I Should Be The One Saying Sorry

Sebastian's POV

The door creaked when I stepped in.

And for a second—just a second—I thought no one was home.

Then I heard it.

Not words. Not even sobs.

Just this soft sound—like someone was crumbling in slow motion.

I dropped my bag. "Mom?"

Nothing.

I turned the corner into the kitchen.

She was sitting on the cold marble floor.

Knees pulled up. Hands trembling.

Tears dripping down her chin and onto her cardigan. Her cardigan—this soft, baby-blue one she wears when she's trying to look okay even when she's not.

And then she looked up at me.

Like I was oxygen.

Like she'd been drowning without even realizing it.

"Sebby," she whispered.

I stepped forward, heart punching through my ribs. "Mom, what—?"

She stood. Fast. Pulled me into her arms before I could finish the sentence.

She hugged me so tightly I almost couldn't breathe.

Her cheek pressed into my chest.

And she cried. And cried. And cried.

"I'm sorry," she whispered.

Then again. And again. Like a prayer.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm a bad mom. I'm sorry. I'm trying—I swear I'm trying—I'm a bad mom, I'm so sorry."

I froze. My hands hovered in the air before I finally touched her hair.

This wasn't about me.

It was, and it wasn't.

My throat went dry. My gut twisted with something uglier than guilt.

Because I should've been the one apologizing.

I'm the one who's been riding like I've got a death wish.

Drinking. Hooking up. Lying.

I'm the one who sneaks back in reeking of smoke, thinking she's too soft to notice.

And here she is.

Shaking.

Saying sorry.

Like she's the villain in the story I wrote.

"I love you," I said, barely more than a whisper.

Her fingers dug into my shirt like she didn't believe me.

Like she thought I'd disappear.

"Mom," I breathed, resting my chin on her head. "You're not a bad mom."

She flinched.

And I knew.

I knew.

Someone got in her head.

Someone hurt her.

My jaw clenched so tight it hurt. "Did someone come here?"

She didn't answer.

But her silence said enough.