Chapter 37

Brielle's POV

I couldn't sleep after Blake left. I kept thinking about him. He has started to have such an effect on me and my life. I think about him a lot. More than I would like to. I worry about him when I don't see him and I get anxious as well. I no longer just worry about myself and my studies. I never thought there would come a day that I would truly like a boy like this. After my parent's failed marriage, I didn't want to think much of love, but this time it felt different. All I want to do is to give myself to him completely and forget about everything else.

I want to accept him as my mate. I don't know if I am just being hasty, but I feel that I can't stay away from him. I want to be with him at all times. Maybe he was right. The pull of mates is so strong, and I can only resist it for so long before I lose my mind.

So much has happened and I have yet to tell my mother. I have only told Anthony. Knowing my mother, she would be as excited as my grandmother. I know that she has been blaming herself for how I am. I am antisocial and do not want to form relationships with the people around me. It was a defense mechanism I was using because I didn't want to give anyone the power to hurt me.

Love comes with pain. Perhaps worse than that. I guess it depends on whether the love is worth it. I can't say that I am ready to give in to him. A part of me is afraid. Giving in to this love is like jumping from the plane with a parachute. Your life depends on the parachute opening, but if it doesn't, you come crashing down. I don't want to bet my life on love. It would be stupid. But I do want to give whatever is between Blake and me a chance. I'm already in too deep to turn back. I feel that I would deeply regret it if I denied us this chance.

It won't be easy since we are different. I still have not wrapped my head around him, being a werewolf and all. It's a lot of pressure for sure. I can't even fit in with my own kind, so how will I be able to survive among wolves? It will be like walking into the lion's den like a little meek prey waiting to be devoured.

That is scary. Surely, I won't be the only fully human person. It wouldn't be abnormal for me to have a relationship with a werewolf. Bella loved Edward as a vampire and she managed. She even got turned, which I am certain won't happen to me. I should ask Blake about it before anything happens between us. I don't want to be surprised. I want to know what I will be getting myself into and be prepared for anything.

I yawned while thinking about everything. I was feeling sleepy. I turned on my side and hugged my pillow, imagining it to be Blake, and went to sleep.

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Blake's POV

I was so exhausted when I got back to the packhouse. I went inside planning to just go to my room and sleep, but to my surprise, my mother was awake and watching TV in the living room eating ice cream. What got me was the sound of her laughter. I followed it and I found her alone just sitting there and having a good time. I smiled, watching her.

" Stop staring at me," she said, without even glancing at me. I went and sat next to her on the couch.

" What are you doing up this late? Shouldn't you be in bed?"

She looked at me with an arched brow.

" Really now? You must have grown up a lot. I used to tell you to go to bed, and now you are doing the same thing."

I chuckled.

" No, I didn't mean in that way, Mom. It's just unusual to see you up this late," I clarified.

" Is there anything wrong or can't you sleep?" I asked.

" No. I was waiting for you to come back. It's been a while since I have seen my son. These days you always go out for the whole day and I never get to see you." She sulked, moving closer to me and laid her head on my shoulder.

I wrapped my arm and her petite frame and squeezed her to my side.

" Sorry, Mom. I know you have been up and down, and I didn't get to see you. But I promise, it will all be worth it in the end."

She moved to look up at me and said," Really?"

I smiled. " Of course. My relationship with my mate is improving well. She might accept our bond sooner than later," I admitted, feeling happy.

" Oh, I'm so happy for you Blake!" She exclaimed and pulled my cheeks as if I was a baby.

" Ouch, Mom!" I complied and tried to soothe my pain. My cheeks are no longer as soft as they used to be.

" Sorry," she grimaced

" But forget about that. Tell me about my daughter-in-law."

It's a good thing that my mother is such a sweet woman. She has no prejudice against my human mate, so I know she will get along well with her. And that puts me at ease because I know that Brielle will have a hard time adjusting to the new life she will be introduced to. Everything will be new to her, and she will struggle, but I am sure my mother will help her with everything she needs from a woman's perspective. I will help her as my Luna. I can't wait for her to move in with me and start helping me lead the pack.

I started telling my mother about Brielle and her family. I told her that I even won brownie points with her folks. As I told my mother about my mate, I got the chance to make up for lost time and bond with my mom. We spent almost all night watching movies. Mom fell asleep on my shoulder. I made no attempt to move. It was a surprise my father didn't come looking for her. I couldn't keep my eyes open for long, so I ended up falling asleep on the couch.