Strength Of Will

DEAR ME

Dear me, I'm confused again,

Don't even know why.

I'm being pressured again,

Can't stand it anymore.

Do this, do that.

"Stay strong, don't fall.

Don't fail, make me proud.

Be a good child."

Hammered into my head,

Each and every time,

Till I lose all sense of reasoning,

And wander away.

Dear me, am I making sense?

Or just rambling like a madman?

I look in the mirror,

Sometimes I love what I see,

Sometimes I can't stand my reflection.

Dear me, why is it so hard to love?

Why is it so hard to give it all?

Why do people play with my feelings?

Why do I hurt people?

Why do I let people get close,

And throw them away like garbage?

Dear me, why do I form bravery?

When I'm a coward within?

Why do I pretend?

Act the way I am not?

Why do I act like all is fine,

When it has never been?

Dear me, what's happening?

Life is beautiful sometimes,

Other times really harsh.

Sometimes a bed of roses,