15. Old life

A few students turned around to us, they gave us odd looks but did not continue to gossip.

If another student had turned into an Omega, it would be taken that this person was nonexistent. But Leon seemed to have been really popular.

I remember him coming and fighting in the arena, never killing but injuring other students with ease. 

The school year had started not long ago, and during the vacations there were naturally no fights here. In these two months, the school year that Leon was in had differentiated, and before they could even fight again, they were tested.

The tension had been held up, nobody could see during Arena fights if someone started to get weaker or stronger or anything.

In the dark net, they had discussed if being an Omega was preset since birth, or if it happened randomly. The result was that nobody knew. Maybe this was part of what was taught in the last year of school, but how should we know?

"You are spellbound, watching them, why is that?" Leon asked me, while he motioned with his head to the two Alphas that fought in their wolf form.

"Y-you f-feel nothing i-if you s-see t-them?" I asked back.

"Anger, disgust, greed for power, jealousy." He said slowly, not looking away from me.

"M-m-maybe be-because you a-are just f-freshly d-d-differ-differentiated." I fought hard to get that out.

"What are you feeling?" He stubbornly wanted an answer, as it seemed.

"E-e-excitement, a-and l-l-longing." I grimaced, also not wanting to feel that way.

He leaned to me,

"Have you felt that about other men before?"

I shook my head.

"O-o-only with A-a-alphas in their w-wolf f-form. I d-don't like i-it as w-well."

Leon watched with me the match for some time, before he spoke again.

"I hate these damn bodies that give a fuck about their owners' wishes."

I laughed,

"Y-y-yeah." 

"I thought I would become an Alpha. I was so sure...." He mumbled.

"Mhm. M-me too." I said, sighing.

"Isn't there a way, any way, to change? At least some low-ranked werewolf, even being a beta, would be better than this." He again leaned to me, this time whispering in my ear.

"N-no. It's d-definite." I hurt us both with this answer, but it was as it was. 

"Indeed...."

"I have to go back, see you later." Leon patted my shoulder and walked back to his classroom, while I continued to watch and wipe.

When lunch break came, I walked from the arena to the janitor room through the outside around the school because there were still students that left the arena, even after I had cleaned up, through the exit that led through the school, and I didn't want to go with them. At the same time, I wanted to hurry and eat, the soup I had eaten had not really done anything to keep me going. As I passed a few bushes and a few benches, I came across a curious scene.

I saw a red-haired girl that threw herself at Leon, kissing him hungrily while he grabbed her shoulders. It seemed he was more trying to keep her away, but ended up kissing her anyway.

Ah....youth. Well, he should enjoy it as long as it goes.

I sighed....I am really so damn sexually frustrated. Not only because no woman would get it on with an Omega, but also because I hadn't jerked off since forever. Every time I was touching my cock, my ass would get wet, and I found it so disgusting that every possible erection would die down immediately. So, that was my status quo.

Aside from my first heat, where I shoved my fingers down my ass in desperation, I had never tried to let something enter me again, grossed out at the thought alone.

In the dark net, there were a few people offering themselves to sleep with an Omega, but it were mostly men, mostly freaks, and mostly, they wanted to get paid for it.... so yes.

I had not stopped in my steps, trying not to interrupt the pair, as I passed them, as silently as possible, asking myself what undefinable thing would this time wait for me to eat in my janitor-room.

However, Leon snapped his eyes open the next moment and looked at me. I mouthed a 'sorry' before hurrying my steps.

After arriving, I took my tablet with what should be food on it and took a seat on my stool. The first few bites were always meh, but if you can eat trash, you can eat anything. Only, the things I scavenged were a thousand times tastier. I had not even had my second bite when the door opened, and the pup came in, before closing the door in a hurry.

Raising my eyebrows, I silently asked what the matter was.

"Don't misunderstand!" He held my shoulders.

"W-what?" I asked. 

"I just wanted to test something, and after she threw herself at me, I took the opportunity." He seemed out of breath. Maybe from kissing?

I chuckled.

"I a-am not y-your g-girlfriend, wh-what should I m-misunderstand?" 

Leon paused and chimed in with a laugh, sitting down where he sat yesterday.

"I feel like betraying you when interacting with these people. I just wanted to test my body, see how I reacted to her. If I were to react as a man or....as an Omega. And she wanted to apparently continue the relationship, although I told her off."

I nodded,

"A-as long a-as you d-don't sp-speak about my s-secrets, there i-is no b-betrayal." 

The pup sighed in relief.

"Thanks."

"I-It was me w-who t-told you t-to enjoy?" I asked, unsure how he got the idea of me being angry after it had been my advice in the first place.

"Yes. But you have done so much for me, and let me live with you. I don't want you to think that I want my old life back."