chapter 19-my baby

Matt began to loss interest on me since I was always drunk.He lost his patience with me.He no longer longed for my sight.we started sleeping on separate rooms.

He took away my phone after he kept on receiving phone calls from people back home.people were concerned about my sudden change,they could sense that something was wrong.

Lisa threatened him,she promised that she would come over and have him arrested.she insisted that they receive a phone call from me confirming that I was Okey.

I was very pleased with Lisa's behaviour she had my back.my sisters did too but they were not as experienced in such situations just as Lisa was,hence they needed her intervention.

Matt started treating me better after we found out that we were pregnant.i did not know if it's was because of Lisa threatening him or because he was genuinely happy that I was pregnant.

He told me that me being pregnant changes alot of things ,it's proves to him that I was a real women.that I was to grow his empire.He insisted that the baby must be a boy.He told me that boys were useful compared to girls .

Matt would normally buy alot of food which he considered healthy for the child.He would make sure that I eat whatever he bought.somethings he would learn about them on internet and start buying and forcing me to eat.

I would eat whatever he bought because I was not looking for trouble.i loved the fact that he cared yet again even though his aggressiveness was still present.

After months I was finally eight months pregnant and we were excited that we would soon meet our baby.luckly for Matt he was a boy hence this gave Matt more reason to be excited.I did not care about the gender all I wanted was a healthy baby.

We had already bought the babies clothes,prepared his room.everything was ready for my dear baby.i wanted to be the best mother I could have been.k wanted to love him as much as I could and protect him as much as possible.

I wondered how he would look like.i wondered how he would behave.i wanted him to be a much better man than the men the world already had.i wanted him to see potential in women.i wanted him to love so hard and protect his people.

My thoughts ,my desires and all the dreams I had about him vanished from me.i couldn't grab them ,they slipped right before my eyes.

I got a miscarriage.The day I felt bored and requested Matt to take me outside and I fell on the floor as I headed to the supermarket.

I felt blood gushing out ,I was wet all over.i was in unbearable pain.i cried hoping the lord would protect my baby.i held my stomach trying to stop the flow of blood.i had hope that maybe should I hold my stomach he would not slide through.

Matt rushed me to the nearest hospital were I got examined.They checked everything that might have been damaged while Matt stood outside of my room.he constantly checked and requested that he enter but the doctors did not allow him in.

After i had been examined they allowed him in and finally told us what had happened.its took me time to accept the news even though I had suspected it but I couldn't accept it because its was painful to me.i knew that Matt would not be pleased but he was worse than that.

Matt did not take the news well.He first thought the doctors were lying and insisted that they spoke the truth.when the doctors kept on saying the same thing,he beat them out and the security took him out.

I was kept at the hospital for two days and they finally discharged me .Matt did not bother himself to pick me up hence I took a taxi back to our house.Matt was there.

He looked at me as I came in and sat on the sofa.He started insulting me for losing the baby.He told me that I am useless and I did it on purpose.He told me that I had never loved him all I wanted was to disturb me.

That was the first time he beat me up.He did not care about my pain that I had got from the miscarriage,he did not care that I was his wife and he definitely did not care that I was a women.

To my suprise I did not feel anything while he was beating me up.i did not cry or scream.i did not attempt to hide.i had finally had enough.i was finally pissed to my core.

I took one of his walking sticks which he used as a fashion statement and I started beating him up.All my anger from my childhood to my adulthood were all present.he cried,he screamed but I did not stop.i wanted him to be an example to other men that I together with many other women were not weak but Instead we just opted for peace in most occasions.

I broke his hip,I broke his arm and I broke his nose.Matt was bleeding profusely after I was done with him.i packed my things and went far way from him.Matt never tried to arrest or find me.with the help of Lisa I finally went back home.and I reunited with my sisters whom I had been missing for a very long time.They were very happy to see me.we hugged as we cried.We were missing each other and very worried about each other.i was glad that they were safe and doing well better than I was.I was depressed and tired but they were the opposite.