At least he is alive and can continue

After a while, it started to rain slowly. The raindrops were absorbed as soon as they touched my skin, it was pushing my hunger limits too much and the worst part was the fucking inner monologues.

A childhood trauma definitely can't make a person hungry. This was ridiculous, fuck, I could even gnaw on a tree right now. Actually...

I just don't want to die, fuck, okay, that's what I mean, every person wants to survive, what do you mean I'm not even 20 yet and I'm definitely not going to die in a shitty world in a shitty way.

The rain slowly took away my remaining feelings.

I was thirsty, I opened my mouth while it was raining for a while and slowly sucked the drops of water that fell on my tongue. Although this didn't satisfy me much, it really felt good, when was the last time I drank water anyway?

I slowly tried to stand up with the light strength that the water gave me. My clothes were covered in mud and the softness of the mud prevented me from getting up.

As I was trying to get up, the rabbit slowly got scared and moved towards the edge of the tall tree in front of me.

Yes, the real problem was how to kill the rabbit because I could neither cut down the tree nor did I have any weapons, I would either punch it (which I do not prefer, even though I accept my fate, I wanted to finish the animal off quickly.)

When I looked around, I saw that ... There was not even a piece of stone in the huge forest that I was fucking.

Okay, there was nothing to do. I slowly applied the breathing technique my psychologist taught me and calmed my pulse a little. Then I slowly walked towards the rabbit, the rabbit was slightly scared at first, but after noticing this, I leaned forward and extended my hand as if I were petting a cat, as if I was saying to the animal 'I will not harm you, my friend.'

The rabbit slowly approached me, I approached it, and finally we were about an arm's length away. The rabbit slowly tried to put its head under my hand.

I felt it was time at that moment, if I didn't catch the rabbit now, it would definitely run away. After a second of hesitation, I grabbed its throat the moment the rabbit's fur touched my hand. The rabbit was kicking around like crazy, even a few kicks had cut my arm.

With the adrenaline secreted by hunger, I was squeezing its throat tighter and tighter with each passing second. This struggle continued for a while and the rabbit's movements slowly slowed down. After a while, it just twitched and stopped.

But with the adrenaline of the moment, I continued to squeezing its throat for about 3-4 minutes. Then I immediately threw the rabbit to the ground.

and dug my now long nails into its belly. It was like trying to cut something with a rusty machete. I kept cutting its skin in several layers and when I finally reached the last layer, I made a small deep cut.

Using the fingers of my right and left hands, I slowly opened the space in the animal's belly, the organs felt sticky in my hand. With a single move, I ripped out its intestines and stomach. The path to its anus was now empty and there was space left for me to gnaw on its flesh. Just as I was throwing its stomach aside, its acid touched my hand and burned it. Without screaming, I immediately put my hand into the puddle formed by the rain. My hand was a little yellow, but I didn't care. All I cared about now was eating the rabbit.

I twisted the rabbit's head left and right and tore it off and took one of the legs of its remaining body.

I started eating slowly. Without realizing it, I had started to cry uncontrollably and this was making me tired, I no longer had the energy or willpower to hesitate about anything. My primitive reflexes didn't even allow me to vomit anyway, I continued to slowly eat the rabbit's raw meat while crying.

When my stomach was full enough, my vision slowly went black and I fainted.

I was slowly starting to wake up and the rain was still falling. I felt like they were constantly hitting my eyelids and although I slowly came to, I didn't want to open my eyes and look at the view in front of me. It felt like a very heavy burden was on me. I didn't know how much I had cried before I fainted but my eyes were really dry. The rain was filling the dryness in my eyes by entering through my eyelids.

I had a melancholy. And it felt like nothing would ever be the same. It wasn't a rabbit dying or anything, I wasn't even a vegetarian anyway. It was savagery, it was an instinct deep inside me, this instinct was so terrifying that everything seemed normal to it, but I was becoming incredibly savage.

If I had done this to a human, then I would have received the real blow because killing a human was like breaking a taboo for the people living in the world, it had been frowned upon since Adam and Eve. But I definitely had to continue moving forward, no matter how hard these conditions forced me, I had to at least die.

My goal was definitely not to be the strongest or to establish the most beautiful harem under the almighty god. I just wanted to live, to live and see the future with infinite possibilities. That was my only goal.

Actually, I had such thoughts even in the world, it was like checking the possibility of the science fiction movie you watched, you always wanted to wait and see, I wonder if there will be flying cars in the future or androids. These thoughts constantly preoccupied people's minds.

In short, I definitely would not give up in a place like this.

I slowly opened my eyes, slowly lifted my head from the puddle and yes, this puddle was the puddle I used to neutralize stomach acid. I was lucky that I had not thrown my stomach into the water.

There was a rabbit corpse right 1 meter away from my head. I tried to stand up slowly to look around and examined my arms at that moment. In fact, there was blood and it had been slowly cleaned off due to the rain, but there were still pieces of flesh between my nails and they were now black. I wasn't very knowledgeable, but this definitely indicated that it was starting to rot.

I didn't know how long I slept, I didn't know anything about it, but I didn't care.

When I examined the surroundings, everywhere was the same, the woods and there was a dismembered rabbit corpse right across from me.

When I looked at the rabbit more closely, I realized that its fur didn't actually look like normal fur. It looked like ceramic, but interestingly, ceramic should be hard, but this was actually extremely dry.

Thinking that I would need it in the future, I slowly collected the rabbit's fur and put it inside a leaf I took from the trees. I tied the leaf around my waist by tying a knot in the veins of the leaf.

The rabbit corpse was starting to smell, so I decided to leave. The direction I came from hadn't been completely hidden by the rain yet.

I continued my steady progress through the forest in the opposite direction from where I had come.