FIRST DINNER / ORIENTATION AND A DOSE OF TALKING ABOUT HIS EX(i dont like it).

MIKO

I don't know what makes me watch my angel's face as Rex talks, defaming me in the process.

Well, to be honest, he isn't wrong I am not a saint, and I have been around the block a lot.

It comes with the lifestyle. When people are throwing themselves at you, you find yourself with an endless supply of options. I lose myself in flings and emotionless casual sex because I can and because … I sometimes don't like to be alone at night.

He doesn't seem fazed at all when Rex basically calls me a manwhore which … icks me. Why is he not reacting to that?

Did he expect it?

"so, do you have a girlfriend?" I blurt out before I can even stop myself.

He swivels to look at me, eyes wide, caught off guard by the question. "uh, why are you asking me that?"

"is it too much? I am just curious. Do you have someone waiting for you back home?" why am I doing this?

"It's normal not to want to be asked such questions," Zein comes to his defense, but that makes me smirk a little bit.

"or did I misgender? A boyfriend, then?"

His eyes are now bulging out, and he chokes on his drink. I watch in satisfaction as some drip off his chin before he wipes it off with a napkin. Oh.

"no! I- what?"

"do you have a girlfriend or a boyfriend?" I lean in, biting my lip, a subconscious move.

"no, I don't have either, I am not gay," he looks away from me, putting some distance between us.

I have come to hate that.

What the fuck am I doing?

"he likes to ruffle feathers; don't mind him," Rin speaks up, elbowing me on my ribs.

"what's wrong if I want to know him better?" I sip my drink, feeling a little down. Why am I feeling awful? Doesn't matter if he likes boys or girls, it's none of my business.

"I used to have a girlfriend, but we broke up. She wasn't a fan of long-distance," Jude shrugs.

"recently? Damn. So you are heartbroken right now?" Rex's puppy eyes are wide in surprise.

"It hurt, but it is what it is," Jude shrugs again.

I frown, already knowing his little shrugs mean that he is feeling more than he is admitting. Mmh.

"wow, how long were you two together?" rin asks him, and I sit back, opting to listen. I can't fucking believe he is straight.

Even if he isn't, it wouldn't matter. He is not someone I can touch, let alone fantasize about.

"two years. It was a serious relationship, but we knew it would end someday. We had different paths to follow. I am not hurt so much about it, but I do miss her a lot."

"you are here in this big city now; you can meet a lot of people and make new connections. Don't worry about the past; it doesn't matter," I hook my arm on his.

I don't like hearing him talking about this girlfriend.

"you are an idol now, I am sure she is regretting. Plus, you will get so many girls soon you will forget who she was," Rex giggles, leaning on Zein, who pushes him away.

Or any girl at that.

"i- I don't think that's me," Jude shyly shakes his head.

Thank god.

"so opposite of you," Rin laughs, and I feel like kicking the guy off his seat.

"what does that mean?"

"it means that you two are polar opposites. One is day, and the other is night. One is a manwhore, and the other is a saint. Devil, angel. Straight-"Andre responds, and I have to cut him short.

"I think I get it."

"you- you like boys?" Jude turns those eyes at me. Why does that sound so hot?

"both. I can do both," I respond, looking him in the eye.

"Sometimes at the same time," Rin adds.

"with a twist, or not," Andre pipes in.

Jude and I are looking at each other as our bandmates talk about my sexual encounters so casually and freely. I watch as his cheeks slowly turn red, and his eyes widen before he looks away, taking a drink.

"do you feel uncomfortable hearing this kind of talk?" zein asks him, and that piques my interest.

"no, I have friends from home who are gay too. It's not a problem."

"what about a more spicy talk?"

"uhh, I prefer not to say anything about that," he blushes.

Andre huffs as he picks up his chopsticks. "you will get desensitized. They are all manwhores, let no one fool you that it's only miko.

"In the mornings, a lot of hookups are scrabbling to get out of the door before dawn, and at night, I suggest you invest in a good pair of noise-cancellation headphones. You will need them."

Jude is a mixture of shyness as he blushes, but I see a glint of something. I wonder what that signifies, but I know ... no.

Guess that he may look like an angel, but he would be such a tease and a brat in bed. I wonder how he would look tied up in my bed …

Stop.

He doesn't like boys.

"so you don't share rooms?" he asks as if that's a piece of information that's the most important. But it also makes me lean forward on the table.

"Fortunately, no. We each have our rooms."

"ensuites, thank god for that. I can't imagine having to share a room with any of you slobs," Rex shudders, and Rin rolls his eyes.

"coming from the messiest person, that's rich."

"do you want to go home?" I whisper to him, noticing how he keeps slumping on the booth but has to keep up with the group. He looks exhausted.

"yeah, but the guys are not done I can wait," he shoots me a smile.

"it's time to leave, I am beat," I stand up, winking at him as the guys all collectively agree.

"We are being inconsiderate of you on day one, I am sorry, Jude," Rin apologizes as he pays.

"It's no problem, I am fine."

"as much as we are all this, we are also considerate of each other. Don't feel the need to accommodate any of us if it's at your detriment," Rin slings his arm on his shoulder as we walk out.

"noted."

"I am here for you if you need anything. I mean anything," Rin stops walking, halting Jude in the process.

"There goes Mama Bear," Zein grumbles as he walks past them.

"thank you, I won't forget that," Jude nods, bowing slightly before he is dragged away by Andre.

"Did I do well?" rin asks me once we are alone, heading to the car.

"yeah. It was a good first-day meeting slash orientation," I bump his shoulder.

"look out for him, will you? He is rooming right opposite you."

"how do you know already?"

"What happens without my knowing?"

Duh.

"Finally, I have a floormate. I was starting to feel lonely," I laugh as I start the car.

"I hope he will not ditch you after running into your flings too much."

I shrug as I pull out of the parking lot.

"I am kind of glad he is straight," Rin goes on as he takes his phone out.

"why?"

"Well, I don't know. You?"

"stop."

"Okay."

Sharing a floor just as two… shouldn't excite me. We are not roommates, but it feels like a promise that we will be closer. Is that good or bad?

Jude, what are you doing to me?