Sebastian's POV
It's the sound of birds outside the window and the faint smell of lavender that pull me from sleep. My eyes sting. My mouth is dry. My body feels… lighter. Like something cracked open inside and spilled out in the night.
And then I realize—
I'm not alone.
My cheek is pressed against something warm and soft. My arm is curled around someone smaller. Slender fingers are threaded through mine, like they never let go.
My mom.
I'm curled up against my mother like I'm five years old again.
Like I haven't spent the past year pretending I'm a man.
Like I didn't slam doors, wreck glass, or scream at the world.
She's still in her sweater from last night. One arm around me, the other beneath her head. Her face is tilted toward me, peaceful, despite the swelling under her eyes. Her lashes flutter lightly, like she's mid-dream. Like none of this chaos ever happened.
My throat tightens again.
I could've hurt her.
I almost did.
But she stayed.
Not out of fear.
Not out of obligation.
But because, somehow, in all my mess, I'm still hers.
I slowly untangle myself, moving carefully not to wake her. I sit up. My shirt is damp from sweat and tears. The tray she brought me last night still sits on the desk. Cold ramen. Half-finished tea. The cookies I couldn't eat.
There's a sticky note on the tray.
Written in her loopy handwriting:
> I'll always hold you when the world won't.
– Mom
A quiet sob escapes my chest before I can stop it. I press my hand to my mouth, trembling.
She knew.
Even after everything, she knew I needed her. That I didn't need a lecture. I needed comfort. Safety. Arms to hold me when I hated myself too much to breathe.
And she gave that to me.
Not asking for anything in return.
Just love.
Just her.
I turn to look at her sleeping form again and whisper under my breath, like a promise I'll spend the rest of my life trying to keep:
"I'll fix it, Mom. I'll be better. I swear."
And this time—I mean it.