I don't want to see you suffer

Cha Xiaoqing closed the suitcase, and then said to me in a comforting tone: "It's not necessarily a bad thing, he took the 30,000 yuan, and he definitely won't call the police." "

 I looked at Cha Xiaoqing and replied after a while: "I can only think so." "

 "30,000 yuan is not a big deal, don't take it to heart... Instead, I should thank you. "

 I didn't say anything, just looked out the window for a while, and it was only at this time that my nervous mood was completely relieved.

 I wanted to light a cigarette, but as I did it, I felt another heart-piercing pain in my arm, and I couldn't help but frown.

 Cha Xiaoqing, who was aware of it, hurriedly pulled my sleeve, only to see a swollen arm and an open wound.

 "Did you fuck that pervert?"

 "Well, I was smashed in the arm, it's fine..."

 "Do you have disinfectant here? I'll clean your wound or you'll get infected. "

 "There's it in the drawer under the TV stand."

 ...

 There was only one light on in the room, and Cha Xiaoqing was wearing my white shirt, just squatting in the dim light, carefully helping me clean my wounds, although I was in pain, but I didn't show it at all.

 I think this scene is familiar, just like two people walking on the edge of the world, comforting each other, licking each other's wounds, this is not called sympathy, but more like a tacit understanding, we need each other, just like people must breathe, and fish can't do without water...

 At least, on such a rainy night, it was.

 ...

 After Cha Xiaoqing took care of the wound, I put on my coat again and said to her, "I'll go live outside, you can rest early." "

 Cha Xiaoqing looked at me, looking like she wanted to say something.

 "Is there anything else?"

 "Can you not go... I'm scared alone, as soon as I close my eyes, my mind is full of that disgusting person! "

 Cha Xiaoqing and I looked at each other, and then realized how much damage this incident had caused to her body and mind; Yes, there is no more terrible encounter for a woman... If it weren't for her own vigilance and self-defense spray, I'm afraid that this night would have become a lingering shadow for her life; And I don't dare to imagine what kind of despair a woman like Cha Xiaoqing would be if she was ruined by such a disgusting man.

 Based on this understanding, I finally nodded to Cha Xiaoqing and said, "Okay, I'm not leaving, I'll sleep on the sofa." "

 "Hmm."

 ...

 Turn off the light, such a small room is quieter than ever, so I can hear Cha Xiaoqing's low sobbing.

 I also feel very uncomfortable. I can imagine what kind of woman she was before the accident; Perhaps, she won't even go to a roadside stall to eat, and will always only wear famous brands and live in the biggest house... But now, she has lost everything she once had, she has suffered enough, and in the end she can only compromise with me, if she is not strong enough, I am afraid that she would have completely collapsed in such a desperate situation.

 I let out a soft breath and said to her softly, "I look at the weather forecast, tomorrow will be good weather... In fact, life is the same as the weather, there will be rainy days, there will be sunny days, as long as you can persevere, you will definitely wait for the sunshine. "

 Cha Xiaoqing choked up and said to me, "But I really can't hold on anymore... I'm afraid to think about it, if I succeed by that pervert, I might as well go to jail, even if I am wronged, I am willing! "

 "I'm to blame for this... Do you know? I really regret letting you go... I've looked for you several times, and I've been to that dock, but I haven't been able to find you..."

 "Did you really go to me?"

 "Really, so, you don't have to be so negative... I've figured it out, since I believe you're innocent, I should help you to the end, I won't let you go again, and I'm willing to suffer all the consequences of this. "

 "It is also a sin to harbor and harbor."

 "If you were innocent, the charge would not be valid against me; If you're cheating on me, I'll admit it too,..." After a slight pause, I said in a low voice: "Anyway, living so unhappily, it doesn't make much difference whether you are free or not. "

 "Aftertaste, I'll never lie to you... I, Cha Xiaoqing, can swear by my life! "

 I smiled and replied, "Don't be so serious, I said I believed you." "

 "I'm afraid you have a burden in your heart."

 "No... Rest early, only by taking care of your spirit first, will you have the strength to do things. "

 "Well, you get some rest early, too."

 ...

 Actually, I can't sleep, I lie on the couch thinking about a lot of messy things, I'm in a bad mood, I've always felt haunted that I was born into such a family, my parents are still like this, how can there be people in this world who are sincere to me?

 Based on this anxiety, it wasn't until the middle of the night that I fell asleep in a daze.

 ...

 I had a dream in which I dreamed of a woman in my arms, and in the darkness, I could even feel her snort.

 I gradually opened my eyes, and there was really a woman sleeping in my arms, and the rain outside had not stopped, and was "ticking" on the window.

 I really don't know when Cha Xiaoqing was lying in my arms, and she was holding it so tightly.

 As if sensing that I was awake, she whispered to me, "I suddenly feel very satisfied... God has given me the greatest misfortune, but it is precisely because of this misfortune that I have been able to meet the greatest luck in my life... Therefore, I am more confident to get through this difficulty, and then hold this luck firmly in my hands for the rest of my life..."

 My heart was pounding.

 "Aftertaste, do you like me?"

 "I ..."

 "You don't have to say anything, I know your mind... In my life, I will never meet a man who can give me a sense of security like you..."

 As she spoke, Cha Xiaoqing hugged me tighter again, and our faces even pressed together, and I touched her lips because of this...

 We kissed together, like a blocked torrent, and suddenly opened the gates.

 At this moment, I wasn't sure if I was really moved, I just instinctively felt the need, an urgent need, and I was just a little bit closer, and I succeeded...

 Cha Xiaoqing gasped in my ear: "Aftertaste... You... Calm down... I'm not clean yet... I'll give it to you... But, not so really... You calm down... A little! "

 I struggled to leave Cha Xiaoqing's body, and then pinched my temples hard to try to calm myself down... A few days ago, I personally took the sanitary napkin left by Qi Fei to her to use, so she wasn't lying to me.

 ...

 I put on my clothes and lit a cigarette; Cha Xiaoqing sat in the other corner of the sofa, and after being silent for a long time, I said to her first, "I'm sorry... I was a little too impulsive just now. "

 "I didn't care."

 The more Cha Xiaoqing said this, the more guilty I felt in my heart, so I took another puff of cigarette.

 "Aftertaste, when this incident is over, we ... Only... Let's socialize..."

 All I felt was a buzz in my head, and then it went blank...

 "Don't you want to? ... Am I thinking a little too much about myself? "

 Under Cha Xiaoqing's panicked gaze, I finally replied: "No, it's that I'm thinking too much... You've seen my dad and know how messy my family is... I feel like a person who doesn't deserve love... I'm not giving up on myself... Because my best friends around me see me like this. "

 As I said this, I unconsciously remembered the way Tang Guo took the wallet from my hand, and I still remember the feeling at that time, as if he had taken one of the three souls and six spirits.

 Cha Xiaoqing leaned on my shoulder again and said softly, "I don't care about what you say, and there's no need to care... Whatever they want, we just give it to them... For me, human affection is the most important thing, so I especially cherish the feeling you give me now... I want to be your woman and live with you, it's not an impulse, that's what I think in my heart. "

 Cha Xiaoqing's words flowed into my heart like a warm stream, and I didn't know what to do.

 "Aftertaste... You know what, I already have news of him... He is now hiding in a village on the outskirts of Fuzhou, and as long as I can find him, this matter will be over for me. "

 "I'll accompany you to him."

 "Are you really willing to accompany me on an adventure?"

 "Hmm... I don't want to see you continue to suffer... I'm going to rent a car tomorrow and we'll set off together in the evening! "