Heartbreak

I woke up early in the morning, Leonard was already awake and waiting for me. We returned home. I took a shower, changed clothes, and went down to breakfast. Leonard and I had breakfast before the others woke up.

I am used to waking up early in the morning. Before I had breakfast, my godson Lucas and I often played together. I missed him very much and I know that from now on I will rarely be able to see him.

After breakfast, I texted Natalie to visit me these days and asked her to bring Lucas with her. Even though he is not even three years old, they are teaching him a lot.

She replied to my message soon.

Natalie: "Of course, I will bring Lucas, because he looks for you everywhere. He really missed playing with you."

Me: Thank you. I know you have a lot to do because of me, but I want to talk to you. I don't want to leave like this.

Natalie: "Where are you going? Don't tell me you're leaving the country because of Michael.."

Me: No, that's not true. We'll talk about everything when we see you.

I have no plans for today, I don't want to leave the house, if it weren't for my family I wouldn't even leave my room. After breakfast, I went back to my room and started looking through my old things. Here are my childhood memories. Maybe I'll see something that will help me remember my memories. I noticed a box in the closet that was full of books. For some reason, I wanted to unpack it and look through it. I had a feeling that I would find something important inside, and I was right. It looked like a diary, so I immediately opened it and started reading. On the first page were the initials "E. L. R." I think it must be related to me. I turned to the second page and continued reading. I found my mother's second diary. I'm surprised no one told me about it before. I've spent my whole life remembering childhood memories. Would I understand everything after all these years? Now I wanted to read it even more. There was a knock on the door. "May I come in?" It was Leonard. I put the diary in the box and opened the door. Leonard entered the room.

Leonard: "Are you free?"

Me: Yes, of course. Did something happen?

Leonard: "Nothing, we just wanted to take you somewhere."

Me: Let's go, I won't say no.

Leonard: "Great, get ready and we'll be waiting for you downstairs."

I really wanted to read the diary and now I have more questions than ever, but I can read it anytime, and I've already missed a lot with them. I immediately got ready and went with them. They were very happy, I've never seen them so happy.

Me: Where are we going?

Leonard: "Somewhere where we can have fun together, without anyone bothering us."

I was sure that I would have a great time with them. Right now, I really needed that, to forget everything and have fun. Leonard was right and we soon arrived. I was determined to spend time happily with them. To my surprise, it was quiet, there were no people anywhere. I looked around in surprise.

Me: Brother, what's going on, why is there no one there?

Leonard: "The owner of this place is my best friend and I asked him to close it for us today, that's why there's no one there. I thought you might want to be alone with us."

Me: Thanks, I don't know what to say. I really needed that.

Leonard: "Okay then let's go inside, what are we waiting for."

We had a really great time together. I felt like a little kid. We played board games, computer games, almost everything, and we were very tired. I haven't been this happy in a long time. Freedom and spending time with family has been really good.

Vincent: "Are you tired?"

Leonard: "Yes, very tired. Would you like something to drink?"

Me: Just water.

Leonard: "Okay, I'll get it for you right away."

Vincent: "No need, I've already taken care of that."

Suddenly someone came to us, because there shouldn't be anyone here except us, then he must be Leonard's friend.

Leonard: "Thanks, you're the best. I completely forgot. You probably already know her, my sister Eleanor. This is my best friend Nolan."

Nolan: "Everyone knows her. It's nice to meet you in person."

Me: Thanks. Leonard told me you closed this place down for us.

Nolan: "I'd do anything for my best friend."

I don't know why, but my gut told me something wasn't right here. Why this place anyway? I'll find out sooner or later. When they suddenly left us alone, I realized what they were planning. I had to get out of here somehow, but I couldn't leave right now. I had to stay for a little while and then I'd leave.

Nolan: "You're so strong."

Me: Thanks, but why do you say that?

Nolan: "Not many people in your position could handle all this."

Me: How do you know I'm handling it?

Nolan: "You're right. I don't know what you're thinking and feeling, but you still attended the engagement party despite everything and you were very calm with the journalists."

Me: That's not true, being calm doesn't mean I'm handling everything. I'm sorry, but I don't want to talk about it.

I'm here to relax and not think about all this, but for some reason everyone wants to talk about my life. They act like they know everything, but they have no idea what's going on. I have to get out of here right now. I was about to leave, but he stopped me. I didn't expect this. Why does it always happen like this? I think I attract all this. It's like bad luck that clings to me and it's impossible to get rid of it.

Nolan: "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have brought this up. But I still think you're strong. It's my fault. Have fun with your family."

Me: I will.

I may have been too harsh, but I'm tired of all this. Why can't they understand that I don't want to have new relationships or meet anyone? I understand that they're worried about me and want me to forget Michael as soon as possible, but despite everything, I still have feelings for him and I don't think I'll be able to forget him so soon. Maybe I'll forget him after some time, but not so quickly.

I immediately went to Leonard. I was very angry with them, I tried to control my emotions. I took a few deep breaths before I got to them.

Me: Leonard and Dad, I know you care about me, but don't do that again.

Leonard: "What are you talking about?"

Me: I know you care about me, I understand, but don't interfere in my life anymore. I'm not ready for that.

Vincent: "You're right, it won't happen again. We just wanted you to meet someone."

Leonard: "I promise it won't happen again."

Me: Okay, let's go now.

I'm still mad at them. We left right away. I have to talk to Dad and read Mom's diary when I get back.

We had dinner as soon as we got home, I was really tired, but I had to talk to my dad. I'm sure Leonard had already told him I was leaving, which is why they planned all this.

Me: Dad, can we talk?

Vincent: "Let's go to another room so we can talk quietly."

We went to the other room together.

Me: You probably already know I'm leaving. I'm going to rest for a bit and I want to figure something out.

Vincent: "Yes. Leonard already told me. We're coming with you."

Me: I know you care about me, but I have to go alone. I'm planning to leave in a few days. I'll take care of everything before then. Oh, one more thing. What's my real name?

Vincent: "What do you mean?"

Me: I saw Mom's note, it said "E. L." That's why I'm asking.

Vincent: "She wanted to name you Liliana."

Eleanor Liliana Renton? E. L. R.

Me: Thank you. I'm going to sleep now because I'm really tired.

I said goodbye to my father and went up to my room. I took a bath and took out my hidden diary. I made myself comfortable in bed and started reading. It was really my mother's diary that she wrote for me. It was about almost all the moments we spent together. I couldn't hold back my tears. I remember almost nothing about my mother. I'm glad I found this diary and that my mother wrote it for me.