Chapter 19. "For the most part."

Hey, hey!

I hope that this -as always- finds you all well.

This year has been a bit tough for me, you know?

But it's okay!

Life can be a bit bumpy at times, but I am okay.

Alive.

I have things that I need.

I have some things that I want.

I am happy with that.

Do I get lonely at times?

Fuck yes lol

I am only human.

A very single and picky human.

I am okay with being single.

I have a couple of really good friends, and that is all that matters.

I have a little Link who feels how I feel, and who is just as open to "mingle in our freedom" and leave it at that as I am lol.

We all have needs.

I also have you good Readers lol.

Thanks for keeping me company in this strange thing that we call life.

I will leave you all at that.

Enjoy.

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September 11, 2018.

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Dear You.

Hey Kid.

I would like to start by saying, I am very sorry...

Yesterday was not one of my better days.

Sometimes life is going to get tough...so very very tough.

Just hang in there...

There will always be another page.

See!??

Look at me writing at this moment.

Our life is ours.

We can do what we want with it. 

For the most part.

I -know- one thing we cannot do...Is take our own life.

It is not ours to take.

I know that that's kinda strange-sounding and even contradictory...but one day you'll understand.

I love you.

-Dad.

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Hmm.

My opinion on suicide has changed considerably lbvs.

I am an advocate.

I apologize if that offends anyone, but I am of the mindset that our life is our own.

I believe that if you have done EVERYTHING within your abilities to reach out and seek help, and nothing and no one can help you?

Find somewhere peaceful and secluded and do what you must.

No one should have to live and exist in a miserable state...

No one. 

We don't as to be here Kid. 

None of us are given a choice, you know?

It is only fair that we should get to have control over at least our own off switch.

I won't go any deeper.

I've spoken on this before lbvs.

I was raised Baptist before my family converted to Pentecostal. 

Quite the upbringing lol.

I was raised to believe that our life is not our own.

I respect that, and anyone who stands by it, but it is just not something that I fully agree with is all.

Enough of that lol.

I hope to see you all back here soon enough, regardless of who you worship or what you believe in.

I love you as a fellow human, you know?

That is all that matters.

Safe travels folks.

You too, Kid.

As always:

Stay safe.

Stay healthy.

Stay vigilant.

-Redd.