dilemma

In the middle of the night, I sat alone on the sofa, I kept looking at the pair of white leather shoes left by Cha Xiaoqing, and I was lucky: Since she has learned where the man is hiding, will she tell the police this clue? If the police can find this man, she should also be able to clear her name.

 I'm afraid, if the police find this man, this man will instead put all the responsibility on Cha Xiaoqing; Therefore, Cha Xiaoqing must meet this man in person, in order to say something to him in person, and then let him take all the responsibilities he should bear.

 It made sense, but I became more and more desperate... Not to mention that I can't find this man, even if I do, what can I say to him? In this matter, I can't replace Cha Xiaoqing at all.

 I lit another cigarette and forced myself to calm down.

 I couldn't calm down, I just felt like I had to go to Fuzhou, no matter what the outcome was.

 ...

 I didn't prepare anything, so I drove to Fuzhou in the middle of the night, and when I arrived, it was already half past six in the morning...

 Looking at this strange city, I am worse than dead... I don't know where to start, I hate myself very much, as if the purpose of coming here is to make myself feel better, to prove that after Cha Xiaoqing went in, she tried to find that man for her.

 Actually, I didn't have to do it at all... The reason why I did this is probably because I already regarded Cha Xiaoqing as my girlfriend in my heart, and since she is a girlfriend, she should go to the soup.

 ...

 I returned to nothing, and was alone in the house from afternoon to night...

 I even thought about going to the police station again and telling everything I knew, but in the end I couldn't make up my mind, because I didn't know what the situation was at this moment, and I was afraid that I would have the guts to hurt Cha Xiaoqing in the end.

 So, I resented Lao Yu and my mother even more, if they hadn't come out to stir up the situation at a critical time, it would have been a different situation at this moment.

 I'm about to boil myself to death, I haven't slept for 30 hours in a row, I can't sleep, I especially want to call the policeman surnamed Jiang and ask what the situation is now.

 ...

 At half past nine in the evening, I finally called and he asked me, "Is there something wrong?" "

 "Officer Jiang, I've been short of money lately... I just wanted to ask when that bonus will be credited to my account. "

 "I'll call you, but it's not my business, and I don't know."

 "Oh, can you please help me inquire."

 The policeman surnamed Jiang was obviously a little impatient, and he replied: "If you have nothing else, I'll hang up the phone." "

 "Wait... One more thing. "

 "You say ..."

 After a short silence, I finally mustered up the courage to say, "Can I meet Cha Xiaoqing?" "

 "No one is allowed to see the suspect during the investigation and interrogation... It's common sense... Besides, what do you see her doing? "

 "She has a few clothes and a pair of shoes left with me, and I want to send them to her."

 The policeman surnamed Jiang smiled: "Do you think this is a visit?" "

 "But it's not appropriate to stay with me, I really don't dare to throw these things away, they are tens of thousands of brand-name goods..."

 "In this case, you can send these things to the police station tomorrow, and I will arrange them."

 "I'll send it over now, I'll be pretty idle right now."

 "It's too late, there are no receptionists, you better come over tomorrow."

 The policeman surnamed Jiang seemed to be busy, and hung up the phone without waiting for me to speak again... And in my heart, the little hope left was also shattered, I really wanted to meet Cha Xiaoqing, and then ask for the man's information, but it was as difficult as the sky.

 ...

 I haven't slept since Cha Xiaoqing was taken away by the police, and it wasn't until the whole world became quieter because of the arrival of late night that I finally leaned back on the sofa and fell asleep...

 I had a dream, a dream that was real in the dream, but when I woke up, it felt ethereal.

 I dreamed of the woman in the transparent dress again, and this time, she was standing on the beach, and the sea breeze was blowing her long hair, and I was standing on the reef in the distance and staring at her...

 In the golden sunset, she smiled at me, and I was like drinking a cold Coke on a hot summer day, indescribably cool; This is the second time I have dreamed of her, there is no trace of pain in the dream, there is no trace of irritability and triviality, she is like a perfect lover, standing in the most beautiful corner of my life, soothing the pain in my heart with a smile, so that I don't want to wake up.

 In the dream, I knew it was a dream... Because I understand how bad my real life is, and this dream is just a microcosm of my escapism.

 This is the most complete fragment of my dream, and then a lot of people began to appear in a chaotic manner... There are Lao Yu, my mother, and even Yu Lei, Tang Guo, and Da Lao Zhang...

 Each of them inexplicably accuses me, but does not tell me what I have done wrong; So, I woke up in depression.

 I went to the kitchen to get a glass of tap water, and after drinking it, I sat down on the couch and repeated the dazed state, like a machine, waiting for the dawn.

 ...

 It was already two o'clock in the night, and Tang Guo sent me a WeChat message, saying that she couldn't sleep and wanted to chat with me for a while.

 Tang Guo is indeed a woman who can get sensual at night, especially on weekends, she will always message me late at night.

 But this time, I didn't reply.

 "Aftertaste, I know you haven't slept, just talk to me for a while, you're the only person in the world who will chat with me at night."

 "You say that every time."

 "There are some words that I hold in my heart and don't say them, it will be very uncomfortable, have you ever felt like this?"

 "You call this a city house... What you feel bad about may be a joke in the eyes of others. "

 "So, I'm only willing to complain to you, because we are the eldest brother and the second brother, and no one should laugh at anyone."

 I lit a cigarette to make my mind between confused and sober, and then I replied to Tang Guo: "Tell me, what troubles have you encountered again." "

 "Actually, I never wanted to sell cars here in Da Lao Zhang, you see the current top Internet celebrities, just open a live broadcast, you can sell millions of goods, I am really envious... I can't suffocate myself to death because I don't have money... So, I just seriously reflected on myself, why didn't I become popular when I was an Internet celebrity? ..."

 "Have you found the reason?"

 "I just sat across from the mirror and looked at my chest for a long time; It must be because my breasts are not big enough, and when I am on camera, I am not as visually impactful as others... I wondered if I should go for a breast augmentation... Not to mention anything else, when you help merchants sell underwear, the advantages will be highlighted. "

 "Are you going to sell clothes, or are you going to sell meat?"

 "Don't say it so ugly, I just want to make money... I'm going crazy with poverty! "

 I wasn't in the mood to talk to Tang Guo, so I chose not to reply again.

 Tang Guo didn't give up, she turned on the harassment mode, and it didn't take long for her to send me another message, complaining: "Speaking of which, I am living so hard now because of Cha Xiaoqing." "

 "Is there something wrong with your brain circuits? It's her business. "

 "If she hadn't come to our company and sold a used car, I wouldn't have thought about changing it... By the way, you didn't provoke her again, did you? "