Chapter-194


Last cry


Jay-jay's POV


Auntie and I kept knocking on my room. I knew they wanted to talk to me
but I chose not to confront them. I turned up the volume of the music
on my cellphone. I
had my headset stuck in my ears. I didn't want to hear anything.
All I wanted to hear at this time was Rock music.
Hey... It feels like the old days.
I looked at my cellphone when a text message arrived.
From: Ci-N
Message: Come in, please... 😢😢 I immediately deleted his message. I haven't
been to school for two days. I've lost my appetite for many things and that includes
going to school.
For what? To see them? To see him? No way!
Sometimes I just think about ending my life but it's not
possible yet. I still want to see and be with Papa, even for a moment.
I looked at the door when it suddenly opened. I locked it----
The doorknob was broken! Aries came in angrily and immediately
hugged me. I took the headset off my ear and hugged him too.
Fight?! Fight?!
"You know Percy is alive and you also know our story! Why
didn't you tell me anything?!" He said angrily and leaned me against the
wall.
I pushed him with all my strength while holding his clothes.
I also followed his evil gaze.
"Why?! Did you tell me that Papa was just around here?!
Did you tell me that I was your son outside?! DID YOU TELL ME
WE WERE BROTHERS?!" I answered him angrily. "...So don't complain!
Let's just be fair!"
His anger at me intensified. He pushed me against the wall again
but I followed suit. We kids kept pushing each other.
"STOP IT!" Kuya Angelo shouted loudly and immediately came over to us.
Aunt Gema followed him who was also trying to stop us. They tried
to separate us. Kuya stepped in between and blocked both of our arms
. I still can't take my eyes off him.
"Explain yourself, Aries." Kuya ordered calmly.
He didn't answer, he kept looking at me evilly. If
Kuya hadn't come right away, we might have gotten into a fight
here.
Even though he's my brother!
I wouldn't hesitate to make his face bleed. After all, he and
Mama are the ones to blame for all my suffering right now. If
only I could at least get back even with one punch.
"What's going on?" Mama suddenly snapped as if she had
just arrived. "...why is the doorknob like this?"
Your good son broke it!
"You really won't talk?" Kuya asked irritably and turned
to me. "...what did Aries do?"
I didn't answer, I immediately went straight to the bathroom and locked myself in. I didn't want
to leave the house but I couldn't stay like this. Then
Percy hadn't called or texted me yet.
I immediately took a shower and got ready. When I came out of the bathroom, they were gone and
the door was closed----that's why the doorknob was broken.
That Aries hit was so hard. He must not be himself anymore,
that's why he came in here and talked to me like that.
They're really friends, they're both crazy.
Percy's just crazier.
I was wearing a school uniform but I brought a change of clothes in my bag. I pretended
to be going so they wouldn't ask. I don't want to go
to school. What am I going to do?! I'm
going to have a baby!
After getting dressed, I went downstairs and the first thing I saw was Grandma.
"I'm going in." I said and passed her. I heard her softly call my name but I still
continued . The slap she gave me still hurt. It hurt because she was the first person I expected to cheer me
up. Maybe I had exhausted her patience and I was really rude. I looked up at the sky and took a deep breath. I
was getting tired of crying so before I even started, I took it first. It would have been good if you guys were
alling like pearls. I went to the Mini Mart first. I haven't had breakfast yet so I'm going to buy some food first.
While I was buying something to drink, something caught my eye. San Miguel Beer. I don't know but I was
tempted to get some. I bit my lip while staring at it. I thought about it a few times until I decided to get two
bottles. The two aren't bad ! I immediately lined up at the cashier. "Miss..." The female cashier called me. "...I
can't sell you this. You're just a student." Wow! "Are you serious?!" I asked sarcastically. I was starting to get
irritated by what she said. Student?! There were so many people in uniform there buying alcohol. "Excuse me."
She said and was about to get the two bottles of alcohol. I looked at her evilly. My body was heating up, I
needed this alcohol. I NEED THIS?! "If I punch you in the face and make you bleed, will you tell me?" I could
see the shock on his face. He also dropped the bottle he was holding earlier. "Miss... H-that's really not
possible." He said in a conversational tone. "It's so intense-----!" "Miss!" Someone called from behind me. "...I'll
pay for it." I raised my eyebrows at him. I didn't know if it was just a coincidence or if he had deliberately
looked for me and found me here at the Mini Mart. "I know I'm handsome but no need to stare like that." He
said with a smile . It was really nice to punch him in the face. Why does that line look familiar to me?-----ah
right! Line of the Pest King of Cobras. I just remembered him now. "Oh..." Percy said boredly as he handed me
the things I had to buy. "...This is early wine. Have you had breakfast yet?" I didn't answer him. I just took the
things he paid for and looked for a table where I could sit. I ate first because my stomach wasn't empty yet.
When that was finished, I turned to the wine. I stared at it closely and in an instant the cap suddenly came off.
Oohhh... The power of staring. Just a joke! Percy opened it without me noticing. He sat in front of me and
smiled looking at me again. "What time do you plan on coming in?" He asked me. I drank it first while looking
at him too. Argh! Scratching my throat. It hurt! "I-I'm not coming in." I didn't feel like answering. "Why are you
wearing a uniform?" "So they don't ask anymore." He laughed a little. "That's bad!" I gave him a hard time. The
kind that cuts like a blade. Because this person is so annoying. He hasn't made me feel anything for a few
days and now he's teasing me . "I don't know about you... You're a jerk!" He suddenly laughed loudly and
slapped the table. I was even more annoyed by him and it felt like he enjoyed punching me. I tapped the bottle
of alcohol I was holding again but nothing came out . I had finished it before I realized it. My abnormal
stepbrother was getting my attention. "Buy it!" I ordered and he suddenly became serious. I thought he was
annoyed by what I said but his lips gradually parted and formed a wide smile. His gums were so wide. He
looked shocked! "I don't want to... Force me..." He said. I just slapped my forehead. His hit was really hard. Can
I request another sibling? It's okay even for a girl, as long as she doesn't think like this. Normal and mature
people aren't this abnormal and immature. Please... Another sibling! The normal person to talk to! "Don't buy
me anything... I might get angry, I'll just slap you with this bottle." I said and stood up. I walked out of the Mini
Mart and left him alone. I knew he would follow----that's it! "Where are we?" He asked from behind me. See?! "I
don't know about you..." I whispered and walked away. Honestly, even though he was acting like an idiot, I was
happy that he was here. I forgot about my problem for a moment even though he had a headache . I stopped
when I noticed someone on the other side of the road. There was a couple on the other side who was so
sweet while walking. I don't know but I thought I heard something break. "Shit! I hit the window!" Percy
shouted and suddenly grabbed my hand and ran. It's a dud! I thought it was my heart that broke. I was still
emoting. We stopped at a park with a playground. I held my knee while chasing the wind. My leg hurt from the
distance we ran. "What are you doing?!" I asked annoyed. "I was throwing stones at the rat on the roof! That's
why I missed, the window was hit." He explained. Really stupid! I just shook my head while looking for a bench
to sit on. I walked for a while but stopped when I noticed someone. A man wearing a sweatshirt and hoodie
jacket like Superman, wearing a headset and looking like he was jogging. It was Keifer. I took a step towards
him but I immediately stopped. Why would I go towards him? I have to admit that part of me wants to see
him. I didn't go to school for two days so I didn't see him for two days. What he did hurt me but I can't deny it---
- I still have feelings for him! "Oh... Why?" Percy asked me and looked at what I was looking at. "...ahh." My
eyes blurred involuntarily because of the tears. They were falling again without stopping. I hope you become
pearls! It hurts! It hurts that I believed that he loved me too. I believed what he said. Because it seemed true, I
could feel it. The way he looked at me and held me. When he kissed me and hugged me. It was true for me.
"Percy..." I called while still staring at Keifer as he left. "...how do you know if someone loves you?" "When he
says it..." He quickly answered. I looked at him and when he noticed my tears, he immediately became
serious. I think he got what I wanted to convey. "...t-it's hard to say. Y-you'll feel it on your own, especially if he
makes you feel it." I took a deep breath and looked at Keifer's behavior again. He was far away from us. I didn't
want to assume because I might get hurt. But if I don't do this, I won't know the truth. I walked towards Keifer's
direction. "Hey! Where are you going?" Percy asked while following me. "I just want to answer my question." I
answered and walked faster . "Are you sure about that? Maybe it's just the right amount of alcohol." If it's the
right amount of alcohol, it's fine. At least I have the courage to do this. Even just now, I want to answer my
question. Do you love me too? Even despite their deceptions. At least once it didn't cross his mind or even feel
it. It's possible, like the ones I've seen on TV. As we were following him, I noticed late that he was on his way
home . He was right at the gate of their house when he stopped. He took off his headset and waved. "Next
time you'll follow me make sure I don't notice you." He said without facing us. Nice! He really knows
everything! He turned around and looked at us bored. His hair was drenched in sweat . He seemed to be
getting more handsome in his appearance. I really didn't know how to talk to him. I really had no idea how to
ask him. "What do you want?" He asked us. "W-what... Y-because... Y-may---." I couldn't finish what I was going
to say. Suddenly, Percy entered the gate of Keifer's house. Yes, he entered as if he were the owner of the
house. That's right! Okay! "Hey!" Keifer shouted at him and immediately followed him. "I'm going to CR!" Percy
replied and quickly ran inside the house. I was forced to go through the gate as well. I was left outside alone.
Keifer was standing near me and holding his hand. "When your stepbrother comes out, leave." He told me
calmly and was about to walk away. Just wait... What a waste of time. "Keifer!" I called to him and he stopped.
"...I-I just want to know something." He faced me and waited for me to say. His gaze was straight at me,
making my knees go weak. I tried to stay steady even though I wanted to fall. "What is it?" "I-I just want to
know..." I took a deep breath. "...besides what you did. D-did you love me?" He didn't react for a few seconds
as we stared at each other. Until he suddenly laughed as if he was so happy about what I said. I was going
crazy! I bit my lower lip so hard. I was scared of the way he was laughing but I was more scared of what he
would say. "You followed me to ask that?" He laughed. "...i can't believe this." He was still shaking his head as
he said that. I wanted to step away because I felt like I already knew the answer but my knees and feet didn't
want to cooperate. Shit! A little cooperation! "Let me be a guest... Did you expect that I might have developed
eelings for you while I was fooling you?" I couldn't answer, I didn't want to hear what he was going to say.
"What a damn!" He added and laughed out loud. "...This is not a TV series or movie. Falling for you or realizing
that I love you in the middle of my revenge will never happen." That's it! I don't want to hear it! That's enough!
Please! I don't want to, I'm not ready to hear that. It was a mistake to come here. "That's how good I am at
acting. I convinced you!" He was still laughing . He slowly walked closer to me. His laughing expression now
looked like a laugh of impact. Ready to do anything bad. "So you don't have to expect it, let me explain it to
you." He stopped right in front of me. "...I will never fall for you. You are just a stupid- little-shit to me just like
your brother Aries." The tears I was holding back were falling. My breathing became tight. I didn't want to cry
in front of him but I couldn't help it. I was too affected by what he said. You owe me, be a pearl! He smirked. "If
you had just given in to me on New Year's Eve , you would have probably found out the truth sooner. If you had
just given in to yourself, the plan would have been complete." He crossed his arms and looked at me from
head to toe. "...It's a shame that half of Section E would have won the bet." B-bet?! His smile widened when he
noticed that I had no idea what he was saying. He moved closer to me, causing one of my legs to back away .
"Come to think of it... The bet isn't over yet." Suddenly, he hugged me around the waist. "...Why don't we
continue what we left off at New Year's?" One of his hands held my jaw tightly. I winced in pain. I tried to push
him away but he just pulled my body closer to him. "B-let me go." I pleaded but he just stared at me. "I know
you want it." He said and kissed me violently. What he did made me cry even more. It wasn't like this. The kiss
he gave me wasn't like this. I was hurting and it was like he was showing me that he could handle me.I feel
insulted by what he's doing. He's losing respect for me. This is not the Keifer I loved. Even though he's stupid
and strong, he still makes me feel loved. I've made a mistake again! I don't want it anymore! I can't wait any
longer. It's clear to me that he doesn't love me, that he just used me and pretended to bet on me. I pulled out
the rest of my strength and pushed him. He moved slightly away from me but I took that opportunity to punch
him. I intentionally hit him in the jaw. He fell! Even though my vision was still blurry from tears, I approached
him and followed that punch. I was on top of him as I continued to punch him. My fist landed on his face a
ew times, his nose and mouth were already bleeding but my tears still didn't stop falling. I stopped when I
saw how he looked at me. Lifeless.... I cried even harder. My tears fell on his face so that they mixed with the
blood. I stared into her eyes, wanting
I saw that what he did hurt so much. If only
his conscience could eat him and not let him sleep at night.
I looked out of the corner of his eye when I noticed tears welling
up there.
Impossible!
I immediately left him. I glared at him as
he slowly sat up. He wiped his face that was full of my tears and
blood.
Those were my tears, not his!
He wouldn't cry for me. He wouldn't do that! I saw Percy
leaving the house. I immediately walked away but I faced
Keifer again before finally leaving the gate.
"Put it on the rock, even on your forehead and on the dog's ass!
Karma will come back to haunt you! You're so funny!" I took a deep breath because of
my broken voice. "...And when that happens! I'll be the first to laugh right at
your face!"
I quickly ran out of their gate. I even heard Percy's voice
calling me but I chose to ignore it.
I just ran and ran. I didn't know where my feet would take me,
as long as I could get away from him.
But it was so bad. I tripped and almost fell.
I stopped and sat down because of the fear I felt. That was
the only reason the pain I had been feeling
earlier was gone.
I felt like a child who had lost a toy. I continued to sob.
"Aaaaaahhhhhh!!!" I screamed as I punched my chest.
It hurt so much!
Why did I even hope?! I'm so stupid. Why do I
eel like crying?! I can't cry. I feel
so weak and brainless.
"Jay..." Percy called to me as he slowly sat down in front of me.
"...Big Brother is here. That's enough."
Instead of stopping, I cried even harder. I hugged
him tightly. I really didn't want to cry anymore, I was tired.
My eyes were already tired from the tears that wouldn't turn into
pearls.
This was really the end!
I won't cry for you anymore, never again. I won't waste my time
on you, you Animal King of Demonic Snakes.