Chapter 8 The Way He Looks at the Sea

There wasn't a precise moment when Ren realized he was falling.

It wasn't dramatic — no sudden pulse of his heart, no grand music in the background. It came in fragments. In the way Aoi sipped his tea with both hands, like warmth was something he had to hold tightly. In how he always paused before speaking, as if weighing his words on invisible scales. In how he never looked Ren directly in the eye when the emotions were real.

Love came like rain on glass. Soft. Steady. Unavoidable.

It was a Thursday when they walked down to the shore after sunset.

The sky had turned to amber, streaked with purple, and the town behind them had begun folding itself into sleep. Aoi's sketchbook was tucked beneath his arm, unopened.

They didn't speak much. They rarely did when the sea was involved.

Aoi stood near the edge of the rocks, the tide brushing close. His eyes tracked the horizon like he was waiting for something — a memory, maybe, or the ghost of a voice.

Ren watched him.

Not just because Aoi was beautiful in that quiet, unlit way — but because he had never seen anyone look at the world the way Aoi did. Like it had both broken and saved him.

Ren took a slow breath.

He wanted to touch him — not in a rush, not in desperation. Just to press his fingers gently to Aoi's, to see if he'd lean into it. To see if they were both ready.

But he didn't.

Not yet.

"I used to come here when I felt like disappearing," Aoi said suddenly, voice barely above the waves. "I thought maybe the sea would understand."

Ren stepped beside him. "Did it?"

A pause. Then: "I think… it waited. Until someone else did too."

Ren turned. Aoi wasn't looking at the ocean anymore. He was looking at him.

And this time, he didn't look away.

They sat on the rocks until the sky turned indigo and the moon carved itself into the water.

Ren tore a page from his journal and handed it to Aoi.

Aoi unfolded it slowly.

"I don't know what love feels like.

But I know what it doesn't.

It doesn't leave.

It doesn't stay silent forever.

It doesn't look away when you're ready to be seen."

Aoi folded the paper again, carefully. Reverently.

"Ren," he whispered.

Ren's heart thudded.

But Aoi didn't say anything else. He just stood, eyes glinting with something fragile, and walked ahead — not too far. Just enough to leave space for Ren to follow.

Which he did.

Because he was falling.

And maybe Aoi was too.