A [ Introduction ]

Alein.

I've read a lot of pocketbooks. Some are tragic, while others have happy endings. I don't know why I read those kinds of stories. Sometimes, I just laugh at what I read.

I don't believe in forever. It's not real. Yes, there's "forever" but it's just in the dictionary. Some people say I'm bitter. I just swear. Damn! It's just not true. We all die.

Do you think you'll still love someone after you die? I don't think so. What if heaven and hell aren't real? What if reincarnation isn't true? What if when we die... that's it. We just become part of the earth? No purgatory... no hell... no heaven... no reincarnation. Just that. That's all.

Maybe we should be happy because when we die, we might fertilize the earth, right? At least we're helping our planet. And I think that will only happen if we don't use a coffin.

Once, while eating lunch in a corner of my school, I saw a couple kissing. I was surprised but then I just shook my head and stood up. I left that place. I'll just find a peaceful place with no disturbance.

Many questions came to my mind at that time. Why are they kissing? Are they married? What if something happens to them? These are the questions in my mind.

I researched and researched. And then I came up with this answer. Because we're human. We need that for us to reproduce. We need to multiply.

Maybe some people will get angry with me if they find out about this. So what? That's what I want to believe. There's nothing they can do.

One day, I couldn't help but tell my opinion to one of my relatives...

They said I use my mind too much. They said next time, I should try using my heart and that's where I'll find out.

Every time I remember what they said, I laugh. Heart? Huh... My heart is busy pumping blood. Sometimes I wonder if they studied the circulatory system.

It's always the heart. That's why they die quickly. They always use their heart. It's already been said that the heart's function is to pump blood. So I'm not surprised why some of the broken-hearted die every Monday. They probably had a heart attack.

Everything we feel is just in the brain. Our brain is the master of everything. The human brain is the reason why you want this...you want that.

I want to share another incident in my life with you. One of my cousins came to my house crying. I asked her why, she said her boyfriend left her.

I just laughed. I gave her a meaningful and direct answer:

"You're so dramatic."

With that, she slapped me and left. I just cried. She's my relative...a blood relative, but she dared to raise her hand to me. My cheek hurts. She must have slapped me with a force of 120 joules.

I was crying then because my cheek hurt. That was also the first time someone slapped me right and I also got dirt in my eye.

I'm mad at her. She was the one who approached me, then she slapped me. But even though that's how I feel, I just let it go. She's just too dramatic. That's normal for somewhat normal people.

Also, while on my way to school, I fell into the gutter. I want to think it was a wormhole and I ended up in another world. I got out of there and started walking again to go inside the school. My uniform was also dirty.

I was about to enter the school gate when the guard there stopped me and asked for my ID. I remembered I left it at home. He didn't let me in. Wow. If he doesn't want to, then don't...I'll just transfer to a school without such a practice if there is one. Why is it based on ID if you'll be allowed in? If you think about it, I can imitate my ID and change the information there. What if I used that? The guard will only check if I'm wearing it, then I'll be let in. Tss. Useless people. What if I could be a killer? I could have entered inside? Useless.

No connection, right?

I have many questions in my mind and some of them are meaningless. I like meaningless things. It's nice to recycle.

My female classmates quarreled. They each have their own groups. The two leaders are doing the verbal fighting, but the members are the one acting on the fight? They only showed me one thing.

They're cowards.

Some join even if they're not involved. I even heard someone say "Let there be chaos so there won't be a fight" then the other said "No! Let there be a fight so there won't be chaos."

I smiled then. They're both stupid. What is that? What is the shape of their brains?

Am I too serious? No. Everything I say has a basis. What I said earlier is based on my experience. They say experience is the best teacher. It's better if it's like that, at least I don't have to do projects.

My classmates say I'm weird. They say I'm not human... Once my female classmate asked me if I came from another planet.

I wanted to ask her then. "Sister, are you okay?" But I just ignored her.

My name suits me. Alein. If you switch the "e" and "i", the result will be Alien.

I just clap my hands. They're really good at making people like that. Their uselessness is funny.

Later I'll do an experiment or venture. When I finish it and the result is successful, I'll write here in this notebook what happened.