Chapter 14: Agency

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I kept scrolling through the tacky interface of the forum.

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There was even a mention of me from the news report.

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They thought it was so in character for 'Yeon-gyeong', although she would probably have thrown hands.

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Some people are even interested on setting up a fancafe.

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It gave me a weird feeling.

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I was happy, but somewhere deep down I still didn't feel good about it.

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I knew I had made the decision.

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I planned to stop acting.

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But now...

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Why do I feel hesitatant?

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Maybe I would have been able to be happy if I could separate it cleanly, but I just couldn't.

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I knew it was a difficult parting, but it is necessary to do so.

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I knew it was going to be a dead end, what type of idiot would still go on?

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I guess it is never going to be easy.

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It was something I had been doing for 12 years after all.

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It's half of my life. It wasn't going to be easy.

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The thing that is even more difficult would be succeeding as an actress.

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Even if you have good looks and good skills, good promotions are also necessary. Even if you are promoted well, there is still a chance that people just don't like you for some reason.

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Honestly having a stable career is already good enough of an ending for most. Many people couldn't even achieve that, myself included.

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As someone with just average looks, slightly above average acting, and no agency. It's difficult, beyond difficult in fact. You need to work really hard and basically have godsent luck.

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In this case it's just better and easier for me to let acting go.

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We've hit the 90th episode mark, and by now 40% in highest point ratings are almost always guaranteed. It was so much better than back then, when we usually get around 30%.

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Maybe in a few episodes we will hit the ceiling.

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It'll be a glorious crash.

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Although we just resolved argument between Yeon-woo and Yeon-gyeong about Yeon-gyeong's studies, there is now a new problem in the form of Sang-woo's family.

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Like every soap opera from this era, Yeon-woo and Sang-woo's relationship is opposed by Sang-woo's family.

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There is all that cliché 'leave my son talk' going on.

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At this point whenever we see Yeon-woo she is crying.

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I read some jokes from the audience that they are no longer WooWoo couple, but ㅠㅠ couple*.

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Sang-woo's family is rich and they are determined to ruin Yeon-woo.

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They cut her off from her job, made her a blacklisted, and more messed up things.

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Honestly I would never watch the drama by the writer again if I were the audience.

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Meanwhile, Yeon-gyeong and Ki-beom would go through some emotional development.

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Ugh...

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I heard Writer Kim had some plans to include a confession scene if the audience reaction is good. If it isn't, we would just tie things off somehow.

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I hope things don't go well.

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I feel like I've been swept by the current these days.

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I was taking a nice jog in the morning for the first time in forever due to my packed schedule and I kid you not, everyone on the street knows Yeon-gyeong.

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Maybe there is still a lot of people who didn't recognize me, but this is a height I have never reached. Even my 'magnum opus' only brought me fame to a niche audience.

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Many people asked me for autograph and pictures. It is a great feeling.

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I went back home with high spirits.

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"Eomma! I'm back!"

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"Oh, you're here. I just got a call from an agency. They are interested in recruiting you as one of their actors."

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"Really?"

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"Yes! I think they're called Agency N."

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My mood dampened immediately.

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That place again?

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In my previous life, I signed a 5 year contract for that company.

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They are just downright horrid with their work with me. I didn't get any good projects and ended up just waiting for the end of the contract.

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To be fair, my experience there is probably better than some other people who actually achieved popularity.

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But that doesn't make it good.

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How to put this? Let's just say that many unspoken things happened there and I was fortunate that I was born with an ordinary face and an even more ordinary body.

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I acted like I was crazy, like I wasn't afraid of dragging them down the mud with me, that was how I survived that place.

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There is no point going through that again, ever again.

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"Mom, let's reject it."

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"Why though?we haven't even met them."

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"You know, I have been thinking for a while...I'm planning to quit acting."