Agari

I once again turned my back on the gut-wrenching feeling. I was aware of the lack of seriousness behind my actions. But when the ground I stood on began to liquify and my two feet submerged in the red insides of my past and some of my current ways, I realized my big mistake.

Before I had opened my eyes to a sky full of stars, I had shut them as I leaned on my Agari's cold forehead.

I had forgotten my lover. I had lost him but I swore I would find him. I promised him I would reach the goddesses and ameand what I had broken. I was ambitious, and the Goddesses were cruel.

It suddenly became obvious to me why I had being abandoned near a river. It was a joke to them. Being left next to a bast body of water when I thirsted for something else. Erasing any trace of morals I could own. They were mistaken to think I would stumble upon a couple of corpses. I was now aware there were things more important than one's soul.

Having wasted time in a village of nothingness was my biggest regret. I walked under the moonlight, tracing my steps above the leaves and branches. She was desperate to know what was in my mind, but I was no longer negotiating.

My beloved portal was once again to be chased down, but this time I knew better than to waste any time on pleasantries.

With a fast paced I reached Aldo's front door. He sat on the chair with a sad expression. I turned to him and leaned as I always did. He smiled tenderly.

" I thought you had left for good" He said with relief.

I grabbed on his shoulder and held in my breath for mere seconds as I watched his smile fade away.

" I'll be taking my leave" That gut-wrenching feeling was there, now crawling out my throat. "I might not find my way back, but with time you'll realize, you are better without me" I loosened my grip on his shoulders, ready to flee.

He grabbed my hands tightly. "But you are my boy" He said with a cracking voice. "This is your home. I am strong, because you are next to me, if you leave, I'll be nothing."

"I ate a girl" I said as I wiped the blood dripping off my face. He could smell the metal on my breath. " This blood is not even her's, but her little brother's, who was naive enough to follow me into the forest" I watched for a reaction.

" Are you asking me if I choose children I've never met before over my own son.."

I freed myself off his grip and stared in disbelief.

"You are wrong to.. this unconditional love that you have is.."

"In the position I'm in, when voices are the only thing I can grasp of people. When their indifference erases their existence off mine. When people see a burden in me rather than a conscious being, the most sincere interaction I had came from Cylith. You are a ray of sunlight slithering through the cracks of abandoned ruins. If I love you, you deserve it."

"...."

" But if you must go, just make sure you can find your way home"

I kissed his forehead and left.