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After I ran out

I went straight home

When I ran out

I didn't even look at Kim Jihoon and Sa-eun

When I arrived at my room, I went straight to the table where I kept my medicine

I took out the medicine box from the drawer

My hands were shaking

I didn't know if it was because of anxiety or fear

But there was only negative feeling in my head

I didn't want to be hurt

I didn't want to think negatively

I didn't want to be sad

I didn't want to look down on myself

Everything was running through my mind

"Ha..."

I let out a breath

My heart kept pounding

I opened the box and took out my usual syringe

I sucked up the liquid inside the blue glass bottle

I aimed it at my arm

My arm was still bandaged

But I didn't care about it

I inserted the needle into my arm

"Ha..."

I let out a breath with my heart pounding

After I finished injecting the medicine, I breathed out in relief

However, the relief did not last long.

I still felt anxious.

I still felt itchy on my skin.

I still felt a burning sensation all over my body.

It made me feel scared for the first time.

Why did the medicine I had been using all along

not work as well as it used to?

"No... no."

I said with a trembling voice.

I quickly searched for more medicine in the drawer.

I took out all the medicine I had.

I had 5 bottles left.

If I used all of them, I would have to buy medicine, which was very expensive.

That meant I would have to use the money Kim Jihoon gave me.

But I didn't want to think about it.

I used the syringe to draw up the liquid and injected it into my arm again.

I sighed and waited with shaking eyes.

After waiting for five minutes,

it confirmed what I thought.

When my symptoms did not get any better,

they only got worse.

I immediately got the third injection.

The third injection, after the injection, did not get any better at all.

I felt weak, depressed.

My tears slowly flowed out.

I was so anxious and flustered that I cried.

The fourth injection.

The fifth injection.

The sixth injection.

And finally... the seventh injection.

I had injected them all, but I didn't feel any better.

I fell to the ground.

My eyes couldn't see anything because of the tears that were falling.

Crack~

The sound of broken glass being stepped on was shattered.

But I didn't care about anything.

The medicine that was my last resort for treatment.

It wasn't working at all now.

I didn't feel any better at all.

I... felt worthless.

Why did I have to suffer like this?

Why did I have to go through this?

Why did my body have to be weak and rely on this medicine?

Why did I have to be in Han Seoyeon's body after I got into the novel?

And... Why did I have to live?

When I'm alive... It's like living in hell like this

Oh right... If living is like living in hell

Then I... would rather die

I picked up the long, sharp glass shard on the ground

I looked up and closed my eyes

I didn't want to suffer

So, I aimed it at my neck

Before I stabbed it with all my strength

But my arm was pulled and yanked hard

"What the hell do you think you're doing!!"

I shouted after seeing my friend who was now kneeling on the ground

Her hopeless face and the tip of the glass shard in her hand aimed at her neck

It made my heart squeeze

I rushed to grab Han Seoyeon's arm

Han Seoyeon's face looked at me who had interrupted her from suicide

Han Seoyeon's face was crying

It made me feel even worse

"What do you think you're doing, Han Seoyeon?"

I asked her again

She didn't answer my question

She just looked down at the floor

At that moment, another friend of mine ran in.

"Jihoon! You're running too fast!"

Sa-eun gasped while looking at me.

She was shocked and covered her mouth tightly with her hand.

When the image in front of her was me holding Han Seoyeon's arm tightly.

And the image in front of her was Han Seoyeon who was crying hysterically.

Han Seoyeon who was sobbing non-stop and was in my hand that was holding her arm without any resistance at all.

"Y-you!"

"You misunderstood. Let's talk about it later."

I replied to Sa-eun shortly and curtly.

Before turning to Han Seoyeon.

Han Seoyeon, my childhood friend.

She was a lovely, lively girl who always cared about him.

The two of us often went out together.

However, one day,

the day Han Seoyeon started to get sick.

At that time, I didn't have as much money as now.

We had to struggle to find money to buy medicine for Han Seoyeon who was sick.

But her illness wasn't that serious.

She only had a cough and felt weak when she exercised too much.

It was a common disease for people with weak bodies.

After that, I try to find a way to earn money so that Han Seoyeon wouldn't have to work hard and could rest well.

Until the day I encountered a life-threatening event.

That was the same day as Han Seoyeon's birthday.

I was returning with a piece of cake that I had been trying hard to save up.

I was attacked by a monster.

In the slums where we lived, there were no guards or soldiers like in the city.

At first, I thought that I wouldn't survive to meet Han Seoyeon.

Until the last second, my power was awakened.

My powerless body was filled with an uncontrollable power.

I managed to defeat the monster at the last second.

After that, I passed out.

When I came to my senses, I found myself back home with Han Seoyeon by my side.

She was crying heavily and holding my hand the whole time.

That made me resolute in myself that

No matter what happens,

I will protect you

Because you are my 'family'

That's what I thought

Before I was kicked out by you

I don't know why

I don't even know what I did wrong

I just wanted to help you

So, I went to hunting monsters to earn money to improve our lives.

I didn't want her to suffer.

Even if it meant risking my life.

But in the end, everything I did came crashing down when Han Seoyeon kicked me out.

I had no way out, so I used the money I had to choose to enter a certain academy.

This academy was a place that would help develop Awakeners like me to become stronger.

When you become stronger, there will be guilds that gather Awakeners to join their guild.

I, who had only recently awakened, had incredibly strong powers that caught the eye of a certain guild.

The Sunlight Guild.

It was a guild that gathered high-level Awakeners together.

It could be said to be the candidate guild to become strongest guild in the country. If given more time for them to grow.

However, I, who had just awakened, was still in the testing phase.

But just being accepted by the Sunlight Guild,

was enough for me to earn money to keep us from living good not in the slums anymore.

However, I was kicked out by Han Seoyeon.

All I did was send more than half of the money I earned to Han Seoyeon.

That amount of money is enough to live comfortably.

Even though I may have to suffer and have to spend money frugally.

But as long as she can live a good life.

I can do anything.

But why is it like this?

Our house that used to be neat.

Now there are only broken glass scattered on the floor.

The things inside the house are old and clearly dilapidated.

Small glass bottles scattered all over the house with blue liquid left inside.

And... condoms around the bed that we always slept together.

What is going on?

What the hell is going on!?

Why?

Why is it like this?

My head feels like it will explode from what I see. My heart is beating wildly.

The feeling I feel right now feels like it could explode at any moment.

Han Seoyeon who almost committed suicide still makes my heart tremble and beats wildly.

"Han Seoyeon."

"What happened... Why are you like this?"

I can only say in a weak voice.

Han Seoyeon closed her mouth tightly.

Not answering my question

"Seoyeon..."

I said the short name I always called her

"Sorry... I'm sorry..."

All she said was an apology

She looked down at the ground and held her chest, crying

Tears dripped down the ground until they formed a puddle