Sad!

"Her feelings were lost

so she left me behind

I would search for those feelings

that she couldn't find.

but I saw her today.

smile and play

now I see she never lost

she just threw them away"

Poem by me. Titled: Thrown

She left me. These past few months were pretty bad. 3 months ago, my close friend died. Now she left me. Why'd she say yes when she would leave? She said it's our family. But that's just an excuse. If she really loved me. She wouldn't care about their opinions. I actually fought my father cuz he didn't like her (more like told him what I thought). I asked her if she's using the family as an excuse. She said yes. Turns out she lost feelings. When she broke it off, she was also laughing with her friends. They were joking around while breaking up with me. I saw her after that today. She was laughing and having fun with her friends. I guess I really meant nothing when she could still be happy.

It hurts. I'm sorry. I feel like I'm being stabbed inside. It feels painful. I wonder how I'm gonna function in school? Just act normal. Like everythings fine. I really love her, but did she feel the same?

Sincerely: Calamity