This story is not so much fanfiction as self-reflection. It was created at the time when I felt an urgent need (and opportunity) to stop and look at myself, try to find my essence and driving forces in order to figure out what to do next. Have I been successful in this?... This is the second attempt to publish my 'artistic version of psychoanalysis' of myself (it was curiously enough to find the characters from the dream of Jung's friend, a theology student; post factum, but working properly). This time I tried to make it more independent by correlating the main action of the story (the narrative of the second part) directly with my present; so the first part is essentially a long introduction.
P.S. Please be indulgent, I am not a native speaker, but I tried very hard.