True feelings PART 1*REMAKE
Meanwhile in Tory's room
"Today I woke up feeling unwell... feeling nauseous, I didn't know I was pregnant..." When I found out I felt lost... "What would I do with my life?" I cried... I felt like my world had fallen apart, I was only 17 years old, a few months before I turned 18, but this baby I'm expecting is none other than his... The boy I met 3 years ago... When I met him I was angry at life, for having to do everything around the house, at only 15 years old... I already worked, what 15 year old girl wants to work? Making food, cleaning the house and taking care of everything...
"They say I have an aggressive personality, and it's true, I really am... I think anyone would create that personality with everything I've been through in this life... But when I'm with him... With Clark it seems like all that disappears, all that personality that I have disappears... I wonder if that's how I'm really supposed to be?" When I was 15, I had never discovered what it was to fall in love... I was just a little girl... But when I met him, it started as a friendship... I didn't even know what that was, all my friends that I had abandoned me when I said that I worked and took care of the house, it seems like they all felt disgusted with me for doing all that...
So when he showed up on the school terrace that day, I was a little surprised. No one went there, practically never. It was all a surprise... I thought it would be just that one time, but it wasn't like that. He started visiting me constantly and I became attached to him.
So from the friendship something grew inside me, I went home thinking about the next day when I would meet him on the terrace, I worked thinking about all of this... I was going crazy, but I came to the conclusion that I had fallen in love with him, I had never felt this before as I said, I had no idea what this feeling was, it was... it was very good, I felt happy, everything was lighter, everything I did, all that weight seemed to disappear a little... Then we met in an alley one day, all those strong feelings that I felt exploded when we kissed for the first time... For me it was magical, I will never forget that day... The day I felt two extremely different feelings...
Love is disappointment... He had promised me after we had that first kiss that he would never abandon me like my old "friends", but he said he was going away for a year... my heart raced, not out of joy but out of sadness... I thought... "that's it, I'm going to be abandoned again... so I got angry and fought with him... I didn't want this, but everything he said to me didn't make sense to me. Why would he give me a kiss, say he wouldn't abandon me like my friends if he was going to say he was going away right after? I didn't understand... So months went by and he went to say goodbye to me, and I treated him extremely badly... My world after those words of his went back to square one again... Everything went back to its rightful place, I was working myself to death and my life was becoming hell again..." But those feelings never went away... I hid them inside my chest so as not to suffer more than I should have...
"So 1 year passed and I finally thought he would come back... But it wasn't like that, he just never showed up..." "Once again he broke a promise..."
After that I found Cobra Kai... "I threw myself head first into it to forget that bastard who didn't keep his promises...." I decided to forget him... and then I tried to move on with another boy.."Miguel....."But when I kissed him for the first time.... I realized that it would never be the same....
"It didn't even come close to that feeling I first felt with Clark...."But I decided to move on so I did... "But as if fate was playing tricks on me."
"I saw Miguel kissing Larusso, I was already angry with her before I met him..." Her life... was everything I wanted. "A family reunited, brother with a peaceful life, parents united and married, it's a happy life..." Her life was everything I wanted... that feeling of her having everything I wanted and still coming to take something that was mine..." It infuriated me and I ended up doing something stupid... and Miguel almost died in the process...
"I was arrested because of all this... I felt like I was at rock bottom..." Then 1 day later I was on the street... "At home I found that pig of a tenant..." He was humiliating me... and because I was at rock bottom I really thought it was the end of everything and that I was going to be... Used by this guy..." But then Clark showed up... "Saving me...
When I saw him again, all the feelings that I thought I had erased from my heart... Came back with all the strength possible, my heart raced, I started to sweat and tremble... It was as if I had seen a person from the past in front of me... The mix of nostalgia with love and longing "is a very crazy feeling..." Nothing I had felt before could describe it, it was strange... I wanted to give myself to him the moment I saw him... But then my mind remembered what happened and I closed myself off completely to him... The anger I felt was almost clouded by the feeling of longing... However, I didn't let that happen. I let out my anger and... Fear... Fear that he would do the same thing as before, I wouldn't be able to stand that in that part of my life... I was broken that day and him showing up like that made me angry... I blamed him for everything bad that had happened in my life until now after he left... So I treated him badly and hit him in the face... I cried... I I didn't want to see him anymore... I didn't want to feel that again... so I sent him away and he went...
a few days passed after that... "He was in my thoughts again..." I felt more focused again on the things I was doing.....
I returned to Cobra Kai after a conversation with Kreese... it all happened again. I looked for a fight with Larusso and the Myagi-Do guys again...."everything was going well I was going to give that girl what she deserved.." I thought so then He appeared again... "He was so strong, so masculine, so handsome..." I hadn't realized the first time he visited me at my apartment... "My heart raced quickly, but I didn't let it affect me and confronted him, "I told him that he meant nothing to me..." I lied like I had never lied before... "I felt like garbage even worse for saying those words... "When he said he thought he had been wrong with me.... I got angry.."But who was I kidding? He was right..... I wasn't that 15 year old girl anymore.. At least I thought I wasn't until Larusso confronted me and said that she and Clark were together...
"I had never felt so much hate in my life like that time... It was explosive, I went after her screaming without even using katate, but I didn't want to know about any of that, I just wanted to kill her..." She stole him from me... I felt betrayed, as if a part of me was ripped out... I just wanted to end that girl right there...."I treat Clark badly... I didn't want him to date another girl..."Who was I trying to fool?" I think everyone realized that, what I felt for him was too big, not even if I tried to hide it I couldn't...
"So Clark tried to break up the fight, and I kicked him down there. "Larusso confronted me and I tried to go up, but the fight was already over..." and she kissed him in front of me... "I felt totally broken and humiliated by this... so I left..." All I could think about was that bitch, she had stolen something of mine again... I felt hate, anger, anguish, all the bad feelings possible I felt for that girl, at that moment...