CHAPTER FOUR

"I'd like to pick this" I said pointing to a mink coat, "and the pink one."

"Now let's move to shoe section."

"Ok ma'am" the attendant replied leading the way.

Just like I promised myself, I had gone shopping for all the latest clothes and shoes.

"This is your bill ma'am." The cashier said when I finished.

Of course it took a large amount of my paycheck, but 'yeah, this is my money I have worked for it and I deserve every satisfaction that comes with it.

After wards I went to get my hair done and full manicure and pedicure.

Nature made an exception for me, gave me a second chance at live. Well I'm determined to live it to the fullest.

I continued smiling to my self as I unpacked the things I had got.

—Oohh it feels good.

It was a sensation I had never experienced.

Old me me would have cautioned myself not to get greedy when ever my so called best friend got these things for herself.

I felt smarter saving up my money and investing them in my all loving boyfriend turned monster husband.

As I walked into the office the next day, heads turned, I looked like a different person.

"Oh my word, Miss Wei is this you, it was my project manager smiling sheepishly at me."

"How am I supposed to function can't effectively when I am surrounded with these old looking hags, wearing cheap sweaters all day. Zero fashion sense"

He said hissing loudly. His words had rang loudly in my ears all through that day after I went to request that he review a particular memo and it was obvious to all that he was referring to me.

'Well here he is, drooling over that old looking lady' I thought smiling to myself and walked past him without paying him any attention.

"You look so amazing, miss Wei, is it your birthday?"

It was the guy beside my desk.

"No" I just smiled and faced my desk.

I felt so satisfied.

'Was my fashion sense really that bad that I show up to work looking good and everyone is amazed and they even presume it's my birthday.'

—Imagine how bad it must have been.

"You all should get ready, it's about to become an everyday event."

I said smiling almost aloud.

"Oh mine world, he exclaimed surprised.

Babe you look so different.''

It was Lei, I should make a note never to date anyone in my work place again, why the heck does he keep showing his ugly face in my business everytime.

"Thank you." I said with a forced smile as usual.

"Everyone kept talking about how great you look, and how I was lucky to have you. I had to rush down to check and uh mine.... I'm short of words."

I just continued smiling while brewing with hate.

"This look must have cost you a lot, I can't deny how great you look but you know we can't afford it right now."

'As expected.'

"We?" I asked feigning surprise.

"Yes we babe, we are one remember whatever belongs you belongs to me and same here. We are united."

"Mmmm true we are one, well I didn't buy from our money, I bought it from my money, it is what I want and I got it, any issues with that."

"Of course not babe, I came to ask you about your last paycheck you've received it since weekend and I haven't been credited.

I know you didnt do this stuffs from the money. It is for our future, our investment, our children everything us."

He said smiling.

I couldn't belive myself, did I really fall for this stupid and ridiculous lines of his.

"My paycheck, well I have decided to stop sending them to you. I can save on my own I don't need your help, or better still you can send yours to my account let me save them for us."

I replied with a non smiling face.

"And yes, I got all these from my paycheck I deserve them don't I?"

"Its mine and I can do whatever I want with it."

" The last I checked all your shirts are gotten from designer stores and I have been repeating clothes for years in the name of building a future if the future can't be built without my paycheck then let it crash. I'd like to pass if you'd excuse me."

I said walking out on him.

He stood there with shock. His face white as ghost. He couldn't belive what had just hit him.

Well this is just the beginning, I'm going to swindle the swindler.

Then it struck me!

This particular scenario had happened before but in a different manner.

I had not sent my paycheck over to him because my mom was sick and needed the money and he had threw a fit. Reminding no one was worth jeopardizing our future for.

NO ONE! He had made sure the words rang continously in my head.

I had begged him for weeks before he finally agreed to forgive me for spending money.

I remembered Meng had also given me several reasons why I was wrong to have sent the money to my mom instead of contributing it my future.

I realized the last few days I have been living it same way as my past life. Even though I'm trying my best change it, something events would not just change.

The cut in my leg, the one I had sustained on my way to the bank to wire my paycheck to Lei, despite not going to the bank I had sustained exact same cut after tripping over a stool at the salon.

No matter how much I have been trying, there are some events that really cannot change.

Will I really still have to marry him no matter how much I try, Will I still have cancer despite all my precautions

I guess I cannot upset the balance Nature has created. I am stuck with this Sad Fate Of Mine.