SIX

As an only child, it wasn't easy juggling school, relationship and personal life..coming back home in one piece is something I never take for granted. I hear stories where thugs would rape girls, steal phones in broad daylight, even 'one chnace'(where you get in the wrong cab and you find yourself in another state where you'll be sold or killed). I have never experienced any of that during my time in school. God is Good indeed...not that He isn't good to the others it has happened to but still...I don't know...He's just merciful cause I'm a sinner. But he loves me...so much. Even when I don't love myself. He's my everything.

Eight months gone and Daniel and I were still strong...little petty fights here but he never lets that day pass to makeup with me. We also haven't done it for eight months, but we talked a lot about it and how I would like it to go. Nothing too loud but I wanted music, dim lights,alcohol, food oh..and in a hotel cause i would need the sleep a lot.He accepted but I had to travel to meet him, he wanted to come over if I wasn't ready to travel but I declined..i needed the adventure anyways. I was nineteen. I have never travelled to anywhere in my entire life. Was I scared? As fuck! But I've been living this really boring routine life and I just decided to take the risk..You only live and die once. We agreed to meet on the fourteenth of February(Valentine's day)...everything was ready. I got new shoes and clothes...hair...yeah..I'm that specific. I wanted to look and feel brand new!

Few days before I was supposed to travel, the dean of my school announced a really important project that must take place on the fourteenth of February. I was devastated. It was like...why that day of all days?!! I told Daniel and he got mad...but I had to focus on school first. He didn't talk to me for a day, I sent so many apology messages but he didn't reply any. The next day I woke up to his many messages,he was finally cool with it. We rescheduled it to the Nineteenth of February.

A day before the Nineteenth, he told me he had an exam to write and he was gonna be in school all day. He wasn't supposed to have anything that day but the school changed it...I got mad too. I didn't talk to him. Well..I wasn't really mad..just faked it cause he got mad at me before. He begged so much and I was finally cool with it..the next day.

That month passed and we were finally free March. I went to his state on the first of March. I prayed and anointed my head before leaving. I told my parents I had something to do in school and won't be coming home, they were hesitant especially my Dad but he agreed. The journey was long...but I didn't sleep..I couldn't evenif I wanted to. Everyone else was asleep but my body couldn't fall asleep. Finally, I got to his state and had to wait for him..I don't know where I am so I couldn't tell..I don't want to talk to any creep. So I met a woman selling alcohol in satchet and asked to sit and not stand out as a newbie to avoid getting mugged. I waited for a pretty long time and when he finally saw me, I was standing opposite a catholic church and was so pressed. I needed to pee asap. He explained why he took time but I didn't care or mind..I was just glad he came cause where I was sitting was really uncomfortable and the lady was making weird faces like she didn't want me there.

We got home, kept my bag in his wardrobe, then he started unbuttoning my shirt..I didn't say anything..he have me his shirt to wear, which I did then hen washed my shirt. It was a chiffon shirt so it would dry fast cause we still had to go out on our first official date. I came out from the bathroom after peeing, I saw three guys...I recognised one..his older brother who knew I was coming and the other two..I don't know. He came back inside and introduced us..I couldn't stop smiling and one of the guy found it cute. They were his brother's friends. Apparently Daniel had told them about me even before I came over. We decided to stay in his house instead of a hotel which would cost us more.

We went out to eat...I was nervous..no idea why but I was him and that was all that mattered. After eating, we start to head home and he branched to a pharmacy to get something which he didn't tell me till we got home. His brother and friends already left. We were alone. And that's when I realised...its time.

To say I was scared was an understatement..I was shaking but he didn't notice. We laid on the bed..music playing..I had his shirt on. He was just operating his phone and I looked at him, he seemed to be really busy and i was so relieved that I turned over to sleep. He noticed I wasn't moving, he increased the volume of the music, turned on the torch..you know..making the room dim. He kept his phone and I just felt it was now or never. We started kissing...Godd he such an amazing kisser! He took off his shorts...took off my shirt...then came on top of me..about to put his dick in and I froze. I stopped him and I was shaking...he was like..."chill...I'm not going to hurt you". Yeah I knew that..but the Pain!! I'm the one feeling it! All he has to do is just stick it in!! I couldn't do it. And I told him. We tried at least three times and I just couldn't. He got mad asf and left me to the bathroom to cool off probably. I was sure I was single that day.

He came back and asked if I would take alcohol. He just remembered our conversation about the day we'd do it. Wait, you had alcohol??!! Boy! I gladly accepted...and..he brought "Magic Moment" I have never taken alcohol in my life so he gave me and went back to the bathroom to pee this time. He left me alone with the drink and- well...I drank like I was drinking water. I didn't know you had to sip it..I just...didn't stop till he came out of the bathroom and took the bottle in shock. It was almost empty. I told him I wasn't feeling it yet but my eyes were closed...he yelled a little at me and I laughed. Everything suddenly started spinning and getting dark...he came back to bed and carried me on his laps...I still told him I wasn't feeling anything and that I would want more. He refused saying my eyes were closing...he asked me how many fingers he had up and I told him 4! He removed one immediately thinking I didn't notice but I did and told him...I knew I was high but I'm not stupid high.

I laughed so much at nothing and he could only shut me up when he kissed me...everything feels so good when you're high I'll tell ya. But I took charge in the kiss..didn't even realise I was naked. I have never been naked with him before...he hasn't seen me naked either. He applied lubricant on his dick(that was what he went to the pharmacy to get). He turned me over and he was on top..took him two seconds to enter..I didn't even have the chance to stop him. It was painful but for like a second, just a sting. And then it felt....Amazing!!! He wasn't too hard..he was good. I cried..but not for pain..I just realised I wasn't a virgin anymore and I'm gonna miss being one.

I was Nineteen and he was eighteen...the sex was good...the lube and alcohol helped. At one point I rode him..how??? I surprised myself...its all a blur right now but we did go three times before calling it. I was so hungover in the morning I couldn't get up. His brother and friends came back noticed I folded like a foetus..he told them I drank too much...I ate groundnut..I threw up..I ate raw garri(cassava), I threw up again.. I threw up like five times before getting myself and promising myself I'd never take alcohol again. I felt like dying and I was going to leave that day! My parents would kill me if I didn't come home. But all glory to God..I was okay before twelve PM. We bathe together..wasn't weird anymore but I was still shy. He gave me a nude color teddy bear..I wasn't expecting it and I was so happy. I said my goodbyes to his brother and friends, he escorted me to the park that'll take me back to my state. I got home safely.

Second of March...I didn't feel any different..I just finally knew what sex felt like. I guessed it'll not be that fun if I'm sober. But I'm in love with Daniel and I don't mind going through a little pain.