Chapter 54

Blake's POV

" Blake!"

A distant disembodied voice called out my name.

" Blake, open your eyes!"

I wanted to open my eyes, but I couldn't. I didn't have the strength. I felt like something heavy was on my chest that was just pining me down. It was so painful. Everything that happened came flooding into my mind. I lost and all I had was a hole in my chest. Empty was all I felt.

I wished I could just die at that moment. It was selfish, I know, but the pain was too much. I couldn't stand it. I never thought this day would ever come. I mean, I know that we were supposed to die someday are not like this. What they did to her was very cruel.

She was in pain. I couldn't even say goodbye to her, and now I will never see her again. Mia...

I felt hot tears stream down my cheeks as I cried for my sister. I was angry. This was all I could do now. Things drastically changed. When we were young, we were inseparable. I always protected her, no matter what. I made sure that she never even got a scrape. She relied on me and trusted me as her brother, but I guess something is just inevitable. We grew up, and we couldn't hold on to those moments forever. We had to change.

I will always regret that she and I drifted away, and I didn't get to know how she really felt. With that, I went unconscious again. And the voices calling out to me sounded more distant.

It was a while before I opened my eyes. My kids felt heavy, and my whole body was sore. Once I could see, I looked around and saw the familiar interior of my room. I groaned in pain and tried to sit up. And then like a ton of bricks it hit me. I forgot all about my pain and jumped off the bed. I ran barefoot all the way to the clinic. My body felt heavy but with all my might, I pushed myself to get there.

I ran into the clinic and collided with one of the nurses who helped me when I was about to fall from weakness. I was breathing heavily, and my heart was beating erratically. All I could think about was Mia. I need to see her before she leaves... for good.

"Alpha! Calm down. Where are you going?" the nurse asked. All I could say was," Mia", as I heaved for breath.

The nurse tensed up, and she gave me a sympathetic look. Without a word more, she assisted me to get to the morgue. Apparently, it's been 2 days since I passed out, and she had already moved. I stepped inside the cold chilling room by myself. There she was, lying on the table covered in a white sheet. Her face was pale and gray with purplish bruises that never healed. Tears brimmed my eyes as I walked over to the table where she lay. She was barely recognizable.

I stood over her, and it felt like I was in a dream. This couldn't be real. I refused to believe it was. My sister is dead. I swallowed the lump in my throat, but the tears fell on their own. I lost all resolve and a sob broke out. I fell to my knees and cried like a baby.

I could never say how sorry I was. I was a bad brother to her and I allowed this to happen. I don't know how long I was on the floor crying. I got up and wiped my tears.

I looked at her for the last time. I had nothing to say. I couldn't even say anything to her. I didn't want to. Words can not fix anything. It was the only way I could ever atone for this. The only way would be to find those who did this to her and make sure they pay for everything. Only when I can achieve vengeance, will I be able to show face to her and properly ask for forgiveness. I leaned down and gave her a kiss on the forehead. Her skin was cold, reminding me that she was truly no more.

After visiting her, I made my way back to the house. I found my parents already waiting for me looking worried. The looks on their faces told me that they knew where I was. My mom ran over to me and pulled me into her embrace. I melted her touch. Having her hold me was comforting.

" Oh, my poor baby!" she says, pulling me closer. I could help, but I just started crying in her arms. She rubbed my back and let me cry.

" Mom, I am sorry. I'm so sorry. Sorry," I kept apologizing and she shushed.

" It's not your fault, Blake. Don't blame yourself, my boy. Please." Hearing her say that just made me cry harder. She shouldn't go so easy on me. Everyone should hate and blame me for Mia's death. They should. I deserve it.

My father joined us and enveloped both my mom and I in his arms. We had a moment and I finally managed to calm down.

" Uh, Blake. There is someone here to see you. She's been here since yesterday," mom said as she was taking me to my room. We stopped in our tracks as I looked at her in question and confusion.

" Don't worry. She is in your room. You will be glad to see her."

At that time, Brielle's face came to mind. I looked at mom for confirmation, and she just gave me a small smile knowingly.

" Go ahead Blake. I will bring breakfast for you soon." With that she gave me a small squeeze and turned back, disappearing down the hallway. I continued towards my room with a little anticipation. My mate is just what I need at this moment. She can offer me some kind of relief as I go through this ordeal.

I opened the door to my room and there she was by the window. She was probably lost in thought, and she didn't hear me come in. I walked to her and, without thinking, I put my arms around her waist and laid my head on her shoulder from behind. She tensed up, startled, but she relaxed when she realized that it was me.

" B-Blake.. You are here?"

I didn't say anything. I snuggled closer to her, taking in all her scent. It helped calm down a lot. I was finally feeling stable.

" Thank you for coming, Brie," I whispered to her without letting go of her. She made no move to push me away and let me be.

" I had to come, so don't thank me. I want to be here for you."

After a while, I let her go. She turned to face me and I could see her beautiful face. I suddenly felt insecure. I am probably a mess right now. I evaded my eyes from her, but she grabbed my face as if she read my mind and gave me a quick kiss on the lips. I was the one caught off guard by her boldness. I was not complaining though.

" I missed you so much. You gave us a scare. I thought you wouldn't wake up." Her expression changed and she looked so sad.

I hugged her in reassurance.

" I woke up right away. I will never leave you. I won't ever do that."

I can never die. I have a lot to do. For Brielle, my family and Mia, I'll live.