Chapter 33 - Mica and Calix 2.0

Calix's POV

*Continuation of Flashback...*

I saw her. Mica, with her classmates. She is Section A.

I want this place on the tree. I can see her but they don't see me. I don't know why I do it. Watching her from afar.

"Today Calix!" David shouted.

He's been looking at me for a while now. I let him down but I don't follow him. I like it here, why does he know?

"Why?!" I answered him irritated.

"You want me to drag you back to the room?!"

That's David. But I kicked the class president. I came down from the tree branch.

"Here it is.. back."

I didn't wait for what he had to say. I quickly walked back to the room.

A frowning Ella greeted me.

"What happened?"

"Nothing!" She answered and crossed her arms.

"Why?! What happened again?"

"It's Yuri... He suddenly scolded me! Then he called me Cow! Do I look like a cow?!" Her grumbling.

As far as I know, Yuri is not referring to the cow animal. It's a Japanese word, I just don't remember the exact meaning of it. Yeah that means Idiot.

"Let her go..." I said and ruffled her hair.

"By the way... Mica is giving it to you." A new letter arrived at the same time.

This is the tenth time. She just keeps giving me love letters. I don't want to admit it but I feel excited and happy every time that I receive her letter.

"Okay thank you..." I said and took the letter.

There was also a time when I avoided Mica. Maybe she and the others will notice that I am entertained by her letters. Not because I'm ashamed but because.... that's it!

"What do you mean by that letter? I thought you didn't want a love letter?" Ella asked.

I looked away. What excuse do I have? Ella might notice.

"W-what.. W-what.."

"Which one?"

"Pampilapil..."

Go home...

I was hiding behind one of the cars. I just watched Mica standing by the gate. I know she's waiting for me.

I just don't understand, why is she with Mykel and Kiko? She just smiles here.

Pissed off!

They may be there for a few minutes. Until it got dark and the two left. There was no one at school but Mica was still there.

Why don't you go home?

She only had a light pole with her. Haaaayyyy... I don't want to come closer but I have to.

"Why are you here?" I opened to her.

She was a little surprised but immediately bowed. "Wh-what is..."

"Come on.." I said while holding her hand.

Her hand is cold. My heart beats faster and I feel like something is in my stomach.

Why do I feel this?

We were silent while walking. I'm still holding her hand.

It's like I can't let go.

Is it normal?

"C-calix..." She broke into silence.

"Hm?"

"What... Maybe you want to eat. At least for a while." She said while pointing to a night market and food court.

The food looks delicious. That's why I don't have any money. Papa hasn't sent me yet.

"Next time..." I answered.

"My treat."

"Don't! That's ugly. It should be a man who treats."

"Man, if you're flirting. Are you flirting?"

I thought for a moment. She has a point there. But it's still embarrassing.

She suddenly pulled me closer to the food court.

"That's okay... Next time, it's you." She said.

Even though it was embarrassing, I agreed. I'm hungry because I also want to be with Mica.

I'll just get it back from her.

Tomorrow...

I was here on the second floor of our building. The lunch break is almost over, she still isn't there. Because we had a conversation that she said she would cook for me.

I don't want to eat in the cafeteria. Because the girls there don't want to stop me. They said they would eat with me. Even if I have a partner, they will still insist.

"A while ago?" It's open to me.

"Not at all..." I answered and smiled at her.

We went straight to the second room at the end. The chairs and tables here are still comfortable.

She prepared the food.

"Eat that..." She said while smiling at me.

I started to eat but Mica just watched.

"Why haven't you eaten yet?" I asked her.

"I'll do it later... That's really for you." She answered.

I don't like this. I'm not used to being watched while eating. I prefer the one with food.

It's obvious that she won't move until I'm done. I put the spoon full of kikan in her mouth.

"Hm?"

"Eat it'.." I ordered her.

She suddenly blushed. Even if you are few and shy. She was forced to swallow the spoon.

I feel strange. I smile for no reason. I can't take my eyes off Mica either.

We've been like this for weeks. I still give her a love letter. Preparing lunch. And until now no one knows it except Ella.

She has confronted me several times about Mica. If I don't intend to take her seriously, I'll stop.

But I can't because I feel..... I already like her.

"Calix..." Mica called me.

We were on the second floor again and eating lunch.

"Hm?"

"W-what... What are we?" She asked me a few questions.

What are we? People of course. I smiled at her and was about to answer but he spoke again.

"I mean... What do you call us? Are we friends or what..." She clarified.

I know what she means. In what we do we are more than friends. But that's all we are and that's all I can give her.

I'm starting to get scared. Afraid that when we start a relationship everything will be ruined. I feel happy when I'm with her, I can't help but look at her and even at night before going to sleep her face is on my mind.

"S-sorry... I'm not forcing you to have a relationship with me. I just want to know what our status is. You know I like you, right? I just don't want to rely on----"

"You... What do you want our state to be?" I asked her.

They had it!

I know she will ask for a relationship. Even if I don't want to, I'm ready to give it to her just to make her happy. I don't want her to hope but I also don't want her to get hurt.

I will give her what she wants.

"I want..." She started. She thought for a moment and spoke again. "I would like to know how you feel about me."

Feeling it? What is it?

I looked into her eyes. Even if she doesn't say it, he hopes that we feel the same about each other. I hope that's the case, but what if it's not?

Yeah... I'm starting to have a special feeling for her. But I can't stand it yet.

I was confused.

"Give me time..." I answered her.

I want to be sure of what I feel. I don't want to hurt her.

I'm alone now. As I asked Mica, she gave it to me. Enough time to think about my feelings for her.

"Hi Calix!" The freshmen girls greeted me.

I just smiled at them. I'm not in the mood to flirt right now. Too bad they are still beautiful.

"Calix..." Someone called me.

I looked at it and Aiko, my ex-girlfriend, immediately kissed me. She hugged me tightly. I've been waiting for this day for a long time. Because I was really dead to her before.

"Please... Be mine again Calix." She whispered in my ear.

Maybe then, I would answer yes. But now my brain is a mess.

"Sorry Aiko... But I can't be yours again." I answered and separated from her hug.

"But why?" She asked me almost crying.

I looked at a group of women looking at us. Section A, and I saw Mica. Her eyes are sad. I know she's thinking.

But that's not what I'm going to do.

"Because I'm already inlove with someone else."

Am I doing it right? I'm starting a relationship with Mica even though I'm not really sure about my feelings.

What if there really isn't any?

"Calix..." Mica called me. We are now at home. Her head was lying on my chest, while I was lying on the sofa.

"Why Baby?" I asked. I've been calling her baby since we became official.

"Thank you..."

I looked at her. "For what?"

"Because I'm the one you chose out of the many people who like you."

That's what I chose. Maybe, I did it okay. My feelings for her will also grow.

I kissed her on the forehead and went back to watching TV.

For now we need to keep everything secret. It's not that I'm ashamed of her. I don't want to tell anyone else, especially Ella. Because, I have to be sure.