it's me

Today is a special day for me, even if it doesn't seem like it to you. It's true that becoming a writer is my first and last dream, and the stories I'm sharing with you today didn't just come out of nowhere.

To become a writer, I had to go through such a struggle that many times I thought of leaving this world – not once, but thousands of times. My grandmother never accepted me, my teachers never saw my pain or my tears, and my family put such a mental burden on me that I often took wrong steps. But one thought always stayed with me: "whatever happens, happens for the best." This kept me going even in my most difficult times. Every day I faced taunts and shoves from people. Every day I was compared to a new person. Every day I would cry in secret. My fate was such that I couldn't even cry openly. The daily beatings from teachers and the constant belittling from my family hollowed me out so much that I can't even describe it further. There was no one with me, absolutely no one. For 19 years, no one even spoke to me properly, so sympathy was miles away. But they say, "whatever happens, happens for the best."

One day, a new ray of hope entered my life. I heard someone on TV say, "Fake it till you make it." They also explained its meaning. From that day on, I started living my dreams in my imagination. At first, loneliness bothered me, but now it became my friend. And then I started talking to myself. I would imagine a scene and get lost in it, as if it were really happening. I started bringing every imagination to life with my acting. Mostly, I would imagine myself as a writer, and slowly I distanced myself from my family, from society, from everyone. And then I met this intelligent universe, which started guiding me every step of the way. In a short time, I understood what my purpose was.