Chapter - 18 Goodbye forsaken routine (2)

With great difficulty, Alex forced his aching body from its seated position. 

Alex's face slightly grimaced as his body surged forth with a score of pain caused by the countless micro tears within his mussel tissue.

The pain didn't matter, his intended goal served a far greater purpose than some measly cries from his weak body. 

Traced upon her flawless features Evelyn etched nothing more than confusion and curiosity. 

Her feelings of ill will from several moments prior were steely crushed. 

Grief?

What a joke, 

Why would a person of Evelyn's prestige dwell on the past, 

Death was death

People died as such every moment. 

What actual mental harm did one extra death burden Evelyn with?

Pffft! Of course none! 

With a jubilant attitude, Alex paraded nothing less than positive affirmation for what was to come. 

Of course, the odds of his favor being rejected were significant, Alex's request was basically handing his own fate and life away to becoming cradled by someone else's will. 

"Mum, I have just one thing I would like to discuss," Alex said in a dry tone in an attempt to feign confidence. 

One has to remember Alexander's psychology was still similar to that of when he was still on Earth. 

Though Alexander transmigrated into a new body, his mind didn't. 

He was still the same meek and fearful person he was in his past life, just with a different bag of flesh and circumstances. 

Confidence was an aspect gained by merit and forced by tough situations.

"Alex?" Evelyn replied in a muse of a tone. 

Internally Evelyn dejected her outer features, within she furrowed her brow. Such a gaze from Alex only signified one of a few things. 

And those prospects were not those of her liking. 

He was guilty, scared, or persistent in asking for something with a negative backlash.

"Alex, I need no further explanation," with a sigh Evelyn glared towards Alex "What are you going to ask." her tone though soft and soothing, was utterly on the contrary it felt malevolent. 

Gulping Alex adhering to his mother's response to his speaking continued. 

'Shit, how the fuck did she know!' 

'I've never even fucking asked her for shit, why the hell is she mixing her aura with her speech!' 

shit, 

shit,

shit,

shit,

shit,' 

"Well I've had this itch troubling my mind for quite a while now," Alex spoke with a genuine tone.

"And before you make a comment on my ask, I beg of you, please listen fully."

"..." Giving Alex a chance to give retrospect, Evelyn pardoned her own speech. 

From his current demeanor of sudo-confidence, Alex soothed his trife with several deep exhalations. 

His mind as if on command diverted and mutilated into a more conscious and rational one. 

"Thank you," 

"Well, how do I begin," Alex said with a chuckle. 

Giving a sigh he continued. 

"Why confine myself to staying here, rigorously training for hours on end while archiving no desirable results,"

"The average person on average takes 2 - 3 fortnights to grasp past grievances and forge an initial, even the most untalented of such take only a fortnight longer to fully garner their Inital's full creation." with a breath of hinted annoyance, Alex continued.

"I won't beat around the bush, staying here would do nothing more than stifle my abilities."

"As such I need a catalyst for my growth,"

Narrowing her eyes further Evelyn objected. 

"I won't allow you to take stimulants to accelerate your own growth" Evelyn curtly replied with a slight shake of her head. 

"The backlash would only cripple you,"

Donning an expression of confusion Alexander internally felt a tinge of annoyance. 

"When did I ever hint at such!?" Alex exasperated 

"Of course, I wouldn't want drugs to hinder my growth," Alex said "Such tonics are only quick fixes which would put my past efforts to waste." 

"When I speak of a catalyst, I don't mean external substances, none indeed"

"Then when you speak of A catalyst you don't mean …" Evelyn said as she trailed off into a slurred form of speech. 

 "..." 

"Why would you desire such?"

"I reject. I permitted your future enrollment into the Institute only due to my connections and assurance of your safety." 

"Even if by some chance I were to accept such an absurd, no…, stupid request!" Evelyn vocalized in a heightened tone laced with aura. 

"You would have no power against the strings of fate foreboding an early demise" 

"You're not even of age!"

Forcing his body astil a consequence of the overbearing pressure, Alex continued. 

"Mom, fate is fate, if my grave is young then allow me to choose such, I need, no must enter an environment dense with raw untamed concentrated energies of Aura and Prana"

"..."