Self Pity

I was such a fucking idiot!

I finally got the one thing I wanted and what did I do? I let him walk away!

I was ready to tell him how I truly felt, after hearing his raw confession, I was ready to tell him that my heart belonged to him and to him only, but he was now…gone!

I had let my fear paralyze me, I had waited too long and now Reagan had walked away thinking that I didn't care about him. Heather had claimed it was just a week but it feels like a year to me. A whole lot could happen in a week. A heart can be broken, a love lost and what will I do if he shows up with another woman and decides he wants her as another concubine?

Fuck, how the hell do I cope if he decides to do just that? I thought to myself.