16. Meeting in her bedroom (Part 4)

The atmosphere of Sasai's room was not different from mine. It was a fairly spacious room with a desk, bed, and bookshelf.Still, I somehow smelled something like flowers, or a feminine scent, and it felt like something out of the ordinary. Even so, Sasai slammed the door and urged me further inside. There was a small table in the center of the room, so I spread out my textbooks and notebooks on it. At this point, my heart was pounding, and the silent prayer wasn't doing me any favors, but I tried to calm myself down by thinking about the probability problem in front of me.For about an hour from then, I taught Sasai the basics of probability. Even if you understand it yourself, it's difficult to teach someone else. Especially since she was dealing with the beautiful girl in his class, who smelled good whenever she got close and felt a soft touch whenever his arm touched hers. she had a hard time concentrating, but she still seemed to understand the basic mechanisms and formulas."I feel like I've gotten smarter!"Sasai said happily. Since I'd been teaching her from the basics, the homework that followed went relatively smoothly. "Thank you for today, Sato-kun... I think I can manage this unit now."Perhaps she had calmed down after the break, Sasai spoke to me. I tried not to pay attention to it, but I was in Sasai-san's room, and right next to the bed that Sasai-san was likely using, and strange delusions were starting to form.However, I managed to shake it off and answered her."I-I'm totally fine... If you have any more questions, I'll teach you at school or anywhere..."Despite the arrogant statement, Ms. Sasai looked at me and said, "...Yeah, thanks." Her round eyes stared at me, and I was nervous, and it might have even created an awkward atmosphere."Ah, well, since I'm here... I wonder if I can get some help with other subjects!"Shaking off the awkward atmosphere, she tried to take out another textbook from the shelf of her desk. Meanwhile, I was looking around restlessly. This kind of thing is probably not a good thing to do.As I was observing the girl's room, I suddenly noticed something like a string sticking out from under a cushion a little distance away. Normally, it's never okay to touch something in a girl's room without permission. However, I guess I was relaxing now that the big event of teaching her at close range was over.Curious as I was, I reached out for the pink string. The object was pulled out from under the cushion and I got a glimpse of it. It was a battery-operated type with an oval on one side and a controller on the other side, across from the string. It was what is commonly known as a pink vibrator.The moment I noticed it, I decided I should hide it again. I knew right away that it was something I shouldn't look at.However, Sasai had already turned towards me, textbook in hand. Naturally, she had seen the object in my right hand."...! Ah, eh, ummm!"In an instant, her face lost all expression, and her mouth and eyes opened and closed. In between, she let out a few sounds.And then, my thought process shorted out. If I put myself in her shoes, it would be like a girl discovering a masturbation aid in my room. In other words, this was the worst possible situation for not only me, but also Sasai. I wonder if she'll hit me. While I was thinking that, I couldn't say anything, and she weakly started to speak."... I'm sorry... I think I... I forgot to put it away... haha..."She was laughing as if she had contrived, her face was completely twisted."Well, I didn't buy that, I got it from a friend, so..."She was so upset that she was babbling away about things she didn't need to say. It would be better if she stopped, but she was afraid she would say something wrong, so in the end she could only wait."So... I'm so sorry!"Sasai shouted and even started to shed tears. She must have really hated being seen by me. It was only natural, since a man she didn't like had seen the adult toys she usually uses.However, there was absolutely no need for Sasai to apologize. It was my fault for pulling it out from under the cushion without permission, and I was definitely the one who made Sasai cry."Ahh, I should be the one apologizing, I, you know, flipped the cushion over and found it without permission, so all the responsibility is on me, so please don't apologize...!"I managed to tell her what I needed to say, but Sasai still wouldn't stop crying."B-But... If Sato-kun, of all people, finds out that I'm using something like that... you'll despise me... you'll think it's disgusting."Along with my panicked feelings, doubts about what I was saying began to arise. I could understand if Sasai found me disgusting, but the opposite was impossible, and there was no way I would despise him for knowing that she was using it to masturbate. If anything, I was sure I would be excited."I, I heard that boys don't like girls with strong sexual desires... so I tried not to show that in front of Sato-kun, but..."I couldn't keep up with what she was saying. I still couldn't believe that Sasai-san would talk to me about sexual desires or anything like that. It's unlikely that this was all a prank in this situation, but I still don't have a solution. I try to find the right words to say from the little information I have.I thought about it, but in the end, I came to the conclusion that I had no choice but to tell Sasai-san that his knowledge and my thoughts were different. Anyway, I couldn't let her cry and be sad because of me."Um, well, I don't know about other boys, but... I don't look down on them like that, and I think it's fine if they have a strong sexual desire, you know..."I don't know if my choice of words was correct because my thought process was short-circuited. Still, I had to say something that would make Sasai stop crying. When Sasai heard what I said, she raised her head, which had been bowed, and looked at me."...S-Sato-kun? Y-You really think that...?"She showed a look of surprise and doubt.