Meeting

"..."

I opened my eyes to look at the familiar ceiling.

The sore lower half

I did it.

I had 'sex' with the doctor.

It was my first time.

And it should be Han Seoyeon's first time too.

"What did I do..."

I held my head in stress.

Han Seoyeon was a character who had a chance to develop into Kim Jihoon's 'lover'.

My first time was not Kim Jihoon's.

No... Even though I had a chance to be a lover,

It didn't mean that I had to be Kim Jihoon's lover.

We could choose to be together as 'friends'.

If it was Kim Jihoon, who already had dozens of female protagonists waiting for him,

Wouldn't Han Seoyeon be just a second choice from those female protagonists?

In addition, in the story, Han Seoyeon wasn't Kim Jihoon's lover.

Because she died first.

I didn't see Kim Jihoon being affected at all at the beginning of the story.

Thinking like this.

My throbbing head slowly relaxed.

I sat up and looked around. My body was empty.

There were only used condoms scattered around my bed.

I didn't see the doctor.

It seemed like he had left.

Even though I was a man in my mind,

I didn't think I would actually do it.

Besides... I didn't think 'sex' would feel this good.

I rubbed my belly.

My belly that had just been filled.

It still felt tight.

My body still felt tingling.

Although it wasn't as good as when I had just had the injection.

My mind was thinking back to the happiness and tingling I had just experienced.

My mind was filled with good feelings.

My mind was filled with happiness.

My mind was filled with comfort.

Everything... It was an experience that I didn't know how to describe.

"I want to... do it again."

I muttered as I thought back to it.

I wanted to feel good.

I wanted to be happy.

I want to feel like that forever.

I want to do it again.

I used my finger touching on the sensitive part that had just been filled.

"Ah~"

I let out a lewd sound.

It feels so good.

I want to do it.

I really want to do it again.

But... It not enough.

It doesn't feel good enough.

It's as if something is missing.

As if there's a missing piece in the puzzle.

"Doctor~"

I called for the doctor.

I wanted to be done to him again.

His face was on my mind.

His touch and... his part.

I wanted him to hug my body and let out his emotions like he did.

After a long time,

I got up from bed and did my daily routine.

I walked around my house with weak legs.

Today I did many things for the first time.

I had sex for the first time.

I masturbated for the first time.

I was so happy and knew this much excitement for the first time in a day.

Ding! Ding!

[You received a notification, a message from Kim Jihoon 2!]

I looked at my phone screen.

A message from Kim Jihoon

What message did he send?

Did he want to see me?

Or did he want to make up with me?

Or did he change his mind and lend me more money?

If it was the last one, I should have refused...

No... The doctor said that this was the only time he could get that medicine for free.

But... That new medicine,

I can't go back to the old one.

No matter how expensive it is.

No matter how rare it is.

No matter what the price is.

I have to take that medicine.

Just thinking about the pleasure and thrill it gave me.

Oh my god...

My body trembles just thinking about it.

I want to inject it.

I want to feel that kind of pleasure again.

Oh... Oh right, I haven't even looked at Kim Jihoon's message yet.

I opened Kim Jihoon's message.

[Let's meet up. At Hanggang Park]

[Noon]

I finished reading the message.

I checked the time.

"You... bastard, Kim Ji-hoon."

I cursed.

[10:41]

My phone showed the current time.

I only had a little over an hour left.

To go see him.

For God sake!

He called me without telling me anything!

And he called me suddenly.

Dammit!

I really wanted to punch him.

[I understand, I'm on my way.]

I sent him a message.

Even though I wanted to type and curse at him,

He was Han Seoyeon's only friend.

And I didn't want us to fight anymore.

Especially now, it seemed like our relationship could break at any moment.

I quickly grabbed the nearest set of clothes.

After checking my appearance a little,

I immediately ran out of the house.

I arrived at the public area where we had arranged to meet.

I ran straight there without stopping.

It made me pant heavily.

But I did this because I didn't want him to wait too long.

Huh...

I'm too soft-hearted.

I saw Kim Jihoon from afar.

A thought suddenly popped into my head.

I just had sex and now I'm coming out to see him.

Will he realize it?

What will he think about it?

Will he be disappointed?

But all those thoughts flew away when I saw him talking to a woman I didn't know.

Should I go over and say hi?

Or should I wait until he's done talking?

But while I was thinking,

He noticed me.

He walked straight to me.

"You're here?"

He walked over to me with a stiff expression.

"Hmm. What's wrong?"

I noticed his gaze on my arm.

So, I put my arm behind my back and smiled.

"..."

Kim Jihoon didn't answer me.

Instead, he turned his head to look at the woman next to him.

"Ouch! I get it!"

The woman sighed in frustration and shot Kim Jihoon a displeased look.

I gave her a thumbs up in my heart for daring to show her displeasure towards Kim Jihoon.

"Stay still."

She walked up to me and grabbed my hand to hold it in hers.

Our hands that were holding each other emitted a green light.

...!!

She's a magician?

And she's a healer!

I remember that in the story of the novel, there were only 3 people who had this kind of healing skill.

I carefully observed the face of the woman in front of me.

White hair and red eyes.

A cute face that reminded me of a harmless rabbit contrasted with her white hair and red eyes.

Wait... A rabbit?

The killer rabbit, Sa-eun?

Sa-eun who should have appeared after the beginning of the story.

Why did she appear now?

"Finished! Are you satisfied now?"

Sa-eun turned to shout at Kim Jihoon.

My cold sweat flowed.

Sa-eun was the character I wanted to avoid the most.

Because she was a very scary woman in the original story.

And she was a woman in the story that had a side story that shocked countless readers.

She was the only woman in the story who... killed all the female protagonists in the story to possess Kim Jihoon all by herself.

The me, now who was weak and didn't even have the strength to resist.

What if she thought of doing something to me?

No...

I feel dizzy.

I start to have trouble breathing.

My vision in front of me starts to blur.

"Hey!"

Sa-eun grabs my arm.

My heart feels like it's jumping out of my chest.

"I-I'm sorry."

I apologize as I try to escape.

But my arm is held tightly by her.

Sa-eun stares at my face for a long time before she sighs and let's go of her hand.

She doesn't say anything.

She steps back.

That's when she steps back.

It seems like she whispered something to Kim Jihoon.

What did she say to him?

I want to know but I don't dare to ask.

I can only look at his face.

"What made you call me out?"

I ask when it seems that no one between us starts a conversation.

"Nothing."

He just answers and goes quiet.

This bastard!

Just call me out wasn't enough.

And now you're talking like this too!?

Even though I cursed at him a lot in my mind.

But on the surface, I only had a smile to give him.

"....."

He looked at me.

I looked at him.

We were silent like this for a long time.

He finally opened his mouth to speak.

"Sorry."

Sorry?

What did he apologize for?

What did he do wrong?

Is he teasing me?

Ten questions immediately popped up in my head.

I couldn't believe he would apologize.

For someone as arrogant as him?

Even in the novel, the time he apologized to someone are less than ten times.

"See! you can say that, isn't it?!"

Sa-eun smacked Kim Jihoon's shoulder.

I hadn't finished processing.

I could only look at them with wide eyes.

But before I could say anything,

I started to feel itchy.

Wait a minute. Did I get an injection before coming?

A cold sweat started to flow down my back.

I haven't gotten an injection yet.

I just remembered.

I have to go back now.

"Uh... uh... Jihoon"

"...?"

"Can I go back first?"

I said awkwardly.

I have to go back and get the injection.

If I don't get the injection,

I'll feel bad.

I'll feel pain.

I don't want to feel like that.

I don't want my head to hurt.

I want to go back.

But if I go back suddenly like this, will he be worried?

I don't want him to be worried either.

No.

Am I really... important to him?

I'm just another choice in his life.

As for him, he's the only choice in my life.

Am I important enough to him that he'd choose me?

I'm not physically strong, I don't have any strengths, I'm just a burden to him.

No way.

Ah... no...

I'm starting to feel nauseous.

My head is starting to fill with questions.

I feel so bad.

I feel nauseous.

I want to throw up.

I want to disappear from here.

I don't want him to see me like this.

"Haha... I'm sorry. Jihoon invited me here, but I have to go back first. I forgot I have something to do."

I quickly apologized to him.

I want to go back now.

I want to get an injection.

I want to get an injection right now.

I don't want to feel this bad.

I don't want to feel this pain.

I don't want my head to hurt.

I want to be happy.

Doctor...

I want to go see the doctor.

The doctor who gave me happiness.

The doctor who gave me comfort.

The doctor who took care of me.

I want to go back to him.

I ran out.

I want to go back.

I want to go back to my house.

I hurried back without looking back.