Not the day I hoped for

"… are you still planning to go to school?"

Christian asked as we continued to lay on the bed. I hadn't expected him to bring up this topic. When I'd told him I wanted to go to college, he hadn't been completely on board with the idea. He had not protested against it, nor did he say he didn't want me to go. But his lack of enthusiasm told me everything. I knew he didn't want me going back to school.

"Yes. But not right now." I said drowsily. I hadn't had a good night's sleep in days. I felt so tired, my eyes barely staying open.

"If that's what you want, I'm fine with it."

I needed to sort out my feelings first. The nightmares about dad were one thing, my relationship with Christian, whatever it was now, was another. School could wait just a little longer.

"Thank you."