The Voicemails I Never Erased

Flashback

Rain Chen — POV

I don't believe in ghosts.

But she haunted me anyway.

Not in white sheets or flickering lights—

In voicemails. Emails. Soft digital echoes of a girl I left in pieces.

I told myself she'd move on.

I told myself she'd be fine.

She was Sky Maddox—everyone adored her. The girl who smiled too easily and loved too hard.

But she wasn't fine.

She kept calling.

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Week 6 — 2:13 AM

> "Rain… it's me. I… I'm scared. I don't know how to say it."

A shaky inhale.

"I'm pregnant."

My thumb hovered over delete.

I didn't press it.

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Week 9

> "It's real. I saw the ultrasound. There's a heartbeat, Rain. Yours. Ours."

"Please say something. Please…"

I turned off my phone and went to sleep with someone else in my bed.

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Week 12 — Email Subject: Please

> I'm not asking you to be a father.

I'm just asking you not to pretend I don't exist.

I didn't reply.

I read it three times.

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Week 17 — 3 Missed Calls

> "I bought a crib today. It's white. Like your shirts."

"He moves when I say your name."

I listened to that one until her voice blurred.

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Week 36 — 2:47 AM

> "Rain, it's almost time. I'm scared again."

"You don't even have to hold him. Just be there. Just be outside the hospital."

"Please."

I never went.

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But the day she came—

The day she stood in the rain outside my apartment—

I remember her hair was soaked, clinging to her cheeks.

Her eyes swollen from something deeper than sleep.

She looked like a girl who had spent nine months clinging to hope and forty-eight hours in labor… alone.

She didn't scream.

She didn't beg.

She just held out a baby wrapped in blue and said:

> "He's two days old."

"His name is Sebastian Maddox."

"He cries like me. He looks like you."

"Please. Will you still not come back?"

Her voice cracked on the last word.

I shut the door.

Not angrily. Not with malice.

Quietly. Gently.

Like I was scared of breaking her again, even though I already had.

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I sat behind that door for hours, listening to the rain and the silence she left behind.

I couldn't sleep that night.

Not because I missed her.

But because for the first time in years—

I wasn't sure if I deserved to forget.

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I never deleted her voicemails.

Not because I loved her.

But because somewhere deep in the bones of me, I knew:

She deserved to be remembered.

And I deserved to never stop hearing her cry.