordless and unknown, but it was
deep, awful, a relation of utter inter-destruction. And he, who triumphed
in the world, he became more and more hollow in his vitality, the vitality
was bled from within him, as by some haemorrhage. She was hulked like
a hawk in a cage, but her heart was fierce and undiminished within her,
though her mind was destroyed.
So to the last he would go to her and hold her in his arms sometimes,
before his strength was all gone. The terrible white, destructive light that
burned in her eyes only excited and roused him. Till he was bled to
death, and then he dreaded her more than anything. But he always said
to himself, how happy he had been, how he had loved her with a pure
and consuming love ever since he had known her. And he thought of her
as pure, chaste; the white flame which was known to him alone, the
flame of her sex, was a white flower of snow to his mind. She was awonderful white snow-flower, which he had desired infinitely. And now
he was dying with all his ideas and interpretations intact. They would
only collapse when the breath left his body. Till then they would be pure
truths for him. Only death would show the perfect completeness of the
lie. Till death, she was his white snow-flower. He had subdued her, and
her subjugation was to him an infinite chastity in her, a virginity which
he could never break, and which dominated him as by a spell.
She had let go the outer world, but within herself she was unbroken and
unimpaired. She only sat in her room like a moping, dishevelled hawk,
motionless, mindless. Her children, for whom she had been so fierce in
her youth, now meant scarcely anything to her. She had lost all that, she
was quite by herself. Only Gerald, the gleaming, had some existence for
her. But of late years, since he had become head of the business, he too
was forgotten. Whereas the father, now he was dying, turned for
compassion to Gerald. There had always been opposition between the
two of them. Gerald had feared and despised his father, and to a great
extent had avoided him all through boyhood and young manhood. And
the father had felt very often a real dislike of his eldest son, which, never
wanting to give way to, he had refused to acknowledge. He had ignored
Gerald as much as possible, leaving him alone.
Since, however, Gerald had come home and assumed responsibility in
the firm, and had proved such a wonderful director, the father, tired and
weary of all outside concerns, had put all his trust of these things in his
son, implicitly, leaving everything to him, and assuming a rather
touching dependence on the young enemy. This immediately roused a
poignant pity and allegiance in Gerald's heart, always shadowed by
contempt and by unadmitted enmity. For Gerald was in reaction against
Charity; and yet he was dominated by it, it assumed supremacy in the
inner life, and he could not confute it. So he was partly subject to that
which his father stood for, but he was in reaction against it. Now he
could not save himself. A certain pity and grief and tenderness for his
father overcame him, in spite of the deeper, more sullen hostility.
The father won shelter from Gerald through compassion. But for love he
had Winifred. She was his youngest child, she was the only one of his
children whom he had ever closely loved. And her he loved with all the
great, overweening, sheltering love of a dying man. He wanted to shelterher infinitely, infinitely, to wrap her in warmth and love and shelter,
perfectly. If he could save her she should never know one pain, one grief,
one hurt. He had been so right all his life, so constant in his kindness and
his goodness. And this was his last passionate righteousness, his love for
the child Winifred. Some things troubled him yet. The world had passed
away from him, as his strength ebbed. There were no more poor and
injured and humble to protect and succour. These were all lost to him.
There were no more sons and daughters to trouble him, and to weigh on
him as an unnatural responsibility. These too had faded out of reality All
these things had fallen out of his hands, and left him free.
There remained the covert fear and horror of his wife, as she sat
mindless and strange in her room, or as she came forth with slow,
prowling step, her head bent forward. But this he put away. Even his life-
long righteousness, however, would not quite deliver him from the inner
horror. Still, he could keep it sufficiently at bay. It would never break
forth openly. Death would come first.
Then there was Winifred! If only he could be sure about her, if only he
could be sure. Since the death of Diana, and the development of his
illness, his craving for surety with regard to Winifred amounted almost
to obsession. It was as if, even dying, he must have some anxiety, some
responsibility of love, of Charity, upon his heart.
She was an odd, sensitive, inflammable child, having her father's dark
hair and quiet bearing, but being quite detached, momentaneous. She
was like a changeling indeed, as if her feelings did not matter to her,
really. She often seemed to be talking and playing like the gayest and
most childish of children, she was full of the warmest, most delightful
affection for a few things—for her father, and for her animals in
particular. But if she heard that her beloved kitten Leo had been run over
by the motor-car she put her head on one side, and replied, with a faint
contraction like resentment on her face: 'Has he?' Then she took no more
notice. She only disliked the servant who would force bad news on her,
and wanted her to be sorry. She wished not to know, and that seemed
her chief motive. She avoided her mother, and most of the members of
her family. She LOVED her Daddy, because he wanted her always to be
happy, and because he seemed to become young again, and irresponsible
in her presence. She liked Gerald, because he was so self-contained. Sheloved people who would make life a game for her. She had an amazing
instinctive critical faculty, and was a pure anarchist, a pure aristocrat at
once. For she accepted her equals wherever she found them, and she
ignored with blithe indifference her inferiors, whether they were her
brothers and sisters, or whether they were wealthy guests of the house,
or whether they were the common people or the servants. She was quite
single and by herself, deriving from nobody. It was as if she were cut off
from all purpose or continuity, and existed simply moment by moment.
The father, as by some strange final illusion, felt as if all his fate
depended on his ensuring to Winifred her happiness. She who could
never suffer, because she never formed vital connections, she who could
lose the dearest things of her life and be just the same the next day, the
whole memory dropped out, as if deliberately, she whose will was so
strangely and easily free, anarchistic, almost nihilistic, who like a
soulless bird flits on its own will, without attachment or responsibility
beyond the moment, who in her every motion snapped the threads of
serious relationship with blithe, free hands, really nihilistic, because
never troubled, she must be the object of her father's final passionate
solicitude.
When Mr Crich heard that Gudrun Brangwen might come to help
Winifred with her drawing and modelling he saw a road to salvation for
his child. He believed that Winifred had talent, he had seen Gudrun, he
knew that she was an exceptional person. He could give Winifred into
her hands as into the hands of a right being. Here was a direction and a
positive force to be lent to his child, he need not leave her directionless
and defenceless. If he could but graft the girl on to some tree of utterance
before he died, he would have fulfilled his responsibility. And here it
could be done. He did not hesitate to appeal to Gudrun.
Meanwhile, as the father drifted more and more out of life, Gerald
experienced more and more a sense of exposure. His father after all had
stood for the living world to him. Whilst his father lived Gerald was not
responsible for the world. But now his father was passing away, Gerald
found himself left exposed and unready before the storm of living, like
the mutinous first mate of a ship that has lost his captain, and who sees
only a terrible chaos in front of him. He did not inherit an established
order and a living idea. The whole unifying idea of mankind seemed tobe dying with his father, the centralising force that had held the whole
together seemed to collapse with his father, the parts were ready to go
asunder in terrible disintegration. Gerald was as if left on board of a ship
that was going asunder beneath his feet, he was in charge of a vessel
whose timbers were all coming apart.
He knew that all his life he had been wrenching at the frame of life to
break it apart. And now, with something of the terror of a destructive
child, he saw himself on the point of inheriting his own destruction. And
during the last months, under the influence of death, and of Birkin's talk,
and of Gudrun's penetrating being, he had lost entirely that mechanical
certainty that had been his triumph. Sometimes spasms of hatred came
over him, against Birkin and Gudrun and that whole set. He wanted to go
back to the dullest conservatism, to the most stupid of conventional
people. He wanted to revert to the strictest Toryism. But the desire did
not last long enough to carry him into action.
During his childhood and his boyhood he had wanted a sort of
savagedom. The days of Homer were his ideal, when a man was chief of
an army of heroes, or spent his years in wonderful Odyssey. He hated
remorselessly the circumstances of his own life, so much that he never
really saw Beldover and the colliery valley. He turned his face entirely
away from the blackened mining region that stretched away on the right
hand of Shortlands, he turned entirely to the country and the woods
beyond Willey Water. It was true that the panting and rattling of the coal
mines could always be heard at Shortlands. But from his earliest
childhood, Gerald had paid no heed to this. He had ignored the whole of
the industrial sea which surged in coal-blackened tides against the
grounds of the house. The world was really a wilderness where one
hunted and swam and rode. He rebelled against all authority. Life was a
condition of savage freedom.
Then he had been sent away to school, which was so much death to him.
He refused to go to Oxford, choosing a German university. He had spent
a certain time at Bonn, at Berlin, and at Frankfurt. There, a curiosity had
been aroused in his mind. He wanted to see and to know, in a curious
objective fashion, as if it were an amusement to him. Then he must try
war. Then he must travel into the savage regions that had so attractedThe result was, he found humanity very much alike everywhere, and to a
mind like his, curious and cold, the savage was duller, less exciting than
the European. So he took hold of all kinds of sociological ideas, and ideas
of reform. But they never went more than skin-deep, they were never
more than a mental amusement. Their interest lay chiefly in the reaction
against the positive order, the destructive reaction.
He discovered at last a real adventure in the coal-mines. His father asked
him to help in the firm. Gerald had been educated in the science of
mining, and it had never interested him. Now, suddenly, with a sort of
exultation, he laid hold of the world.
There was impressed photographically on his consciousness the great
industry. Suddenly, it was real, he was part of it. Down the valley ran the
colliery railway, linking mine with mine. Down the railway ran the trains,
short trains of heavily laden trucks, long trains of empty wagons, each
one bearing in big white letters the initials:
'C.B.&Co.'
These white letters on all the wagons he had seen since his first
childhood, and it was as if he had never seen them, they were so familiar,
and so ignored. Now at last he saw his own name written on the wall.
Now he had a vision of power.
So many wagons, bearing his initial, running all over the country. He saw
them as he entered London in the train, he saw them at Dover. So far his
power ramified. He looked at Beldover, at Selby, at Whatmore, at Lethley
Bank, the great colliery villages which depended entirely on his mines.
They were hideous and sordid, during his childhood they had been sores
in his consciousness. And now he saw them with pride. Four raw new
towns, and many ugly industrial hamlets were crowded under his
dependence. He saw the stream of miners flowing along the causeways
from the mines at the end of the afternoon, thousands of blackened,
slightly distorted human beings with red mouths, all moving subjugate to
his will. He pushed slowly in his motor-car through the little market-top
on Friday nights in Beldover, through a solid mass of human beings that
were making their purchases and doing their weekly spending. They
were all subordinate to him. They were ugly and uncouth, but they werehis instruments. He was the God of the machine. They made way for his
motor-car automatically, slowly.
He did not care whether they made way with alacrity, or grudgingly. He
did not care what they thought of him. His vision had suddenly
crystallised. Suddenly he had conceived the pure instrumentality of
mankind. There had been so much humanitarianism, so much talk of
sufferings and feelings. It was ridiculous. The sufferings and feelings of
individuals did not matter in the least. They were mere conditions, like
the weather. What mattered was the pure instrumentality of the
individual. As a man as of a knife: does it cut well? Nothing else
mattered.
Everything in the world has its function, and is good or not good in so far
as it fulfils this function more or less perfectly. Was a miner a good
miner? Then he was complete. Was a manager a good manager? That
was enough. Gerald himself, who was responsible for all this industry,
was he a good director? If he were, he had fulfilled his life. The rest was
by-play.
The mines were there, they were old. They were giving out, it did not pay
to work the seams. There was talk of closing down two of them. It was at
this point that Gerald arrived on the scene.
He looked around. There lay the mines. They were old, obsolete. They
were like old lions, no more good. He looked again. Pah! the mines were
nothing but the clumsy efforts of impure minds. There they lay,
abortions of a half-trained mind. Let the idea of them be swept away. He
cleared his brain of them, and thought only of the coal in the under
earth. How much was there?
There was plenty of coal. The old workings could not get at it, that was
all. Then break the neck of the old workings. The coal lay there in its
seams, even though the seams were thin. There it lay, inert matter, as it
had always lain, since the beginning of time, subject to the will of man.
The will of man was the determining factor. Man was the archgod of
earth. His mind was obedient to serve his will. Man's will was the
absolute, the only absolute.
And it was his will to subjugate Matter to his own ends. The subjugation
itself was the point, the fight was the be-all, the fruits of victory weremere results. It was not for the sake of money that Gerald took over the
mines. He did not care about money, fundamentally. He was neither
ostentatious nor luxurious, neither did he care about social position, not
finally. What he wanted was the pure fulfilment of his own will in the
struggle with the natural conditions. His will was now, to take the coal
out of the earth, profitably. The profit was merely the condition of
victory, but the victory itself lay in the feat achieved. He vibrated with
zest before the challenge. Every day he was in the mines, examining,
testing, he consulted experts, he gradually gathered the whole situation
into his mind, as a general grasps the plan of his campaign.
Then there was need for a complete break. The mines were run on an old
system, an obsolete idea. The initial idea had been, to obtain as much
money from the earth as would make the owners comfortably rich,
would allow the workmen sufficient wages and good conditions, and
would increase the wealth of the country altogether. Gerald's father,
following in the second generation, having a sufficient fortune, had
thought only of the men. The mines, for him, were primarily great fields
to produce bread and plenty for all the hundreds of human beings
gathered about them. He had lived and striven with his fellow owners to
benefit the men every time. And the men had been benefited in their
fashion. There were few poor, and few needy. All was plenty, because the
mines were good and easy to work. And the miners, in those days,
finding themselves richer than they might have expected, felt glad and
triumphant. They thought themselves well-off, they congratulated
themselves on their good-fortune, they remembered how their fathers
had starved and suffered, and they felt that better times had come. They
were grateful to those others, the pioneers, the new owners, who had
opened out the pits, and let forth this stream of plenty.
But man is never satisfied, and so the miners, from gratitude to their
owners, passed on to murmuring. Their sufficiency decreased with
knowledge, they wanted more. Why should the master be so out-of-all-
proportion rich?
There was a crisis when Gerald was a boy, when the Masters' Federation
closed down the mines because the men would not accept a reduction.
This lock-out had forced home the new conditions to Thomas Crich.
Belonging to the Federation, he had been compelled by his honour toclose the pits against his men. He, the father, the Patriarch, was forced to
deny the means of life to his sons, his people. He, the rich man who
would hardly enter heaven because of his possessions, must now turn
upon the poor, upon those who were nearer Christ than himself, those
who were humble and despised and closer to perfection, those who were
manly and noble in their labours, and must say to them: 'Ye shall neither
labour nor eat bread.'
It was this recognition of the state of war which really broke his heart. He
wanted his industry to be run on love. Oh, he wanted love to be the
directing power even of the mines. And now, from under the cloak of
love, the sword was cynically drawn, the sword of mechanical necessity.
This really broke his heart. He must have the illusion and now the
illusion was destroyed. The men were not against HIM, but they were
against the masters. It was war, and willy nilly he found himself on the
wrong side, in his own conscience. Seething masses of miners met daily,
carried away by a new religious impulse. The idea flew through them: 'All
men are equal on earth,' and they would carry the idea to its material
fulfilment. After all, is it not the teaching of Christ? And what is an idea,
if not the germ of action in the material world. 'All men are equal in
spirit, they are all sons of God. Whence then this obvious DISQUALITY?'
It was a religious creed pushed to its material conclusion. Thomas Crich
at least had no answer. He could but admit, according to his sincere
tenets, that the disquality was wrong. But he could not give up his goods,
which were the stuff of disquality. So the men would fight for their
rights. The last impulses of the last religious passion left on earth, the
passion for equality, inspired them.
Seething mobs of men marched about, their faces lighted up as for holy
war, with a smoke of cupidity. How disentangle the passion for equality
from the passion of cupidity, when begins the fight for equality of
possessions? But the God was the machine. Each man claimed equality
in the Godhead of the great productive machine. Every man equally was
part of this Godhead. But somehow, somewhere, Thomas Crich knew
this was false. When the machine is the Godhead, and production or
work is worship, then the most mechanical mind is purest and highest,
the representative of God on earth. And the rest are subordinate, each
according to his degree.Riots broke out, Whatmore pit-head was in flames. This was the pit
furthest in the country, near the woods. Soldiers came. From the
windows of Shortlands, on that fatal day, could be seen the flare of fire in
the sky not far off, and now the little colliery train, with the workmen's
carriages which were used to convey the miners to the distant
Whatmore, was crossing the valley full of soldiers, full of redcoats. Then
there was the far-off sound of firing, then the later news that the mob
was dispersed, one man was shot dead, the fire was put out.
Gerald, who was a boy, was filled with the wildest excitement and
delight. He longed to go with the soldiers to shoot the men. But he was
not allowed to go out of the lodge gates. At the gates were stationed
sentries with guns. Gerald stood near them in delight, whilst gangs of
derisive miners strolled up and down the lanes, calling and jeering:
'Now then, three ha'porth o'coppers, let's see thee shoot thy gun.' Insults
were chalked on the walls and the fences, the servants left.
And all this while Thomas Crich was breaking his heart, and giving away
hundreds of pounds in charity. Everywhere there was free food, a surfeit
of free food. Anybody could have bread for asking, and a loaf cost only
three-ha'pence. Every day there was a free tea somewhere, the children
had never had so many treats in their lives. On Friday afternoon great
basketfuls of buns and cakes were taken into the schools, and great
pitchers of milk, the school children had what they wanted. They were
sick with eating too much cake and milk.
And then it came to an end, and the men went back to work. But it was
never the same as before. There was a new situation created, a new idea
reigned. Even in the machine, there should be equality. No part should
be subordinate to any other part: all should be equal. The instinct for
chaos had entered. Mystic equality lies in abstraction, not in having or in
doing, which are processes. In function and process, one man, one part,
must of necessity be subordinate to another. It is a condition of being.
But the desire for chaos had risen, and the idea of mechanical equality
was the weapon of disruption which should execute the will of man, the
will for chaos.
Gerald was a boy at the time of the strike, but he longed to be a man, to
fight the colliers. The father however was trapped between twohalftruths, and broken. He wanted to be a pure Christian, one and equal
with all men. He even wanted to give away all he had, to the poor. Yet he
was a great promoter of industry, and he knew perfectly that he must
keep his goods and keep his authority. This was as divine a necessity in
him, as the need to give away all he possessed—more divine, even, since
this was the necessity he acted upon. Yet because he did NOT act on the
other ideal, it dominated him, he was dying of chagrin because he must
forfeit it. He wanted to be a father of loving kindness and sacrificial
benevolence. The colliers shouted to him about his thousands a year.
They would not be deceived.
When Gerald grew up in the ways of the world, he shifted the position.
He did not care about the equality. The whole Christian attitude of love
and self-sacrifice was old hat. He knew that position and authority were
the right thing in the world, and it was useless to cant about it. They were
the right thing, for the simple reason that they were functionally
necessary. They were not the be-all and the end-all. It was like being part
of a machine. He himself happened to be a controlling, central part, the
masses of men were the parts variously controlled. This was merely as it
happened. As well get excited because a central hub drives a hundred
outer wheels or because the whole universe wheels round the sun. After
all, it would be mere silliness to say that the moon and the earth and
Saturn and Jupiter and Venus have just as much right to be the centre of
the universe, each of them separately, as the sun. Such an assertion is
made merely in the desire of chaos.
Without bothering to THINK to a conclusion, Gerald jumped to a
conclusion. He abandoned the whole democratic-equality problem as a
problem of silliness. What mattered was the great social productive
machine. Let that work perfectly, let it produce a sufficiency of
everything, let every man be given a rational portion, greater or less
according to his functional degree or magnitude, and then, provision
made, let the devil supervene, let every man look after his own
amusements and appetites, so long as he interfered with nobody.
So Gerald set himself to work, to put the great industry in order. In his
travels, and in his accompanying readings, he had come to the
conclusion that the essential secret of life was harmony. He did not
define to himself at all clearly what harmony was. The word pleased him, self and went to work with me and murmuring and he was about ninetye and the whole matter of fact that you have been trained. he felt he had come to his own conclusions. And he proceeded to put his
philosophy into practice by forcing order into the established world,
translating the mystic word harmony into the practical word
organisation.
Immediately he SAW the firm, he realised what he could do. He had a
fight to fight with Matter, with the earth and the coal it enclosed. This
was the sole idea, to turn upon the inanimate matter of the underground,
and reduce it to his will. And for this fight with matter, one must have
perfect instruments in perfect organisation, a mechanism so subtle and
harmonious in its workings that it represents the single mind of man,
and by its relentless repetition of given movement, will accomplish a
purpose irresistibly, inhumanly. It was this inhuman principle in the
mechanism he wanted to construct that inspired Gerald with an almost
religious exaltation. He, the man, could interpose a perfect, changeless,
godlike medium between himself and the Matter he had to subjugate.
There were two opposites, his will and the resistant Matter of the earth.
And between these he could establish the very expression of his will, the
incarnation of his power, a great and perfect machine, a system, an
activity of pure order, pure mechanical repetition, repetition ad
infinitum, hence eternal and infinite. He found his eternal and his
infinite in the pure machine-principle of perfect co-ordination into one
pure, complex, infinitely repeated motion, like the spinning of a wheel;
but a productive spinning, as the revolving of the universe may be called
a productive spinning, a productive repetition through eternity, to
infinity. And this is the Godmotion, this productive repetition ad
infinitum. And Gerald was the God of the machine, Deus ex Machina.
And the whole productive will of man was the Godhead.
He had his life-work now, to extend over the earth a great and perfect
system in which the will of man ran smooth and unthwarted, timeless, a
Godhead in process. He had to begin with the mines. The terms were
given: first the resistant Matter of the underground; then the
instruments of its subjugation, instruments human and metallic; and
finally his own pure will, his own mind. It would need a marvellous
adjustment of myriad instruments, human, animal, metallic, kinetic,
dynamic, a marvellous casting of myriad tiny wholes into one great
perfect entirety. And then, in this case there was perfection attained, the
will of the highest was perfectly fulfilled, the will of mankind wasperfectly enacted; for was not mankind mystically contra-distinguished
against inanimate Matter, was not the history of mankind just the history
of the conquest of the one by the other?
The miners were overreached. While they were still in the toils of divine
equality of man, Gerald had passed on, granted essentially their case,
and proceeded in his quality of human being to fulfil the will of mankind
as a whole. He merely represented the miners in a higher sense when he
perceived that the only way to fulfil perfectly the will of man was to
establish the perfect, inhuman machine. But he represented them very
essentially, they were far behind, out of date, squabbling for their
material equality. The desire had already transmuted into this new and
greater desire, for a perfect intervening mechanism between man and
Matter, the desire to translate the Godhead into pure mechanism.
As soon as Gerald entered the firm, the convulsion of death ran through
the old system. He had all his life been tortured by a furious and
destructive demon, which possessed him sometimes like an insanity.
This temper now entered like a virus into the firm, and there were cruel
eruptions. Terrible and inhuman were his examinations into every detail;
there was no privacy he would spare, no old sentiment but he would turn
it over. The old grey managers, the old grey clerks, the doddering old
pensioners, he looked at them, and removed them as so much lumber.
The whole concern seemed like a hospital of invalid employees. He had
no emotional qualms. He arranged what pensions were necessary, he
looked for efficient substitutes, and when these were found, he
substituted them for the old hands.
'I've a pitiful letter here from Letherington,' his father would say, in a
tone of deprecation and appeal. 'Don't you think the poor fellow might
keep on a little longer. I always fancied he did very well.'
'I've got a man in his place now, father. He'll be happier out of it, believe
me. You think his allowance is plenty, don't you?'
'It is not the allowance that he wants, poor man. He feels it very much,
that he is superannuated. Says he thought he had twenty more years of
work in him yet.'
'Not of this kind of work I want. He doesn't understand.'The father sighed. He wanted not to know any more. He believed the pits
would have to be overhauled if they were to go on working. And after all,
it would be worst in the long run for everybody, if they must close down.
So he could make no answer to the appeals of his old and trusty servants,
he could only repeat 'Gerald says.'
So the father drew more and more out of the light. The whole frame of
the real life was broken for him. He had been right according to his
lights. And his lights had been those of the great religion. Yet they
seemed to have become obsolete, to be superseded in the world. He
could not understand. He only withdrew with his lights into an inner
room, into the silence. The beautiful candles of belief, that would not do
to light the world any more, they would still burn sweetly and sufficiently
in the inner room of his soul, and in the silence of his retirement.
Gerald rushed into the reform of the firm, beginning with the office. It
was needful to economise severely, to make possible the great alterations
he must introduce.
'What are these widows' coals?' he asked.
'We have always allowed all widows of men who worked for the firm a
load of coals every three months.'
'They must pay cost price henceforward. The firm is not a charity
institution, as everybody seems to think.'
Widows, these stock figures of sentimental humanitarianism, he felt a
dislike at the thought of them. They were almost repulsive. Why were
they not immolated on the pyre of the husband, like the sati in India? At
any rate, let them pay the cost of their coals.
In a thousand ways he cut down the expenditure, in ways so fine as to be
hardly noticeable to the men. The miners must pay for the cartage of
their coals, heavy cartage too; they must pay for their tools, for the
sharpening, for the care of lamps, for the many trifling things that made
the bill of charges against every man mount up to a shilling or so in the
week. It was not grasped very definitely by the miners, though they were
sore enough. But it saved hundreds of pounds every week for the firm.Gerald was satisfied. He knew the colliers said they hated him. But he
had long ceased to hate them. When they streamed past him at evening,
their heavy boots slurring on the pavement wearily, their shoulders
slightly distorted, they took no notice of him, they gave him no greeting
whatever, they passed in a grey-black stream of unemotional acceptance.
They were not important to him, save as instruments, nor he to them,
save as a supreme instrument of control. As miners they had their being,
he had his being as director. He admired their qualities. But as men,
personalities, they were just accidents, sporadic little unimportant
phenomena. And tacitly, the men agreed to this. For Gerald agreed to it
in himself.
He had succeeded. He had converted the industry into a new and terrible
purity. There was a greater output of coal than ever, the wonderful and
delicate system ran almost perfectly. He had a set of really clever
engineers, both mining and electrical, and they did not cost much. A
highly educated man cost very little more than a workman. His
managers, who were all rare men, were no more expensive than the old
bungling fools of his father's days, who were merely colliers promoted.
His chief manager, who had twelve hundred a year, saved the firm at
least five thousand. The whole system was now so perfect that Gerald
was hardly necessary any more.
It was so perfect that sometimes a strange fear came over him, and he
did not know what to do. He went on for some years in a sort of trance of
activity. What he was doing seemed supreme, he was almost like a
divinity. He was a pure and exalted activity.
But now he had succeeded—he had finally succeeded. And once or twice
lately, when he was alone in the evening and had nothing to do, he had
suddenly stood up in terror, not knowing what he was. And he went to
the mirror and looked long and closely at his own face, at his own eyes,
seeking for something. He was afraid, in mortal dry fear, but he knew not
what of. He looked at his own face. There it was, shapely and healthy and
the same as ever, yet somehow, it was not real, it was a mask. He dared
not touch it, for fear it should prove to be only a composition mask. His
eyes were blue and keen as ever, and as firm in their sockets. Yet he was
not sure that they were not blue false bubbles that would burst in a
moment and leave clear annihilation. He could see the darkness in them,as if they were only bubbles of darkness. He was afraid that one day he
would break down and be a purely meaningless babble lapping round a
darkness.
But his will yet held good, he was able to go away and read, and think
about things. He liked to read books about the primitive man, books of
anthropology, and also works of speculative philosophy. His mind was
very active. But it was like a bubble floating in the darkness. At any
moment it might burst and leave him in chaos. He would not die. He
knew that. He would go on living, but the meaning would have collapsed
out of him, his divine reason would be gone. In a strangely indifferent,
sterile way, he was frightened. But he could not react even to the fear. It
was as if his centres of feeling were drying up. He remained calm,
calculative and healthy, and quite freely deliberate, even whilst he felt,
with faint, small but final sterile horror, that his mystic reason was
breaking, giving way now, at this crisis.
And it was a strain. He knew there was no equilibrium. He would have to
go in some direction, shortly, to find relief. Only Birkin kept the fear
definitely off him, saved him his quick sufficiency in life, by the odd
mobility and changeableness which seemed to contain the quintessence
of faith. But then Gerald must always come away from Birkin, as from a
Church service, back to the outside real world of work and life. There it
was, it did not alter, and words were futilities. He had to keep himself in
reckoning with the world of work and material life. And it became more
and more difficult, such a strange pressure was upon him, as if the very
middle of him were a vacuum, and outside were an awful tension.
He had found his most satisfactory relief in women. After a debauch with
some desperate woman, he went on quite easy and forgetful. The devil of
it was, it was so hard to keep up his interest in women nowadays. He
didn't care about them any more. A Pussum was all right in her way, but
she was an exceptional case, and even she mattered extremely little. No,
women, in that sense, were useless to him any more. He felt that his
MIND needed acute stimulation, before he could be physically roused.