Chapter 9 The Window That Never Closed

The next time Ren came to the guesthouse, Aoi wasn't sketching.

He was sitting on the floor of his room, surrounded by torn paper. Not crumpled — torn. Neatly. Deliberately. Like each page was something he wanted to forget.

Ren froze at the doorway. "Aoi?"

Aoi didn't look up. "It was just noise. All of it."

Ren stepped inside slowly, his voice quiet. "What happened?"

Aoi's hands trembled slightly as he gathered the pieces. "My parents called. They're coming back next week. Haven't seen them in over a year."

Ren sat beside him. The air felt different today — tense, charged, like a thread pulled too tight.

"You're upset."

Aoi gave a breath of something like a laugh, but without humor. "No. I'm used to being invisible when they're around. I'm just… preparing."

Ren watched him carefully. "Preparing to disappear again?"

Aoi didn't answer.

So Ren reached out, slowly, and placed a hand over Aoi's.

It was the first time he'd done that. Skin to skin. Real.

Aoi flinched — not away, but like the touch startled something deep inside.

Ren didn't let go.

"You don't have to go quiet for them," he said gently. "You don't have to fade."

Aoi turned to him, and this time, his eyes held that haunted shine — the kind of shine that comes from holding too much in for too long.

"My father told me once that artists starve because they feel too much and talk too little. He said I'd never grow up if I kept hiding in notebooks."

Ren's jaw clenched. "He doesn't get to decide what makes you whole."

Aoi blinked. "You really think I'm whole?"

Ren gave a trembling smile. "I think you're still becoming. And that's braver than pretending you've already finished."

Aoi looked away, but not before Ren saw it — the water in his eyes. The crack in the mask.

And then — in a voice smaller than he'd ever heard from him — Aoi whispered, "Will you still come back next week? Even if they're here?"

Ren squeezed his hand.

"I'll come back every time."

A pause.

And then Aoi leaned forward — slowly, shakily — until his forehead rested against Ren's chest. Not his shoulder this time. His chest. Closer. More fragile. More real.

Ren held him like something sacred.

And outside the guesthouse, the wind moved gently through the trees — as if even the world had gone quiet to let this moment breathe.