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Qian Harriett had found herself in a new chapter of her life.
This time, she finally understands what love really feels like.
But even with that newfound knowledge, she finds herself at a crossroad.

Josiah Kane enters Qian's life full of uncertainty about his feelings.
However, the moment he learns of Qian's past, he finds some sense of camaraderie in her.
But, was it love? Or just some sort of ideation for the woman Qian had become.

Pierce Kael might have been blind to the one thing he had always wanted.
But now, he was willing to protect and cherish it. Cherish her.
The only problem is whether he is willing to sacrifice his 11 years of friendship for the chance to be with her or not.

A love that revolves around taking risks, making choices, and redeeming themselves from the pain that they had all gone through.  

But in love, there can only be two people and one of them was bound to get their hearts broken.

REDEMPTION (M.T. Trilogy #2)

Warning!! Chapter might contain episodes of suicides and depression.

I felt my fingers still, the words leaving my mind as I stared at the words sprawled on my phone screen. It wasn't what I was expecting and it left me feeling restless and speechless.

It had been months since Josiah and I had started talking and we had been only going back and forth with our feelings. I don't know how he feels for me since he keeps it all concealed and that frustrates the hell out of me. He keeps on saying that he doesn't know my intentions either coz it feels like I'm making everything a joke.

But I'm not. I'm just assertive but that doesn't mean I joke about my feelings.

But that's not what made me freeze. It was that one line in his message that has me staring at it over and over again.

"My first girlfriend and first love died in a car accident years ago"

And as if that wasn't enough memories of Leonel came crashing in. Waves of loneliness and sadness threatening to break open the walls I built to keep them out of my life.

I had desperately buried everything about Leonel underneath the Earth where no one could find it. He and I were a secret whisper passed through mouths never to be heard again. And He is everything I had decided to leave behind after years of grieving him.

But now, I knew that I am not done grieving him. I am never done with the what-ifs of our relationship. I am never done loving him.

So I turn off my phone, turned everything off and locked myself in my bedroom. The anxiety and depression that was only threatening to come back into my life finally won.

Because I let them in. Because I wished again to be with Leonel.

Because for the nth time, all I could do is silently hope that everything and all of these was just a nightmare. That a life without Leonel isn't my reality right now.

So I gulped down the multiple sleeping pills, Xanax and Prozacs that are in my disposal and wished for it to take me away. To never let me wake up.

To let me be with Leonel because right now, that's all I ever want. To be with Leonel.

Because no matter how much I search for another love, it's his that I will always be yearning for. It's him that I will always want and choose over and over again.

Just let me rest by his side. Forever.

Chapter 5