Vegeance

I don't know what happened to me at that moment and why I told him all this. I still felt angry towards him. I don't want to break this engagement at all and because then I will lose my freedom. I was not proud of what I did at all, but I am also a normal person who has feelings. During these days I pretended as if nothing was happening, but in reality my heart, soul, body were all on fire. I felt like I was falling apart into a million pieces, I had to get out of here immediately, or I would say something I shouldn't say.

Sofia realized I was going to leave and grabbed my hand and wouldn't let go.

Sofia: "You can't go anywhere until we figure everything out!"

She was holding my wrist so tightly that it was impossible to bear. I could barely free my hand from her.

Me: Do you want to know the truth? Okay, then I'll tell you everything..... How many years have we been married? Six or seven. It was his idea, so we got married quietly and no one knows. Do you think he loves you and would do anything to protect you? It's ridiculous if you think that, because when they wrote a thousand nasty things about me, he never said anything, even though I was his wife.... 

There was silence in the room, probably because they couldn't believe what I was saying or didn't know what to say.

Me: Do you know that you won't get anything from him if you marry him? You will not receive his property, nor royal title, and if you have children, they will not receive anything either. This is the royal rule that has not changed to this day. I will always be his first wife, and even if I die, you will still not receive all this. Everyone says that I am here for the title, but I do not need it. I will gladly give it to you, and if you still want such a deceitful person, you can have him too.

I didn't want to see them or be here from now on. I didn't say anything more. I kept all this in my heart for years. There are still many things I haven't told anyone, but I think that was enough. 

I was almost at the door when Michael's cousin stopped me.

Louis: "Eleanor, you look great. Michael is an idiot."

Me: Seriously? Are you trying to flirt with me?

Louis: "Why? Because we're in the palace? Then let's get out of here."

Me: Are you serious? You realize I was your cousin's wife for years and I'm still his wife.

Louis: "So what?"

All the idiots gathered here, what's going on? I wanted to punch him in the face, but I couldn't do it. The journalists and the people would eat me alive. There will be terrible chaos tomorrow, because I know that I've spread the news of what happened here everywhere. If I were anywhere else, I would definitely punch him. I was so angry, but I still managed to control myself.

Me: Go find someone else, because you have no chance with me.

Louis: "This is not going to end like this."

I laughed. How can I not laugh at something like this? I kept walking and saw Leonard coming towards me, he seemed very worried about me.

Leonard: "Oh, is everything okay?"

Me: Don't ask me anything, I have to get out of here right now.

He immediately took my hand and led me out of the room. He didn't ask me anything, but he kept checking to see if I was okay. I'm glad I have such a wonderful brother, otherwise I probably wouldn't have been able to go out. We went out into the yard and I came to my senses.

It was cold outside, and before we got to the car, he put his jacket on me. The journalists wanted to take pictures, but he didn't let them. We left the palace and this time we barely made it. I wanted to go somewhere far from here. I thought we were going home, but when I looked out the window, I realized that it was a completely different road.

Me: Where are we going, brother?

Leonard: "You need a change of scenery right now. You wouldn't be able to relax at home and you'd be thinking about what happened here all the time."

Me: You're right. I wish I could forget all this.

Leonard: "We're not going home anyway. Let's sit down and talk."

Me: You still haven't told me where we're going.

Leonard: "We're going where you can be free."

I had no idea where we were going. I rarely left the palace, and even then we went either to the summer palace or the winter palace. I felt like I was in another country. My brother was right, I've spent my whole life in the palace and I don't plan on staying home anymore. I need to go out more often, but it won't be easy. The car stopped and I realized that I had arrived at my destination. There was no point in looking outside, because I still wouldn't know where I was. He opened the car door for me and helped me out. It was quiet, peaceful, there was no noise at all. I felt like I had entered a magical world.

Leonard: "This is exactly what you need."

Me: What place is this?

Leonard: "It's my mother's house. I often go here when I want to get away from it all. I'll let our family know we're here. You can relax. There's a great terrace out back."

Me: Okay. I'll go then.

It was hard to see in the dark, but it looked like a small cottage. I turned on my phone so I wouldn't bump into anything and went out onto the terrace. It was a wonderful breath of fresh air. I closed my eyes to drown out the silence. Soon Leonard came and stood next to me.

Leonard: "Aren't you cold, there should be a blanket inside. No food, but I can offer you tea or coffee."

Me: That would be nice. We'll warm up in the cold.

Leonard: "Which one?"

Me: Tea

Leonard: "I'll make it right now and find something to go with it."

Even though he's the younger brother, he takes care of me like a father. I'm used to taking care of everything and this is the first time someone else has done this for me. He came back a short while later with two cups of tea and some leftover biscuits.

Leonard: "I hope you like it."

Me: Thanks.

Leonard: "I don't know much about you and I want to make up for it."

Me: You're right. Because of being in the palace and being angry with father, we couldn't be siblings.

Leonard: "It's okay, the main thing is that we be together from now on."

Me: That's how it will be. I may not be here, but I will always call you and if you need me, I will be with you.

Leonard: "I will also be by your side when you need me. What are your plans?"

Me: I don't know yet, but I want to travel. I've always wanted to get away from here and experience other cultures.

Leonard: "It'll be good, you can rest and forget about all this. I'll miss you, but the main thing is that you were okay."

We talked for a long time and made up for lost time. I can't believe I left all this behind because I was angry with my father. Before I go, I have to talk to him and figure everything out. I don't want there to be any misunderstandings between us. Everyone in the family is so concerned about me that I think I've made a lot of mistakes. Being here has really relaxed me. I haven't been upset at all about the engagement and the incident at the palace. If I could, I wouldn't have left here, but I had to go back home. Drinking tea and talking to my brother was really great.

After so long, I found my true happiness, which turned out to be my family. It's a pity that I can't stay here for long, because it's time for me to learn more about the Rentons.

I have a lot to take care of these days before I leave. I have to talk to my father when we get home tomorrow morning. I know it will be very difficult to meet with Nicholas and Natalie, but I have to talk to them too. I'm sure they're surprised too, because we haven't told them anything either. Despite everything, I don't want their relationship to deteriorate.

I went to bed because I have to get up early tomorrow morning. I didn't check my phone because I know it will be complete chaos.