Chapter 69

Rea's POV

I had no other choice. From the moment I decided to take this step, I knew that I wouldn't be able to go at it without a plan. I know that Blake hates me with all his guts right now. No matter what I say, he will refuse to listen to me, so there is only one way I can get him to listen to me. By force if need be. He just has to hear me out. The only way was for me to take her with me.

I hate her too, but I need her at the moment. When I have her with me, Blake will have no choice other than to listen to me. He has to. She sat quietly as I drove to the pack house. I was scared out of my mind and every fiber in my body was telling me to make a run for it and forget all about this, but how long can I run? The guilt I bare shall always be with me wherever I go. How do I run from that? That leaves us with one choice. Atonement. I cannot change things, but I can try to make things right however I can. I should. I owe it to Mia and Blake.

The ride to the pack house was full of silence. She was unexpectedly quiet, perhaps lost in her little world. I was grateful for that because I was worried that I would have to manhandle her and things could further get complicated.

" Where are you taking me? You can atleast tell me that since you already dragged me along."

Just when I thought she would stay quiet, there age goes opening her mouth. I had a feeling if I ignored her she wouldn't shut up and would annoy me.

" We are going to meet your boyfriend. I have something to say to him," I told her truthfully.

" What? Are you going to see Blake? Then why the hell are you taking me with you?"

I sighed, feeling frustrated. She is irritating me, and it's getting to me, but I have to restrain myself from doing anything stupid. I can't mess up my one chance at redemption. Not because of her. She is not worth it.

" I don't need to tell you anything. If I remember correctly, I told you to shut up. Just do that and everything will be fine."

I can't admit to her that I am afraid that Blake will do something to me. I use her as my shield. Thank God she kept quiet and didn't ask any more questions.

We arrived at the pack. My heart was beating very rapidly. I was nervous, but I couldn't pull back now.

I went over to Brielle's side and walked closely to her, making sure she didn't make a stupid move. Blake must have sensed us because before we got to the front door, he ran outside. He looked at me and at Brielle. His expression changed to anger in a second directed at me. Yeah, I know I deserve that look. It just makes me sad that those eyes once looked at me with love and adoration now look at me with only hatred. I suppose I brought that on myself. I can't bare to see him look at me with such contempt.

" What the fuck is this Rea? Why do you have Brielle with you?" he asked, while his eyes shifted to Brielle. They softened with concern. I was jealous. I clenched my hand, my nails digging into my palm. Do I have to see this? Then being affectionate towards each other sickens me.

Blake, we need to talk." His focus came back to me.

" Now you finally show yourself after disappearing for months. You did not even come when it mattered most."

I could see the pain in his eyes as he said that.

" Let Brielle go first. There was no need to bring her here. Whatever you want to say, I would hear you out first. I'm curious about a lot of things and I have waited long enough for you to show your face to me."

His voice was so cold and harsh. I felt it cut through my skin like a knife.

I pushed Brielle forward, letting her go. She ran into Blake's arms, who readily embraced her. There was no use for her. With or without her, he could kill me in a second. Still, there is hope in me that he'll refrain himself in front of Brielle at least.

" I guess you are right. There is something I want to say, but I can't talk out here. Can we go somewhere... just the two of us."

He kissed Brielle on the lips in front of me. That was a petty move. I bet he was trying to reassure her that nothing would come between us.

" Go inside Brie. Wait for me in my room. I'll be there in a while."

She nodded her head and went inside leaving Blake and I alone. We stood across each other and just stared at one another. I was afraid when I ran away but I forgot that Blake is not an irrational person. He doesn't just act on impulse. By now, all his anger would have subsided a little bit but still he won't hurt me as I thought he would.

" It's been a while. I-I,"

I wanted to tell him that I missed him but those words would leave my mouth.

" How are you doing?"

" I hope yoy sirnt come here for small talk. I don't want to discuss anything other than the reason you are here. Follow me."

With that he walked away. Every word he says to me is like a dagger to my heart. I wish I could turn back time so that at least I could undo my actions that brought about the rift between. I should have settled to being friend. That way I would have him, one way or another. I guess it's really too late now. Nothing will ever bring us together now. Especially now that Mia is no longer with us.

We walked to the garden. Blake stood a few feet away, with his back facing me. The was a bit of a chill in the air but certainly it couldn't be more colder than him. How do I begin to talk to him? Can I do this? As I thought that, he turned to face me with no expression at all.

" Talk," he commanded in his Alpha tone making me flinch. He is still my Alpha after all.

" I am sorry," I let out

" I am really am." I felt tears brimm my eyes with overwhelming emotion.

" Sorry? Why are you apologizing?" his voice was calm but demanding.

I bit my lip wondering how to tell him that I was a coward. How was I to tell him that it's all my fault that his sister has died. How? I just wanted to disappear at this moment.

" Why are you sorry Rea. Speak up!"

I fell on my knees and start sobbing. The events of that night came back to me like a flood. I suddenly found d myself suffocating, unable to breathe. I gaspec for air but no matter what I did, it just felt like my airways were getting smaller.

" Rea, breathe. Calm down and breathe," I heard Blake's coercing voice as he knelt before me and tried to help me.

In a long time, I felt his gentle touch and smelled his intoxicating soothing scent that helped me to get a grip and calm down. He was so close to me. I wanted this moment to freeze and stay like this. I settled down and once my episode was over, Blake removed himself from me as if I burnt him or something.

" You shouldn't have come here if you were not ready to talk. You are just waisting my time. Honestly, it's taking a lot for me to face you after everything you done and the patience I had is wearing thin. Just leave. Only come back when you have something important you want to tell me."

He turned about to walk off.

" I was there!"

He stopped in his tracks.

" That night. The night Mia was.. that night she was taken I was there."

I finally said it. Now there is rely no going back.