CHAPTER 2

Belinda didn't like the way Asher involved himself in her school matters because sometimes he refused to see her, even if she come without telling him, he would send her back to her home to read her books because he wanted the best for her.

"Bt baby, you know, I'm not able to end the day without seeing you." She tried to explain.

"You will get used of it baby." He said.

"No babe, I won't, it makes no difference, even if you send me back at home I'll not read, I can't read at a noisy place, I only have one time for reading, that's is when everyone is sleeping at home."

"Okay, I understand sweetheart, on that way, if you come here you must come with your books so that you will read here in peace, no one will disturb you and the will be no more game of love, our game of love will be now on weekends only."

"But baby..."

"No, no means no, my words are final, I won't allow you to forget about your education because I want the best for you my love. If you feel like I'm doing this because I want to cheat behind your back, you can come here anytime you want to, even if you didn't tell me you're coming I don't mind, you'll find me here, all alone. "Asher said.

" I understand then. "Belinda said.

" That's my angel. "He got close to her lips and kissed her. Belinda was now below Asher kissing.

" Baby wait. "He stopped her.

" What's wrong baby? "She asked.

" Before we starts this, I want you to know that I can't live without you, you're my favourite human, the most beautiful woman I know, my number one, my other half, my amazing girlfriend, the one I love. I may not always express my feelings with words, but if you just look into my eyes, you'll know how much I love you. Everything about you sweetheart is beautiful. Thank you for being such a generous person, you make me happy every single day, fuck... I'm the luckiest man ever. You the most ambitious girlfriend in the world, seeing you happy makes me happy even more. Ever since you stole my heart, you've made me feel like luckiest person in the entire universe. You never failed to make me smile, you are such a wonderful woman. Not only are you the world's best girlfriend, but you are also the best friend I could ever asked for. I wish you prosperity, endless laughter and all good things. I know I always make stupid mistakes but I want you to know I'll not always be perfect, please be patient with me and stay with me forever. "Asher said.

" Oh baby! You make me cry now, I'll stay with you no matter what the situation is. "Belinda said wiping her tears of joy, she never knew Asher loved her whole heartedly. They then continued kissing and had a great time. Belinda started to act as a wife on Asher's, she would always keep his house clean, make sure he always have washed-clean clothes, Iron them, help his mom with other house chores like cooking, washing dishes and so forth. His family adored her, they took her as one of their own, they would keep her food when she was coming, his mother would buy her clothes, even underwears and took her like her own daughter. Belinda enjoyed being treated like a queen like Asher did, she was very special.

The love she shared with Asher became more stronger. At college, most of the learners knew that Belinda was Asher's girlfriend as Asher was a well known person. Some were jealous but she didn't mind them, they would tell her that Asher is cheating on her but she never believed them, when she asked him, he would deny all that. Belinda tried to believe him but it was all true. He even dated girls who are very close to her, they all maked her a fool but she didn't see all that. He maked alot of mistakes that maked Belinda to cry every day. One day, they had a fight against each other, Asher then asked her why she was behaving as if he is the one who took her virginity. Belinda cried when she heard those words coming from him. He continued making more mistakes but Belinda forgave him every time when he was wrong without him apologising. Their love continued to be unfading but it had a lot of conflicts. The other day at night when they were together, they heard a loudly knock at their door, they were drunk that day so they decided to ignore the knock but it didn't stopped. Asher then woke up and opened the door. I was his girlfriend 'Pretty' whom they always fought about and Asher would say he had broke up with her but he lied.

"What are you doing here?" He asked her.

"I came to see you, you said I must come today, so why you ask me that now?" Preety said.

"I never said that, please go away, I'm with Belinda, you're even drunk." Asher said. Pretty refused to go away and Asher started to beat her and her friend, he had Belinda locked in the room so that she won't be able to come out. The girl cried and walked away, he then came back to the bedroom.

" Why did you lock me in here,you didn't want your girlfriend to see me right? How could you do that Asher?" Belinda asked and cried.

"Don't be a fool, I got rid of her didn't I? Look at your self how ugly you are when crying." He said and Belinda cried even more, she cried the whole night while Asher was sleeping like a baby as if he was not at fault. He didn't apologise to her, as far as he was concerned, he didn't have to. In the morning no one was talking. Asher forced himself to talk to her but Belinda only replied what he asked and continued to be silent. Asher looked at her for a moment, in his mind, their argument of the night before was entirely his fault but he saw nothing to apologise for or explain, he had self pride. He didn't feel guilty for calling Belinda names and provoking her. Belinda was in so much pain, she couldn't help thinking about the last night. In the end she had forgiven him for the night before which was rare, even though he didn't apologise. They then had come to some kind of temporary peace, and were both feeling unusually mellow. They were only talking after all, with the door closed. The two love birds remained in their room until it was time for Belinda to go back home. She continued hearing people talking about her cheating boyfriend. She started to be full of it now, she had enough to hear about it. She then tald herself that she will also cheat on him because he had now shown his true colours to her. Shortly the after, Belinda met a guy called 'Owen' at the park, they fell inlove, even though Belinda wasn't serious about their relationship, she only wanted to heal the pain Asher had caused to her. She wasn't aware that Owen works at Asher's company and they knew each other. Owen showed Asher Belinda's pictures through his phone and tald him Belinda is one of his new girlfriends. Asher became very angry and started to beat Owen, after that he clocked out at work early. On his way he called Belinda and tald her to go to his place and take all her belongings and make sure that he doesn't find her at his place because she will kill her. He sounded crying over the phone. Belinda was very shocked, she was wondering how did he found out, she then went to Asher's place after school to take her belongings but she waited for him to come back so that she would explain everything to him, she knew that he will kick her out of his house when he found her there. Belinda knew Asher as mush as she knew herself, he didn't forgive so easily, he had a stone heart, so she decided to take the pills that were on the headboard drawer and drank them all. She didn't feel dizzy at the moments. She opened the door so that when she overdoze,it would be easy for Asher to come in. Asher then game back and became very furious when he found Belinda in his house.

"Hey....hey..... hey what did I say to you?" Asher shouted in anger.

"I'm here to talk to you Asher." Belinda said with crying eyes.

"There's nothing we're going to talk about, I don't want hear anything coming from you Belinda, you broke my heart, you slept with him Belinda, Eish fuck!" He screamed.

"No that's a lie, I didn't sleep with him."

"What did you just say? You came hear to lie?Please get out I don't even want to lay my hands on you." He holded her arm roughly and thrown her out of the house but Belinda came in again.

"You think this Is some kind of a joke?" He exited and came back with his mother.

"What happened Asher?" His mother asked.

"Ask her, ask her mom, she slept with my colleague, tell me how do i trust her again, please tell your so called 'daughter in law' to get out and never come back."

"What! What have you done Belinda, how can you disappoint me in such a way?"

"Mom it all a lie." Belinda replied and cried.Asher desperately wanted to beat her but he tried to reduce his anger.

"Listen here my daughter, please go home, you will come back when he's alright, you know how he is when he is angry, okay?"

"it's okay mom." She then went back to her home crying all the way. She took four packs of HIV pills and drank them all, trying to kill her self. Candice saw her when doing this and went to report it to their parents, they then all came to her room, when they asked her why she was killing her self, she didn't respond. It helped them to take her phone and searched her WhatsApp because that's where they found that she had a fight with Asher. They then called him to come over in order for them to find a solution regarding this matter. Asher came, Belinda's family members were all there including her mom.

"It better that you finally came here, your girlfriend drank four packets of HIV pills, trying to kill her self which is a pity because those pills don't kill, they only going to make her ill for a long time." Said Belinda's granny showing Asher empty pockets of pills.

" Well... I don't even know where to start. "He took a deep breath and said" Belinda and I were so much inlove in the way that we were happy and had no problems. Every month when I earned my salary at work I gave her my card and tald her to fulfil all her needs, I didn't cared to be left with nothing because I wanted to satisfy her so that she won't feel the space of another man on her life, I never introduced a girl to my family bt I did that to her, they all know her and love her very much. The day before yesterday when I was at work, my colleague came to show me her pictures on his phone and showed me his conversation with her on his WhatsApp, and tald me Belinda is his new girlfriend and they already had sexual intercourse. I cried a lot, what maked me to cry even more is that everyone at work knew Belinda was my girlfriend, but she had a nerve to do this to me, I'm the one who must kill himself here not her. "Asher said this and cried. Everyone was silent now, feeling the pain Asher was filling, they then all blamed Belinda. Belinda wanted to respond to Asher's words but she was now feeling very ill and unable to talk. The pills that she had drank were making her very dizzy, she then collapsed . They called an ambulance,it came and rushed her to hospital. She escaped the day after admission and lied to her parents about being discharged. She was still feeling very ill, her mouth was very dry, she couldn't even taste food. Asher didn't care about what she did to her self. He was still heartbroken and missed Belinda very much but he didn't want to see her near him. On Saturday night, Belinda came to Asher's place. Asher became very angry when he saw her.

"Did I not tell you to stop coming here?" He politely asked trying to hold his anger.

"Asher, I'm here to apologise, please here me out." She pleaded.

"No, don't apologise for something you interned to do. Listen very carefully, please keep yourself on your own home, do you understand? I really don't want to see you here anymore, you disgust me, if you don't do as I say Belinda, you'll regret it, I promise you. I don't love you any more so please go away, I berg you. "

" It's okay then, I'll go back home, take care. "She said and exited.

" Wait a moment, you can sleep here for the last time because it's too late and dark out side, you're a woman and might get into trouble. "

" Thank you. "She then stopped and sat in a couch. When Asher looked at her, he saw tears on her face falling down the floor, she was crying silently.

" Please don't cry because you'll annoy me, those tears of crocodile doesn't make me feel sorry for you, those are fake tears. You know Belinda, I loved you very much, I took you as my wife and tald myself that I won't be able to live with you. I thought you love me like I do, I love you even now but I'm ending this relationship for my own happiness.Everyone I loved left me, maybe I'm the one who have a problem here, I don't blame you, I'm just not what you need. You know, you maked me to hate everyone even myself, you maked me not to believe in love anymore. I don't think I'll truly love another girl again, they all broke my heart, even the one I trusted the most which is you, I'm now going to play girl's lives like others do so that I'll never feel like this again. I just feel like it's the end of the world and when I think that my future wife, my only future wife opened her legs for another man, I cry even more, It mean I have never satisfied you in bed. Even if I forgive you I would be playing with your life. All I want you to do is to focus on your school work Belinda, forget about boys, they won't bring your future, you'll find someone who will love you like I did. Look at your self, just look at the way you're beautiful, I just don't deserve you, you only deserve a charming guy, who wear fancy clothes, have fancy car and doing a well paying job, you don't deserve a boy like me. "Asher said and they both cried.

" Look here baby. "He holded her arm and said." There's no need for us to cry, we must only continue with our lives, nothing will happen to us trust me. Do you want us to become friends? "

" Yes I do. "She doubtly said.

" Okay, from today we are friends, not with benefits, you can come to visit me if you want to, maybe one day you'll meet my new girlfriend, I'll introduce you to her. "He looked at her and saw tears on her face again because of the words he had said.

" Come on, stop crying. "He huged her and they switch the light off and slept, holding each other. In the morning, Asher had to go to work, so he woke up early and took a bath, he woke Belinda up too and tald her to dress up, so that she will go back to her home to prepare her self for school. Her eyes were extremely red because of crying.

"I'm going now." She said. He holded her hand and said"take care of yourself Belinda, always be brave. "She wondered why he said that to her, what he was really trying to say. He wanted to tell her he loved her but he didn't know what to say but Belinda had no idea what was on his mind. He stood there, looking at her for a moment. He thought that even he knew that if he had loved her truly, he wouldn't let her go. He huged her, kissed her lips for the last time and then left her without saying another word.

"Asher wait." She said and he paused at the door way.

"Don't forget I'll always love you." She said, he then looked at her for a moment again after hearing those words and left. He paused outside the house just the fraction of an instant as she watched him leaving her, he looked back and blew her a kiss and left. Belinda also left the house and went to her home crying. Love meant everything to her, she dreamed of it, though of it and wrote of it. It was the one thing in her life that had eluded her completely. Many days passed and they didn't see each other. Asher had really disappeared in Belinda's life as effectively as if he had vanished off the face of the earth, never to be seen again. He never called, never texted her and never came to see her. When she tried to write him messages,he never respond, sometimes he would say that he no longer need her, the girls he loved had replaced her. She cried everytime when he mentioned them. He would say that they are beautiful, good, well behaved and everything she is not. Belinda hated her self for all this, she felt like rising waves of panic sometimes when she thought about it, remembering the last night she had with him. There was so much she would have liked to say to him, maybe if she had, if she had tald him how much she loved him, he might have stayed, he might not have left her for the two girls, the ones who were so much better than she was, the ones he now loved. Maybe if she had tried harder to stop him, he would have stayed. What if she really never did see him again? What if she forget what he looked like? She stood and stared at the pictures of him.

"I must forget him, he doesn't care about me at all, why I waste my time thinking about him." She said, talking to herself, looking at their first picture they took together. She convinced herself that she will never see him again, his silence confirmed it but if he really did loved her, she knew she would hear from him one day, all she could do was to wait. Days passed without seeing him. She decided to go and visit him, he found him chilling with his younger brother outside his house, she greeted them.

"It been a long time I saw you my friend." Asher said. Belinda gave him a fake laugh, he was sad inside when he calls her his friend.

"Let's go inside." He said, they did then and locked themselves in the bedroom, playing cards.

"How's school?" Asher asked.

"Hectic and boring." Belinda replied.

"So, are you going to be quiet while you came to visit me?"

"No."

"Then tell me why you came here?"

Belinda didn't respond to his question, she was absolutely quiet.

"Do you want me to forgive you?"

"Of course yes." She said with a big smile.

"Okay, please borrow me your phone then."

"Sure" She gave it to him, he searched it and didn't find something irritating him. He was then silent for a moment, as he was silent, Belinda's phone ranged twice, it was an incoming call, an unknown number.

"Here is your call, please open loud speaker." Asher said giving Belinda her phone. When she answered the call, it was one of the guys who begged for her love, Belinda just listened to what he was saying and didn't respond. Asher took the phone roughly on her hand and provoked the guy, their exchanged bitter words until the guy dropped the call.

"I thought I'll forgive you bt I've changed my mind, I'm no longer interested." Asher said.

They continued being separated from each other, sometimes when Belinda came to see Asher she would find him with one of his girlfriends and Belinda would pretend as if she is Asher's friend, nothing else ever happened. He continued hurting her even more. His mother would begg him to give Belinda a second chance but he never listened, he had forgotten her and never missed her any more but when he felt like doing sexual intercourse, he would call her as if he want to fix their relationship while he only intended to sleep with her, he knew that she didn't have a gut to refuse when he tald her to come over because she still loved him,he didn't care about how she felt about that, in the morning he would tell her to go. He had now slept with many girls who knew she was inlove with him, he did that to make her feel more pain. She always cried her self to sleep and even prayed to God to help her win him back but he only used her for his own sexual needs. Sometimes he would beat her so badly, so that his friends would be entertained, he didn't care about the bruises he left to her, he broke her heart into tiny pieces that she had no way to fix it, she was a laughing stock, even his friends laughed when they saw her, she would cry all the way back to her home, even though he did all that, she still loved him. One day Asher called her and her sisters to come and have fun with them in his house, there were many people and alcohol was there, it was like some kind of a party. That day, Asher beated Belinda from night until the morning, Belinda didn't knew why he was beating her in such way, when his friends tried to stop him, he would do it even more. Everyone was feeling sorry for her, she cried until she lost her voice, she was in so much pain while Asher was proud for what he did because he had entertained a lot of people. In the morning, he tald her to clean the house and left, he didn't care how bad and scary her face was, he didn't care about what she was going to eat as he left her all alone in the house. She cleaned the house crying and went to spend time with his mother, she showed her the bruises he had layed on her face and she was afraid to go to her home because her parents would be angry at her, it been a long time they tald her lo leave him but she never did because she loved him as much as she loved her self. She decided to stay for another day at Asher's home. In the afternoon, his girlfriend called 'Betty' came to visit him. She lived at Newcastle and she was carrying a big bag as if she was going to stay for the whole year. Asher's mother saw her as she was entering Asher's house door,she then tald Belinda to go and call her. Belinda went to call her but she was afraid to go there. Belinda asked her name and she tald her,then Belinda tald her she's Asher's sister and tald her that there's no need for her to stay alone. She convinced her to come with her because Asher had gone somewhere, Betty then agreed and they went to Asher's home.