Unknown feelings/ Unknown rival pt 2
Jane: "But i....think Yang might feel that it's an good idea...as its ok with me as i don't care how many their is. As i don't even care if i have to go through Lucy to have Yang treat me as the number one in her heart."
With that Jane had left to get what my mom had asked her to as i ask while i clench my teeth together to bare with pain. "W-what... did...Jane mean about...Suzy...having a.... sectret that can help with me buying time as.. it would be something i wouldn't agree with."
Seeing my parents and Jane mom look at each other before it seemed that they came to agree through eye contact that Jane's mom is to be the one to tell me.
Gabby: "Y-you...see little Ang...Suzy...has an another aspect...that can...help relieve some of the side effects that come with Suzy...but it comes at even bigger cost than one that you know...to the one she'sconnected to."
Looking at my parents as they seem to have become guilty with their body language have become to show the helpless ness that they have. As i had went back to looking at aunty Gabby as she is my parents childhood friend.
"Aunty Gabby...what you mean...is it could be an even bigger cost to me...if i would to go with this option."
Gabby: "You...see...Yang...we know that you love Lucy...and we're not saying that you can't...but...the longer you use Suzy...the... more instances that this will happen and... there will be...an case were...Jane or....us will not be around too..."
Widening my eyes "aunty...you...you...can't be saying...what i think...you are...you...you want...me too...fall in...love with...someone else...to...to just fight the...effects of..."
Stopping as i widen my eye's "don't...don't tell me...that...Jane...has feelings for me."
The room goes quiet as they hang their heads until i see Jane walk in to the room with the medicine and the glass of water.
Jane: Placing the water and the bottle that has her medicine on the desk next to her bed as i help Yang sit up before reaching over as i kneel while i'd grabbed the bottle looking at it as i open it. "Yang...i knew...that this would be your reaction...so i just settled for being your best friend and childhood friend as you had pursued Lucy.
As it seemed that you planned to do it quietly and let her notice how you felt by her'self... and i...was ok...with that as long as you and Lucy got together in the end...but now...now..."
Seeing that Jane wouldn't raise her head to look at me as i could hear the raw emotions behind her words...as she tries to not choke on her words.
I soften my gaze as i look at her to let her try to recuperate herself as i could tell she was trying not to cry as her hands were shaking while she took the top off the bottle.
Jane: "NOW!...THAT IDIOT CAN'T EVEN... DESCERN WHAT HER OWN FEELINGS ARE! AS SHE CAN ONLY THINK ABOUT THAT!...DAME SCHOLARSHIP! AS SHE CAN'T EVEN TELL WHEN YOUR GOING THROUGH SO MUCH PAIN!...
HOW COULD SHE! NOT EVEN TELL THAT YOU WERE TRYING TO CUT THE INTER-ACTION BETWEEN THE TWO SHORT BECAUSE OF YOU NOT WANTING TO SHOW YOUR PAIN!..."
Seeing her take out the pills as her tear hit the bottle before closing and going to put it back on my desk i place my hand on her hand that was closed to hold the medicine in it while i also soften my eyes "so...you were there... the whole time..."
Sliding off the bed as she had moved back a little to let me be on my knees in front of her as i hugged her "i'm sorry...Jane that you had to...go through so much...and i didn't notice how you felt. As you were at my side just as much as i've been at Lucy's. As the three of us are childhood friends..as i might be...even worse than her...to not see your pain.
But...i can't...just...use you like that...you are my best friend...that would listen to me and my complaints about Lucy. I can't do this to you...causing you more pain...as i know... how that feels."
Jane: Giggling as i sniffle..."Yang...if it's for you i'm...willing to do anything...even if you're just doing it to help with Suzy....side effects i will always be here to listen to you and your complaints. As i don't care if it's just Lucy or anyone else that i have to push out of my way to have a place in your heart as well."
Closing my eyes as i smile after hearing her confession and declaration to me as i 'of... course she would say that as she isn't one to give up that easily.'
Feeling my heart be filled with love, care, and being wanted i move away "i understand... but Jane...you know that...my heart lies with Lucy i...can't promise you...that i can...or will be able too..reciprocate your feelings...an if the need arises that other's are needed..."
Jane: Kissing her on the lips "Ang...all i need is for you to know how i feel...and to be with me for the rest of my life...anything else...can come over time...as we will deal with it when they arrive."
Blushing, as i nod my head while i averted my gaze away..."t...t...then...if you're...ok...with it then...auntie...Gabby can you tell me what the bigger consequence is...of me having Jane with me."
(5 minutes later)
Sitting on the bed after taking my medicine that aunt Gabby has brought as Jane had sat next to me holding my hand.
Gabby: "So before i get to telling you about that if you accept Jane she will become an fiance candidate and she will be able to help with the side effects from Suzy as you can have as many as you want.
But...the risk of you doing this...is that the one that you want to be your true partner may not...ever...be able too understand your... feelings leading...to you not only losing you life but.
Also causing thoses that Suzy...has assigned as your fiance candidate...will be a effected as they will come down with the same sick- ness you have. Our they will have to pay in another way that's...unknown to us...as even Suzy doesn't know being that...that would be the first case of this...sensitivity."
Hearing what aunty said i was about to say that i wouldn't let Jane or anyone else take such risk when i felt Jane grasp tighten as she clasped our fingers together. Causing me to look at her to see the determination in her gaze making me sigh "fine...you win...Jane we can do it your way."
Seeing her smile as she hugs me and says "great...this is the...happiest day of my life... and i have an great idea to help with that block head of an childhood friend of ours."