Chapter 103

I decided to go check up on Alistair. Ethan was exiting the room when I walked in. I saw Alistair on her bed, head buried in her pillow. I got curious. What happened here?

"Alistair." I joined her. "Hei, it's me."I removed the pillow from her head. I saw her relax. She opened a drawer and gave me a photoframe. I was stunned. There was a couple in it. They looked very young and beautiful. The young woman had long curly golden hair, her green eyes stood out in the picture. The young man was like the most handsome being I've ever seen, I had to remind myself it's just a picture. He had flashy blue eyes and perfect black hair.

"Our parents. You never met them but..."

I was so shocked on hearing this that for a moment I doubted my ears.

"What did you say?"

"That's mom and dad. You know them now."She yawned.

"Oh my...they are stunning. Ah..."I held it to my heart, fantasizing about them feeling my heart beat.

"I'll find them. I will."

"Is there anything you can't do?"Alistair pouted. I noticed she was still very moody. So I faced her. Give your attention to one who's alive first. My parents are not dead though.

"I will find them...when the time comes."I paused. "Did you apologise to Ethan?"

"Hm"She nodded.

"So will you let me understand now? I don't like to see you like this."

"I'll tell you."She sat up. "Cause I want it to go away. It's my past."She placed her head on my lap and instinctively I busied myself with her hair. It's the silkest thing I've ever touched.

"The demons did a lot to me Katrienair."I felt her tears run down my lap. "The war. They caught me because I was a kid. It the only way he could totured our parents. They chained me and totured me. They wanted me to take the mark. Well, I didn't. "

She paused.

"And I was raped. Katrienair, Roger... " She sucked on her cry. I was touched that I saw myself crying along. What the hell?! "I was just a kid, Katrienair. They took my value, my honor. It isn't once. They all did it. Roger thought I'd die by it. I wish I did."

"Holy mother of god! Roger did that to you! " 

She ignored me. "Maybe I died. There's no difference between the living and dead nowadays. I lived all my life with this... trauma."

Pangs of guilt rushed into my veins, like a sudden rush of adrenaline, I felt my soul shrink. "Alistair, I'm sorry."She sat up and embraced me.

"You don't have to. You've given me life ever since you came. You saved me from that cage. They do a lot to me there. Do you know how grateful I am for that? I owe you my life Katrienair. My past taunts my nights. I see them while I sleep. But the day gets bright nowadays. It's normal, not your fault. There's only one way I can make it go away."

"Revenge?"I asked as if reading her thoughts.

"Not really. I know them. Everyone of them and in due time. I'll take them down."She swallowed, wiping off her tears. "I don't have a life anymore. I feel so empty. I try to stay strong but I guess that only gets me worst. Katrienair, I feel like I'm gonna die of this pain."

"You'll not. I know you won't. You are strong Alistair. And You're not alone anymore. I'll support you Alistair in any way you choose to fight back the demons. If I that would make you happy." I sobbed. 

"Please try to forget it." I added.

"I can't."She wiped her tears and faced me. "Why do you think I hit Ethan?"She paused. "I love him so much. But it's glaring I can't have him. Who would stay with a wretch like me?..."

"Ethan will stay" I interrupted her. "I know he will. You and I know who he is."

"What?..."She pursed her lip. "Why are you so sure?"

I faked a smile. "Ethan is your mate. You know that but you are trying to hide it. He knows also. Well, I noticed the first day you both saw each other."

She punched me playfully on my chest. "Is there anything you don't know? Gosh! I can't hide from you!"

"Yeah"I blushed. "By the way, if he really loves you, your past would be nothing to him..."

"I won't tell him... ever!"

"You will."I said teasing, happy that the thick atmosphere was easing away. "You have to tell him. He deserves to know."

"He'd leave. Despite the fact..."Alistair winced.

"You'll tell him. You have to." I pressed. " Alistair has never been scared of anything..."

"That's a lie. Besides, this is different." She groaned. " I just wanna be happy Katrienair. For the first time in my new life I found something to live for. I can't jeopardize that."

"So you'll tell me you're happy now? Truly happy?"She was quiet. "No Alistair. You are not. You know what? I'll help you if you can't."

She shook her head. "Don't, it's improper. You can't."

We were silent for a while, both lost in thought.

"Why did you keep that to yourself all these while? Why did you hide so much Alistair?"

"It's not worth saying, is it? You guys were just too nice. I didn't want to bother you. I thought I'd forget it, being around you."

"It's not about Julian?"I questioned. "You were being considerate weren't you? You allowed me fall for the son of that dog..."

"You were already in love with him before we met. There's no way I could have stopped you. He helped you get me out of that cage. By the way, He isn't Roger, They are different people. He was a kid then too. Unlike his father, Julian has a good heart. I won't blame my lovely sister for loving him. Come on, you are thinking too much."

Alistair's back!

"So you'll allow me marry a demon?"

"I know how much you want that. You can't hide from me. I'll support you Katrienair."

I hugged her. "Thank you 'listair."

"My light, I love you."Alistair cried.